crashed

also isaii - 25 - sag hi welcome to my online journal

[sabbcorns]

there’s so much in my plate what i need is clarity, time and space -

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but because i have no friends to run to opened my computer and start typing my thoughts -- and it feel surreal 

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i was about to sleep but i suddenly felt so sad.

[owlmylove]

no one tells you how much of life takes practice. not just writing, painting, running, singing, etc, but practicing how to make friends. how to make the right ones. getting practiced at how to be a good friend, a good sibling, a good person. practice identifying when people haven’t earned that. learning to recognize your right to rage and, eventually, how to offer mercy. so much of life is muscle memory, and i’ve begun to realize there are so many more parts of ourselves to flex and stretch and strengthen than those we’re taught in anatomy lessons

[sabbcorns]

i feel like a bad person for not having a go to friend :(

[sabbcorns]

you have a sad blog.

i know and i am

[stuff-from-web]

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finally retrieved my blog

[tumblrrmokong]

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I always thought we were perfect

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[connotativewords]

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[psych-facts]

You are not clingy, or needy, or silly for having needs for affection and affirmation and attention within a romantic relationship. Those needs aren’t an embarrassing outgrowth of your low-self esteem or depression or whatever messy emotional issues you may have going on, that’s just basic shit that people need from each other. We of course should not make our partners responsible for meeting all of our emotional needs – it’s not someone’s else’s job to make you happy. But inside a healthy relationship, being able to show affection, pay attention, and demonstrate “you are amazing and important to me” is a pleasure, not some task or burden.

Jennifer Peepas  (via coyotegold)

[thelovewhisperer]

We run back to each other when it’s convenient. We know that in the end, we’re meant for each other but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we’re okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it’s that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.

(via ohlovequotes)

[sabbcorns]

I don't care how irrelevant this post go, I just want to spill out how hard it is to be a college student, to aim for good grades at exams and to at least left behind the things I love to do ,and yet ending up unhappy even though I am doing the best thing to make everything alright. It's still so hard to stick to studying even though I am already taking the course of my choice. I am so heart broken because I don't know what's really bothering me from the inside. Uhg :(

[sabbcorns]

I feel incomplete and I really want to go home tomorrow :( Aug. 2