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Out unseen
This is my main series, and it follows a team in a fantasy setting as they fight to take down a cruel, powerful man and his web of influence. When Felicia, a magic healer, is captured by Volkan, she fights to hold onto herself through his abuse and torture while the rest of the team fights to bring her home. Painful magic healing, magic mind control, captivity, and a lot of explicit nsfw noncon.
Some of my past series and pieces are:Â Â
By flash and thunder fire
Whumptober 2020 | Kidnapping | Betrayal of trust | Conflicted whumper/caretaker | Lady vs mean men
Val-Norina
Based on a roleplay with @whumpymirages | pirate kidnaps a princess, falls in love | f/f enemies to friends to lovers | the captain is gross
Generic characters
aka generic scenarios or oneshots with characters iâm never gonna use again
It was his first time seeing Felicia in over a month, and all Marcus could think was: fuck. Heâd had nightmares of this moment, of how sheâd looked when he last saw her, and none of them prepared him for the reality.
She was shaking when she hugged him, but as Volkan pulled her off of him too soon, she burst with frantic energy. âVolkan,â she hissed, squaring her body between him and Marcusâfuck, heâd just gotten here, and she was already placing herself between him and danger. He was as useless as heâd ever been, wrists and ankles bound, the ropes unyielding to his efforts to slice them on the brick edge lining the hearth. The flames warmed his back, and the ropes held firm.
With the distance between them now, he could see Felicia more clearlyâthe bruises, the wet tangle of hair, the metal bangles on her wrists like shackles, the desperation in her eyes as she pressed her hands against Volkanâs broad chest. âVolkan, please, he has nothing to do with this, he doesnât have to be hereââ
âWould you rather I just killed him?â It was the first time Volkan had spoken, and the rumble of his voice sent a spiking pulse of hatred through Marcus unlike anything heâd felt before. For all that Felicia was pushing back against him, he was unmoved. One eye gleamed with delight; the other was covered by a black hole of an eyepatch.
âVolkan, please.â Feliciaâs voice cracked on the word. âPlease, just let him go, Iâll do whatever you want, just not himââ
âYouâre getting hysterical.â Calm and steady, Volkan placed his hands on her shoulders and guided her towards one of the leather armchairs circling the fireplace. âYou need to relax if you want to be with him for this.â
At that, Marcus snapped. âStop touching her, you fucking freakââ
âIâll get to you in a minute, boy,â Volkan said, waving a dismissive hand in his direction as he forced Felicia into the chair. She was pale, silent, eyes wide, and she allowed herself to be sat down without protest. Their chance for freedom was slipping away.
âFeliciaââ If she was tied down, if neither of them could move, it was over. Marcus fought his bonds with fresh urgency. âFelicia, do something!â
She locked eyes with him, and hers were dull, the light fading. Everything was moving too fast and in slow motion all at once as Volkan pulled cuffs from his pocketâfucking creep, did he carry those around all the time?âand bound Felicia to the chair by one wrist, then the other. Marcus thrashed, and by the time Felicia snapped into action, she was already trapped. They had lost before theyâd even begun.
Volkan brushed her hair from her face with a mock tenderness, then turned back to face Marcus. He cleared the space between them in in a few steps and loomed over Marcus. Fuck, he was so tall. Marcus had to crane his neck to look up at him, and that pissed him off even more.
âVolkan, please.â Feliciaâs voice was shaking, and the sound of it hurt Marcus more than anything. Looking past the bulk of Volkan, Marcus could just make her out in the glow of the fireplace, small and making herself smaller with every breath.
Volkanâs smile was slow, indulgent, infuriating, and he allowed her to stumble over her words for a minute before sliding a knife from his belt. The blade of it caught the light, and Felicia fell silent.
Marcus was silent, too, watching the knife like a hawk. It was dangerâbut it was an opportunity. All he needed was two fucking seconds and he could do it. Heâd grab the knife and drive it through Volkanâs heart and get them both out of there. His pulse pounded with anticipation.
Turning the blade, Volkan pressed the flat of it against Marcusâs cheek almost gently. His free hand ran through Marcusâs hair with an intimacy that sent ice through his veins, that reminded him of what Felicia had told him after the dance and what this man was capable of.
âOpen your mouth.â The command was both unexpected and inevitable, and Marcus could only recoil. From her chair, Felicia was struggling anew, pleading, âVolkanââ
Volkan smiled down at Marcus almost sweetly, and then he crossed the room in two steps and buried the knife in Feliciaâs stomach. It was so fast, so sudden, Marcus couldnât processâand then it slammed into clarity, and he was yelling, and Felicia was frozen, blood welling up around where the knife pierced her. Her eyes were glassy and her chest heaved with tiny breaths.
âI can heal her.â Volkan left the knife to return to Marcus. Marcus couldnât tear his eyes from Felicia, whose hands gripped the armrests with white knuckles, whose face was paling by the second. She was going to die while he did nothing.
