a very public private journal

24 year old bi jewish trans guy

[s-rafael-blog1]

hi I know i’m never on here

sorry

where do I find other trans people to date? :’(

[s-rafael-blog1]

i really want to go back home to my apartment

[s-rafael-blog1]

surgeon says I can let my dick hang now.

that means I can go grocery shopping without worrying about a boner!!

[s-rafael-blog1]

well I haven’t posted photos but tumblr sucks worse now so idk if i’ll stay here

message me privately and i’ll give you my instagram if you want to keep in touch

i’m thinking about making a private instagram for phallo related stuff

[s-rafael-blog1]

well fuck u tumblr

[chroniclebooks]

Happy Hanukkah from the Hanukcats! 

[tiredgaykeith]

Remember today when you see 100+ articles about how ‘civil’ and ‘noble’ H.W. Bush was that today is World AIDS Day. That 100,000 people, many LGBT+ individuals, especially gay men, died under his and Reagan’s watch. That he banned HIV+ people from entering the US, reduced research funding, and prevented educators from speaking about safe sex in favor of abstinence only education.

[s-rafael-blog1]

i’m not sure if I want to share photos here. I have a private facebook group where i’ll share, but putting photos here feels...unsafe.

but im happy to answer questions. i’m just over 2 weeks post op from my first stage of rff phalloplasty with dr. bluebond-langner and team in nyc. my first stage consisted of phallus creation and scrotoplasty. next stage will be glansplasty and vaginectomy, and maybe a scrotal revision. i am not doing UL. i’m doing fine, haven’t had any real complications so far besides a very small hematoma and some bleeding.

[s-rafael-blog1]

Who was your surgeon?

dr. bluebond-langner and team at NYU.

[s-rafael-blog1]

thinking about the nurse in the hospital who told me my dick felt “really real.” no duh, it is real..?

[s-rafael-blog1]

ooh DRAMA.

my mom just told me my uncle referred to my surgery as “elective.” nice!!!

[s-rafael-blog1]

sorry i’m terrible at updating here. everything is fine, i’m home, first post-op is tomorrow.

[s-rafael-blog1]

I would prefer 59 catheters inserted than working on black friday so thx

[liho907lilo]

Everyone going shopping on Black Friday, be aware of three things:

The retail workers are working 12 hours shifts. We are threatened with losing our jobs if we don’t show up unless we’re dying in the hospital. I had an assistant manager show up with fucking strep because he would’ve been fired otherwise. Yes, he did infect 7 and hospitalize 2 coworkers; who knows how many members of the public he infected.

The stores have, maybe, 5 of that special cheap thing you’re after. Corporate does this on purpose, and stores are not allowed to order enough. The prices aren’t even that much lower. They lie about how expensive something is to fool you into thinking you’re getting a discount. You aren’t.

Most of the workers you will come across will be new hires for the sole purpose of being bodies for about three months before they’re fired. They actually don’t know anything because they’ve been working there for maybe two weeks, and have had no real training. I was once hired at Staples a week before Black Friday and expected to know how to deal with phones, coupons, the online ordering site, and AS400 after five 6-hour shifts. This is the kind of person you will likely be dealing with at Black Friday.

Do me and my retail family a favor and don’t shop Black Friday. Any company that needs a sale day like Black Friday to get their sales out of the red doesn’t deserve to be in business. 

[gothtigger92-deactivated2021052]

This also goes for anyone that works shipment too. We’re suddenly expected to stay as late as they want you to even if they know you don’t have a car and rely on a ride to get you to and from work and know you can’t stay late. Shipment workers will suddenly start getting berated for not getting things done and it is by far the most stressful time to be a shipment worker for any store. Especially when they throw in new hires that don’t know how to process things and are expected to work at the same pace as the people that have worked there for a while.

Retail is shit around the holidays, especially Black Friday

[vitabreva]

Black Friday is evil. Don’t participate.

[mioxenoblade]

Do every retail employee a favor this Thanksgiving/black friday: stay home.

[s-rafael-blog1]

catheters suck

not bring able to pee sucks worse

[s-rafael-blog1]

when the physical therapy doc came in, during her assessment she asked me what my goals were. I said to eventually get back to being able to go to the gym every day. then when I tried to stand up, I passed out, and I think it’s sort of hilarious. reach for the moon, I guess?