active as of JUL 2021

🥩jay▪︎5teen▪︎they/it/xe nb lesbian▪︎cw: 155.7 :/▪︎gw: 150▪︎ugw 135🥩 read pinned post before interacting

[s0upenthusiast]

‼READ BEFORE LOOKING AT MY PAGE‼

I AM NOT PROANA.

huge tw for eds, if thinspo and talk of weightloss and counting calories can retrigger you please block me.

don't report please. having a blog about this stuff makes me feel less alone and is how i cope. if you feel uncomfortable seeing my posts, just block me.

DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU

-are in recovery

-do not currently have an ed

-are looking to develop an ed (i promise you it's not worth it.)

-are pro-ed or pro-ana

[s0upenthusiast]

holy fickjng shit i need to stop doing stuff that ends up exposing me to sometging i wasnt supposed to see

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i got onto my moms tablet to google sometjing cause my phone was dead and i opened tik tok which was logged into my sister's account and scrolled through the notifs out of curiosity and found a notif for a comment that she posted under a "get something off your chest" video that said "my sister came out as gay and then out as transgender and she wants to change her name to jay" and fuck 😁😁😁😁

it pisses me off so bad that i have had to fight every day of my life to be where i am right now and i do so much stuff for her and she has had everything handed to her on a silver platter and has every friend she could ever want and she still has the audacity to act like i am ruining her life by just existing as myself

[s0upenthusiast]

holy fickjng shit i need to stop doing stuff that ends up exposing me to sometging i wasnt supposed to see

[s0upenthusiast]

can people please stop commenting on my weight at all. like no matter what you say you are still feeding into my violent and irrational ed

[s0upenthusiast]

missing my cat extra bad these last couple of nights, i just want to hold her one last time

[s0upenthusiast]

I HAVE A THIGH GAP??????

[s0upenthusiast]

hi guys been a hot minute since i last posted and i did a lot of self reflecting and made a lot of important decisions and come to a lot of realizations. anyway. i'm a nb lesbian 👍

[s0upenthusiast]

i feel like a shell

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been fasting for almost 48 hours at this point and i just want some meat like chicken or somethin good like that to break my fast but we have nothing in the house rn

[s0upenthusiast]

sometimes i think "what if im not trans?? what if im doing all this and just embarrasing myself??" and then start legitimately thinking about giving myself at-home top surgery

[s0upenthusiast]

got outed to my old classmates 😐 fuck

[thefactsofthematter]

[svelt3-blog]

for everyone who has to lose 20+lbs

youre going to be hungry a lot. but itll only be for a while

you don’t have to feel like this forever. even if you binge when you get there a few times and have to lose 2lb or 3lb, if youre careful you’ll never have to lose this much weight ever again. you can do it.

[thinner-than-a-ghost]

[s0upenthusiast]

my family is always like "ohhh you're doing so good these days!!" like no i'm still depressed and starving myself and literally hanging on by a thread you guys just shamed me for it and treated my issues like a burden so i hid it away and struggle to deal with it myself so you wouldn't have to see it

[s0upenthusiast]

i love the way my legs burn and ache after i work out

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im so mad cuz i would look sexy as fuck without all the fat.