âMarcus.â Rough hands tilted his face away from Felicia to look up again at Volkan. He was already hard, the piece of shit. âI can heal her. But first you need to open your mouth.â
âFuck you, you bastard,â Marcus spat. Volkan was a sick fuck, and it was a game to him, and Marcus had lost.
Volkan said nothing, smiling broadly, and after a heartbeat and another hitch of breath from Felicia, Marcus opened his mouth.
Volkan took his cock out and rested it between Marcusâs lips, doing nothing, and fuck, this bastard was going to make him do all the work. From the corner of his eye, he could see Felicia stirring, coming back into herself; and then he realized he couldnât look at her while doing this, so he closed his eyes and began to suck.
With his eyes shut and the roar in his ears blocking out the world around him, the cock in his mouth could be anyoneâs, some anonymous hookup at a bar, some guy heâd crashed with after a late night. He leaned into that feeling; this was sex, nothing more, and if he could finish it quicklyâ
âEyes open, boy.â Volkanâs voice struck like a clap of thunder. âLook at me.â
White-hot with hatred, Marcus opened his eyes, and as he made eye contact with Volkan he swore the cock in his mouth twitched. Fucking smug piece of shit, good eye gleaming in the firelight, one large hand resting lightly on Marcusâs head, and Marcus was off-kilter with his hands still tied behind his back but fuck it, he was going to finish this. He leaned forward, venomous, taking Volkan deeper, tongue tracing a vein along his length. He had never hated someone more, and he turned that hatred into a twisted passion, because Felicia was bleeding out in a chair and every second he spent indulging this sick bastard was another second she slipped further away from him.
Marcus worked the cock in his mouth by feel, responding to each twitch and throb, tightening his lips, his glare never leaving Volkanâs face. The bastard was so horny, it couldnât be long nowâand there it was, Volkan pressed the back of Marcusâs head and hilted himself down his throat and came. Marcus took it all without a sound, a thin line of saliva connecting his lips to the flaccid cock as it was drawn from his mouth. Volkan tucked himself back in his trousers, and in his face Marcus saw the post-orgasm haze of pleasure that meant his guard was down, that this was their best chance.
Volkan crouched, knees cracking, and brought his gaze to Marcusâs eye level. âYouâre fun,â he murmured, good eye tracing the venom in Marcusâs expression. âItâs almost a shame, what Iâm going toââ
Marcus slung his head out in a wild headbutt, angling for Volkanâs blind side. It hit with a satisfying crack and a grunt from Volkan, and Marcus was already scrambling back. He was jumbled, still tied up, but his mind already raced ahead; maybe if he could get the knife, or one of those fireplace toolsâ
Then his world exploded with stars, head cracking against the hardwood floor as Volkan bore down on top of him. He struggled to rise, but Volkanâs hand forced his head into the ground, his eyes watering as he stared into the fireplace. âWeâre not done here yet,â Volkan growled in his ear.
Still bearing down his weight, Volkan shifted and began to work at the rope binding Marcusâs legs together. Marcusâs blood froze; and then he redoubled his efforts. âYou piece of shit,â he spat, âsheâs going to dieââ
Then his legs were free, and he pushed himself away before Volkan could make his next move, struggling to his feet with his arms still bound behind him. To his surprise, Volkan let him stand. Marcus braced himself, legs wide, finding his balance. He kept his eyes trained on Volkan, but risked a quick glance at Feliciaâface pale, chest fluttering with breath, eyes wideâbefore fixing his attention on the threat before him. Volkan rose easily, rolling the tension from his shoulders, considering and then he punched Marcus across the jaw.
For all he had been expecting an attack, Marcus was still caught off-guard by the speed with which Volkan struck. The blow sent him staggering, and then he lost his balance and stumbled to the floor. He rolled away, expecting a kick that didnât come. Instead, Volkan loomed above him, the ghost of a smirk crossing his face. âGet up, boy,â he growled.
Face throbbing, Marcus rose, and when Volkan attacked again, he was ready. He danced out of the way of the next punch, using his momentum to put space between them and buy himself some time. As much freedom of movement as he had, he was useless with his hands still bound behind him. If he could just cut the ropesâhe risked another glance at Felicia, the dagger embedded in her abdomen, but fuck, if he messed with that she could just bleed out even fasterâand then Volkan landed another blow on his cheek, sending him reeling across the room.
There had to be a way out, but every time Marcus approached it, Volkan struck again. The blows left him unbalanced, unable to focus, if he could just take a minute to catch his breathâbut Volkan was relentless. And the worst of it was that even as each blow stunned him and took his breath away, Marcus could tell the man was holding something back. He was toying with him, smiling, probably getting hard again, the bastard. Each punch, each kick left Marcus more and more exhausted, while Volkan was still pristine save the growing bruise on his face where Marcus had landed his headbutt. Furious, desperate, he tried the same maneuver, slinging his head at Volkanâs blind side. He missed, and an elbow to the back of the skull send him sprawling on his stomach, wind knocked from him and the world spinning around him.
Volkan was on top of him again before he could move, and the rough hands at his back began untying his wrists. He couldnât dare to trust this new freedom, not with Felicia watching with fresh terror, and at the jangle of metal behind him, he barely managed to turn his head and look back over his shoulder. Above him, on top of him, Volkan held two thin metal bangles, twins to the ones Felicia wore, and even with his untuned senses Marcus could feel the prickle of magic gathering around them.
âWhat are youââ Marcus began, and then Volkan slipped the first cuff around his wrist and he suffocated. No, that wasnât itâhe could breathe, but something was weaving around him, trapping him, threatening to invade, and then Volkan slid the second cuff around his other wrist andâ
And he was gone, he couldnât see Felicia or the room or anything anymore, he was in darknessâ
and something ensnared him that he couldnât understand, something in his mind or soul or whatever the fuck, and he still couldnât breatheâ
and then something that was him or the thing ensnaring him told him to relax, and he did, and the darkness became even darker but he was relaxed, and it didnât matter that he couldnât breathe.
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Felicia was fading. The knife embedded in her stopped the worst of the blood loss, but each pulse of her pounding heart drained more life from her, and she could almost convince herself that the prickling she felt all over was from that and not from the magic Volkan was weaving over Marcusâs unconscious body. The metal cuffs on his wrists gleamed dully in the firelight.
Volkan rose with his same easy smile, poison in his eye. âWeâll give him a minute,â he said with a nod at Marcus as he stepped over to Felicia. She couldnât look at Volkan, couldnât take her eyes off her friendâs crumpled form a few unreachable steps from her.
âVolkan, whatâah!â She cut herself off with a sharp gasp of pain as he twitched the knife in her abdomen. He had barely touched it, yet that tiny movement was enough to drive her breath from her, insides twisted and burning and pulsing.
Volkan traced the thin ooze of blood around the blade of the knife. âI hope this hasnât been too distracting for you,â he murmured, twisting the knife just so and forcing a ragged yell from her strained throat. Her weak fingers gripped the edges of the chair she was bound to, and when he ripped the knife from her body, her vision went white.
She blinked rapidly, and as her vision returned, the first thing she saw was Marcus, unmoved. He could be dead, but for the slow rise and fall of his chest. Volkan probed into her now-freely-bleeding wound and she arched her back, straining to get away. Her blood soaked into the thin dress she wore and pooled into the worn leather of the chair.
When he finally healed the wound, it was with a slow breath that promised more pain to come, and it gave her no relief. Marcus still hadnât moved. âVolkan, whatâwhat is heââ
âHeâll be fine.â He brushed her hair back with bloodstained fingers, leaving a smear across her cheek. Her body tingled with the lingering absence of pain from the healing, the slow replenishing of blood within her. Willing herself beyond the hopelessness of the situation, she focused her gaze on Marcus, as if the power of her staring would be enough to bring him back.
Then he gasped, and her heartrate redoubled. Marcus twisted on the ground, eyes a bright flash in the light of the fireplace before he shut them again, face turning away. Volkan moved to him and crouched over him with something that could be curiosity. He murmured to Marcus, voice too low for Felicia to make out any words, and then he stood back.
âMarcus, get up,â Volkan said, and Marcus did so. There was blood on his face where Volkan had touched him. Marcus was bleeding as well, a thin trail of blood from his nose mingling with a split lip, and bruises were already forming across his face. For a moment, that was the only damage Felicia could see.
But the longer she stared at him, and he stared back, silent and unmoving, the more her skin prickled. Something in his energy, his stance, was different. His face was blank; even as his eyes bore into hers, they simultaneously looked beyond her, or maybe at nothing. And he was so still. Marcus had never been still in his life.
Something was very wrong.
âWhat did you do to him?â Her voice was shaking.
âHeâs completely fine,â Volkan said. âMarcus, let her know youâre fine. Give her a smile. Wave hello.â
âIâm fine,â Marcus said, in a voice that was and was not his. The corners of his lips turned up in a facsimile of a smile that didnât reach his eyes; his hand moved in a wave with no feeling behind it.
Felicia recoiled as if heâd slapped her. That couldnât be Marcus. It moved like a creature wearing Marcusâs skin.
âVolkan. whatââ She strained against her bonds, lightheaded with terror. âWhat did you do?â
âMarcus, slap her in the face.â
Marcus moved as if he were completing some mundane household chore, and then his palm cracked against Feliciaâs cheek. It didnât hurt. There was no force behind it, but neither was there any apprehension. It was a slap.
Volkan moved closer as well, considering. âHarder than that, Marcus,â he chided.
The next slap snapped her face to the side, her ears ringing. Tears sprang to her eyes from the physical shock of it, and Marcus loomed over her, unmoved.
âPunch her in the face.â
âMarcusââ Before she could finish the thought, his fist slammed into her cheek, cracking her head against the back of the chair. âMarcus, Marcus, stopââ
âKeep hitting her until I tell you to stop.â
The blows came at her at random, glancing across her cheek, her shoulder, her jaw. Whenever she blinked the stars from her eyes, she saw Marcusâs face, her best friend, but no, it couldnât be him. He couldnât be beating her with that blank look on his face. Each punch rattled deep inside her, driving cracked rivulets through some secure part of her she hadnât even realized sheâd been holding onto. How naive of her, to think there was any part of her being that Volkan couldnât shatter.
âMarcus, stop.â
Marcusâs arms dropped to his sides, gaze once again focused on nothing. Felicia sucked in a deep breath that turned into a cough that shook her body in fresh pain that sent her into a spasm of gasps, folding in on herself as much as she could with the bindings still holding her tight to the chair. When her vision cleared and she looked up through sweat-damp bangs, Volkan held the same knife heâd stabbed her with.
âMarcus.â He took Marcusâs hand and placed the knife in it, curling each finger around the hilt. âUse this knife to stab yourself in the left eye.â
Marcusâs arm moved as if in slow motion, and Feliciaâs heart froze. âMarcus, stop!â The knife drew closer to his face. âStop, please, Volkan, Iâll do whatever you want, just stopââ
Volkan spoke and rose his hand, and Marcus froze, the knife hovering inches from his face. Volkanâs gaze on Felicia was hungry. âWhatever I want?â
No no no no, she thought, but she bit down the protest. âYes,â she choked out, âwhatever you want, just please, leave him alone, you already have meââ
âI do have you,â Volkan agreed, âand you already do whatever I want. Marcus, do it.â
The knife moved again, and despite herself, Felicia squeezed her eyes shut. A soft sound that mightâve been a grape popping, and a small exhale of breath, and when Felicia peeked out from half-shut eyes, it was done. Marcus stood at ease, knife casually dangling from one hand, freely bleeding from the ruin of his eye. She was going to be sick.
âMarcusâŠâ she began, but there was nothing to say.
Volkan took Marcusâs chin in his hand and turned his head, examining the gore with grisly relish. He took the knife, wiping the blood off on Marcusâs shirt before sheathing it and turning to Felicia. His hands brushed the cuffs holding her, leaving a smear of blood, and with a spark of magic, the bonds were released.
She flexed her wrists, staring up at Marcus in mute horror, unable to move.
âGet up,â Volkan said, not ungently. âYou need to heal him before he bleeds out.â
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Felicia hit the hard cement of the basement floor as she had countless times before, and yet like she never had before. She was bruised and bloody, her shoulder screamed where she had been shot, and deep inside her, something long dormant now burned brightly.
Volkan was also different. His single eye no longer held that deep, personal hatred heâd thrown at her in the woods, but neither did it shine with his usual frivolous amusement. His boundless rage was now concentrated to a fine point, focused and honed and deadly.
She staggered to her feet, but before she could fully rise he kicked her onto her back. She sprawled out, and he slammed his boot onto her shoulder where heâd shot her. He stomped again. Something in her cracked.
It was a dance theyâd performed countless times before. Already, the fire in her was fading, smothered by pain and blood loss, but noâshe grit her teeth and held on. She was going to lose, but that didnât mean she had to make it easy for him.
When he snarled a hand in her hair to drag her across the room, she dug useless nails into his skin. He ripped the sleep dress from her body with a single tear, and she lashed naked legs at him as if she could stop him. He threw her onto a metal table like she weighed nothing, and all her wild lashing was nothing as he strapped down her arms and legs.
She was secured, arms pinned, hips at the edge of the table, legs spread, because he was so fucking predictable.
Volkan ran his hands along her bloody body, drawing out the lightest healing from her. It was just enough to prevent her from bleeding out, not enough to truly ease the pain. Heâd gotten very good at that level of granular healing.
He considered her, half his face cloaked in blood and shadows, and his silence unnerved her. He hadnât spoken a single word since bringing her to the basement, where the silence echoed louder than her screams.
Then he stepped behind her and out of her line of vision. She stretched her neck back as much as she could, but restrained as she was, she couldnât get an angle to see him. She could hear his heavy footsteps, and then the harsh sound of metal on cement: he was dragging something across the floor. Her heart rate tripled.
He returned and stood between her spread legs. The sound of his belt unbuckling was almost a relief, because it was something she understood, something she expected from him. He could rape her a dozen times over, and she would close her mind and bear it.
He thrust into her without ceremony. She was as dry as sheâd ever been, tense from pain, and he tore through her like paper. She gasped despite herself as he forced his way deeper, her burning insides contrasting with the unyielding cold of the metal table against her back. Each thrust rocked her, jolting her injuries, splitting her body.
And yet he barely seemed to be taking any pleasure from it. She knew what his pleasure looked like, the endless ways heâd chased it with her suffering, and the way he fucked her now wasnât about his pleasure at all. It was his attempt to reassert his dominance over her, because in all this time, rape was the only way he knew to take control of a situation. It was pathetic, and he was pathetic, and she was in agony but she didnât care.
He finished in her with the slightest exhale and pulled out before she could blink, walking again to the blind spot behind her. Again, the heavy sound of metal behind her, and the dread building within her. She breathed heavily, angling again to try to see him, the movement sending a fresh jolt of pain from where heâd fucked her.
When he returned, his eye still held that sharp, focused anger. When his hands touched her body, they were laced with magic, and the air buzzed with it a split second before pain shot through her.
Each touch sent white-hot magic through her like bolts of lightning. He touched her stomach, and her body seized with the electric agony. Her shoulder, her hip, her thigh. With each jolt, she couldnât move, couldnât breathe, her body paralyzed as the current of pure magic ran through her. Then he targeted her most sensitive areas, her nipples, between her legs, because he was a fucking pervert. She couldnât hold back the scream that broke through as he sent a burst of burning magic through her clit.
She trembled, a thin sheen of sweat covering her body. He had paused at last, but she knew the anticipation would make the next touch sharper than ever. She sucked in a gulp of air, wanting to spit words at him, but it was useless. What would a fuck you, you piece of shit do except highlight her own helplessness? He was pissed, and he wasnât talking, but she knew him. This was foreplay to him. Whatever was coming next would be much, much worse.
He touched her again and she flinched, but it wasnât the magic-laced touch of before. Almost tenderly, he wiped down the skin of her shoulderânot the one heâd shot, the other one, where a lifetime ago heâd given her a cigarette burn. The scar of it lingered as a faint white circle, an inverse freckle.
He spoke at last. âAre you familiar with the symbol for failed healing magic?â
She was. It was standardized across all hospitals and clinics, a symbol all aspiring healers learned on their first day in healerâs college. A deceptively simple series of lines and loops, found stamped in medical files to represent failure. An attempt at healing that didnât take. An injury that was too grave. A healer that wasnât good enough.
Not trusting her voice, she jerked a nod.
Seemingly satisfied by that, Volkan nodded in return. He reached behind her, and at first her mind couldnât piece together what she was seeing: the swirled symbol, glowing white-hot. A branding iron.
The heat of it, inches from her, triggered a primal terror. She pressed her body away, chains and metal table digging into her skin. âVolkanââ
âItâll be worse if you move.â Something of a smile started to creep back into his faceâdespite everything, he was enjoying her pain, her fear. He loved that he could still get to her.
His free hand pressed into her sternum, holding her in place, and brought the iron down to her bare flesh.
The minute it touched her skin, her vision went white. The burn was worse than any magic heâd used, worse than the cigarette heâd burned her with, worse than anything, and she couldnât stop her bodyâs instinctive attempts to twist away from the heat. Even over her screams, she swore she could hear her own flesh sizzling. The meat of her shoulder was melting away, leaving bone, leaving nothing.
He ripped the brand away at last and a bit of flesh went with it; she was on the cusp of hyperventilating. Grabbing her head, he forced her to look at her shoulder, at the mark heâd left. She struggled, and then everything slammed into focus: angry burning skin, hot and red and charred and oozing and agonizing.
He traced a nail along the edge of the burn, and her scream became a sob. âStopââ
âI havenât started.â
He released the bindings holding her down and slid her body to the floor. She couldnât even bring herself to all fours. Everything sheâd had in her had left when he ripped the brand from her flesh.
She barely managed to lift her head as he stalked around her and lashed a vicious kick to her ribs, and again, and again. She coughed, gasped, struggled to breathe. In the haze of her vision, he was a blurred mountain looming over her.
Then the bracelets at her wrists hummed with fresh magic, and she flinched against the imminent pain before chains connected to her shackles, dragging her to kneeling, to her feet, to her tiptoes. Stretched and swaying, she couldnât quite get a solid foothold; when he crowded into her naked body, hands stroking her hips, her attempted kick was weightless.
âIf youâre very lucky,â he said, âI will kill you in the next twenty-four hours.â
The terror of his words was there, tight in her chest, threatening to break freeâbut there was something more beneath the surface. She didnât want to die, and she had never been as vulnerable as she was in this moment, but neither had she ever been as honest as she was now. Sheâd drawn something out of him that sheâd never seen before, a twisted honesty in turn, and she no longer needed to scrape and appease and make herself small for him.
With nothing else to say, she spat in his face.
He didnât blink at that, holding her gaze, his own inscrutable, one eye a bloody crater.
The basement door opened.
His expression didnât change on the surface, but she knew him, and she saw the shifting of miniscule muscles like the shadow of a storm. Behind him, a staff member approached with the air of a man on the gallows. Volkan didnât turn from Felicia.
âVolkanâŠâ The man placed a cautious hand on Volkanâs arm. He barely went up to Volkanâs shoulders.
âI trust this is incredibly important.â Volkan removed his hands from her at last, and turned to face the man.
âIâm so sorry for interrupting, butâŠâ The manâs voice lowered, and Felicia strained to hear but couldnât pick up any words.
Volkanâs reaction, however, was unmistakable. His expression changed at last, slowly growing into the smile heâd been missing all night, the smile that chilled her worse than any hate-filled glare.
âThank you,â Volkan said with genuine warmth, placing a genial hand on the manâs shoulder. âIâll see to it at once.â His smile broadened as he motioned towards Felicia, pushing the other man in her direction. âFeel free to spend some time with her,â he continued, âand let the others know that sheâs available as well. Open for both staff and guest use.â
And without another word, Volkan was gone, leaving Felicia alone with this strange new man. Relief at her presumably-delayed execution curdled with a low-burning dread at what news couldâve brought such a sudden change in Volkanâs demeanor.
The man was nondescript, one of the dozen or so workers in the estate who facilitated Volkanâs rape and torture, and he eyed her now as if he didnât dare believe his luck. His gaze roamed over her naked body, and then he placed a hand on her breast and she shut her eyes to the inevitable.
âIâm not a sadist, you know,â he said.
Fuck. Not only was he going to rape her, he was going to make her listen to his half-hearted justifications and apologies while he did it. She couldnât stop him from doing anything he wanted, but she didnât have to respond, so she kept her eyes and mouth shut. He walked around behind her, and when he trailed a touch over her sensitive nipples, she flinched despite herself. His hushed intake of air at that told her heâd misinterpreted her bodyâs reaction.
âIâm really not,â he continued, now behind her. âI donât want to hurt you at all. This doesnât have to hurt.â The clink of a belt buckle, cold hands on her bare hips. âBut I canât very well turn down a gift from him, can I?â
She didnât dignify that with a response. The man made a token effort, fingers dancing over her clit, before presumably deciding it wasnât worth the work to worry about her pleasure. Then the fingers were replaced with his cock, and his hands were on her hips again, and he pulled her back onto him.
The barest arousal heâd managed to wring from her was hardly enough to lubricate his way as he forced himself deeper into her. She grit her teeth against it, already sore from Volkan, now alight with fresh pain. He fucked her with short, rocking thrusts, breathing heavily as if it were some great exertion.
The rape was mundane, after everything Volkan had put her through. If she focused her attention on the sickly sensation of this stranger sliding in and out of her, if she leaned into the slight burn of the everyday pain it brought, she could almost forget the horror of the branding that still pulsed through her like a heartbeat. She could almost forget that Volkan had declared her open for both staff and guest use.
The man finished quicklyâor he didnât drag it out, the way Volkan always didâand then walked back around to her front without another word. She was bare and burning and cold where heâd filled her a second ago, and when he cupped her cheek with a thumb tracing her lips, she shivered. He kissed her almost chastely, and then he was gone before her brain could even come up with the idea to bite him.
He was the first of many to visit her in the basement. Felicia had always had a vague sense that there were others living in the mansionâshe knew better than to think Volkan was doing his own cooking and cleaningâbut it dizzied her, the number of unfamiliar faces, figures indistinguishable except in their desire to hurt her. They came alone or in pairs, clutching half-drunk beers, slapping her or kissing her, blowing off steam. One made a punching bag of her body. Another took her slowly, fingers working expertly between her legs and coaxing a bitter orgasm from her.
Somehow she ended up on the ground, the world spinning around her, throat still sore from the last visitor. The chains held her still, jangling rudely with each shuddering breath she took, and the brand on her shoulder was a burning stake holding her in place. She sank as low as the chains allowed, pressing her forehead to the cool cement and letting her eyes drift shut.
Then the basement door slammed open, and she heard familiar voices.
She squeezed her eyes tighter, willing them to leave, refusing to acknowledge them even as her muscles tensed in subconscious terror. The voices mingled, three of them, and none of them was Volkan but they all tugged at her memory, dragging her somewhere she didnât want to goâ
âSheâs a mess.â
âI like her better this way.â
Sheâd made them drinks, and theyâd used the bottleâand when she could no longer deny it, she opened her eyes and took in the three figures looming over her. Miles, Scott, Victor. The night sheâd been forced to entertain them was a lifetime ago, yet the dread of it returned in an instant.
What more could they do to her? Sheâd been raped, beaten, branded, and anything they added to that would be a drop in the ocean.
But Felicia had yet to find a limit to the cruelty of Volkan and his lackeys.
They circled her, taking in her battered form, the bruises blooming on her skin, the come drying in her hair, the brand spreading tendrils of fire within her. One of the figures crouched beside herâMiles, she could make out the faux-warmth in his eyes and the hunger beneath it.
âIf you all lift her up,â he said mildly, âI can get under her.â
She shut her eyes again, tilting her head away from him. âGo away,â she croaked. They ignored her.
âI donât want her mouth again.â Scott, petulant. âI had that last time.â
âWe have all night.â Victor was behind her, already sliding hands down her body to adjust her position. âYou donât have to limit yourself to one hole.â
She was shaking her head, no, but Victor was lifting her up and Miles slid under her, cock already out and hard. He took her hips and guided her onto him as if she were made of glass. She barely felt him inside her. Numb, she let her eyes drift shut again.
A sharp slap to the face, and her eyes flew open. Scott loomed over her, cock in hand. âI want to see her choke on me,â he growled, slapping her again.
From behind her, Victor said, âSheâll bite you off.â
She would. Scott mustâve seen it in her eyes, because when he grasped her jaw with a rough hand and forced her mouth open, it wasnât his cock but a gag he shoved in her mouth. She bit down anyway, but he was already buckling it around her skull, and the cruel prongs stretched her jaw painfully.
He guided himself into her mouth, and she jerked back instinctively. The motion of it ground her body into Miles, piercing her from below; he let out a breath at that, and she forced herself to hold still, but Scott thrust deeper into her throat, and behind her Victor was pressing against her ass with a practiced efficiency.
She couldnât breathe. The assault was too much, from all directions, filling her below, above, behind. Victor thrust forward and fully sheathed himself in her ass, and she screamed; the vibrations massaged the cock in her throat, and Scott jerked her forward until her nose pressed into his abdomen; she writhed against him, and Miles gripped her from below and angled his hips and between the three of them sheâd never been so full, every molecule of her being suffocating.
They didnât quite move in tandem, but there was a rhythm to their motions that never fully gave her relief. Miles couldnât do much from his position, but between him and Victor she was sure she was splitting open. Scott was fucking her face like it was another cunt, his furious pounding leaving her the barest space to catch a breath before it was knocked out of her again from behind. Her vision blurred with tears, and maybe it was better that she didnât have to see their shitty faces, but it only added to the disorientation.
They fucked her for what could have been hours, or days. Miles finished first, flooding her with a sickly warmth and wriggling out from under her to lean against the wall and sip his drink. Victor finished a minute later with a grip on her hips hard enough to leave bruises. When he pulled out, Scott did as well, sliding from her mouth with a string of saliva. His cock, still erect, bobbed as he walked around her, and across the room Victor was examining the tools lining the wall.
Her jaw ached from the punishing gag, and then as if heâd read her thoughts, Miles was there, drink in hand. He gave a small smile and brushed sweaty bangs back from her face, then tipped his drink into her open mouth.
âThis will help,â he murmured, pressing on her forehead and tilting her head back so she was forced to swallow or choke. The burn of the liquor inflamed all her other injuries, heightened the sensation, and with her jaw held open she couldnât bite down the sob that broke through. Miles softened and reached around her to undo the buckle of the gag. With it loosened, she could finally close her mouth, ignoring the condescending pat on the cheek from Miles as he stepped awayâ
And fresh pain exploded in her core as Scott thrust into her from behind, hammering into her ass like an instrument of war. She cried out, each movement sending daggers of pain through her body. Where Miles had stepped aside, she could just make out Victor raising a whip. She took in a quick breath, and he brought it down across her breasts.
The pain of it lanced across her, her muscles seizing, and Scott answering her tightness by redoubling his thrusts. The second lash from Victor hit her nipple, drawing blood; the third hit her fresh brand and she screamed.
If she could have passed out, she would have, but some primal part of her brain clung to consciousness. The lights of the room alternated overly bright and dim as her vision wavered. Each strike from the whip was answered with Scott sheathing himself to the hilt inside her. Miles stood to the side, presumably content to palm himself and enjoy the show; Victor wielded the whip like a maestro, each lash precisely placed to torment; Scott ground himself into her and then growled, âGive me thatââ and Victor must have known what he wanted, because he didnât hand over the whip but instead strode over to them and forced the handle of the whip into her cunt and her vision went black.
They took her for several rounds, rotating in and out, switching positions, pulling tools and toys from the wall to use on her sore and shaking body. She hung limply from the chains, jerking whenever they fucked her or hit her or electrocuted her. Even as they finished with her, leaving her in a crumpled heap on the ground, it took several minutes for her body to realize she was alone, for her muscles to stop tensing in anticipation of the next strike.
No one else came down for hours, perhaps. Felicia lay where theyâd left her; she had long since given up on trying to find a position to alleviate her suffering. With her cheek resting on the cement, her line of vision spread across the ground, where she could just make out the smears of her own blood in the dim light. The room was silent as a tomb. She was breathing, but everything else about her was shutting down, refusing to perceive. She couldnât fall unconscious, but maybe she could stop being on some level.
Time must have passed.
The next time the door opened, she knew it was Volkan; the weight and cadence of his footfalls were etched into her very being. The inevitability of it held her down, sunk into her bones. He was going to kill her. Fighting back the bone-deep exhaustion, she forced her eyes open and looked at him. He had cleaned himself, his ruined eye now covered with a thick black patch. With his visible eye, he watched her not with the unbridled rage of before, or even the methodical, controlled anger, but with a mild irritation, as if she were a distasteful household chore.
He considered her a moment, then stepped around her. A heartbeat later, she felt the icy blast of cold water.
He hosed her down with brutal efficiency, directing the spray along her body, in her hair, between her legs. Red and white swirled off of her down the drain in the cement. The spray of the hose was like shards of ice, and she curled in a feeble attempt to protect herself, but he maneuvered around until she was some semblance of clean.
When the hose was shut off, the room was again silent save the steady drop of water from her wet hair and the gurgle of runoff down the drain.
âI truly was planning to kill you.â
She jerked her gaze in his direction at that, shivering and watching him through narrowed eyes. He stepped over to her and crouched at her level, and his hand on her skin was warm.
âIâd do it slowly,â he continued, âtake you apart piece by piece.â He tilted his head to consider. âI could stretch it out for four or five days, at least.â
She didnât have the energy to move away, but she retracted from his touch on a subconscious level. The deadened fury of her gaze landed on the eyepatch. Her voice was a croak. âNext time, Iâll make sure I get your brain.â
He smiled at that, and it chilled her. It was the smile that said he was enjoying himself, he was no longer furious, he no longer saw her as a threat. He had decided heâd won.
âOf course, once I calmed down, I realized killing you would be wasteful.â He pulled out a small towel and began to dry her off. She hissed in pain and flinched as he rubbed up against her bruises, cuts, burns. He ignored her pain and persisted, roughly but not unkindly. âMuch better to sell you off to someone and at least recoup some of the investment.â
The tenor of his speech, his self-indulgent monologuing, told her that wasnât the end of it, and so she waited in silence for him to make his point. Heâd set aside the towel and was now running his hands over her in healing, drawing on her to take the edge off the worst of the injuries. He never fully allowed her to give herself over to healing, but allowed the smallest stream through to thwart incoming infection, staunch bleeding, drag her from half-dead to painfully functional. The brand flashed in bright pain and then dulled, marring her skin white on off-white.
The healing left her disoriented as always, her mind dissociating from her body as she struggled to keep up with what had happened to her, and in her daze, he pulled her to her feet with a smile.
âIâve found something better to do with you.â His smile was full and broad and hateful now. âIâll be able to get a few more monthsâ use out of you, at the very least.â
âI donât want it.â Exhausted, defeated, she barely knew what she was protesting, she just knew she didnât want to be in a world where he was smiling at her like that. âIâm done. Just stop.â
He ignored her and pulled a slip of a dress over her head, then jerked her forward. âWalk with me.â
She couldnât. She wouldnât. But the promise of fresh air beyond the basement called to her, and she followed him up the stairs on unsteady legs before she could stop herself.
Upstairs, the estate was quiet. The darkness outside the windows was the velvet of pre-dawn, and the household staff were nowhere to be seen. She wondered how many of them had come down to fuck her, if they were all sleeping off their partying.
Volkan guided her through the house, the short walk down the hall an exertion after hours (days?) spent in chains. The rug was soft as a cloud on her bare feet, and the warmth of the mansion thawed the deep-seated chill in her bones. When they finally reached the room Volkan was looking for, Felicia felt the faintest stirring of strength within herself, and braced herself to turn whatever he had against him.
He opened the door, and she blinked as her eyes adjusted to the lightingâthe room was spacious, a few seats were arranged around an open area in the middle, a fire was lit, and kneeling in front of itâ
âMarcus,â she breathed, and the world shifted beneath her feet.
He looked up at the sound of her voice, and the cocky defiance on his face was wiped in an instance: replaced with rage, heartbreak, horror, love.
She crossed the room in a few steps and threw herself at him, arms wrapped tight around him. He was warm and kind, and he couldnât be there. He wasnât supposed to be there.
âIâm so sorry,â he whispered, leaning his head into her. He was bound, she realized, arms and legs twisted and forcing him into a kneeling position. She held him tighter.
âYou canât be here,â she whispered, voice breaking. Everything sheâd been through was meant only for her. He couldnât be in this world. Her heart was hammering with terror, defeat.
âFelicia, Iâm sorry.â He pressed against her, and his cheek was damp with tears. Behind them, she heard the click of a door shutting, a lock sliding into place. She held Marcus in trembling arms, the bracelets on her wrists digging into both their bodies, and she refused to look behind her.
Can I get, female whumpee getting ready for the big event at Whumper's house, getting dressed and male Whumper appearing behind her and zipping up her dress? Please?
Bundling up her hair, sweeping it aside, and slowly running the zipper up. Maybe touch over some scars or bruises before the fabric hides it all.
Some hushed threats whispered in her ear: "Don't disappoint me now." "I'll be watching you." Or worse, brought with a smile: "It will be fun."
Both staring in the mirror, Whumpee awkward or scowling. Whumper admiring. "Look at you." Or hands on her shoulders as he spins her around. Looks her over. A finger brushing over her chin, forcing her to look up.
You asked for it...I'm telling everyone about the forbidden Jolkan dnd coming out AU
It starts with the Jamivy-Volkan sadistic card game. James protests to using the 20-sided die to roll for how many times to kick Ivy, pulls out his d4 from his satchel of dnd dice instead. Kicks the shit out of Ivy, killing her. Volkan is impressed and wants to be invited to game night. They end up having it at Volkan's place. Felicia is the DM (whether she wants to be or not). They have a genuinely nice time, and near the end of the session, a drunken, vulnerable James confesses, "I think I like guys too." Volkan nods sagely and says "Yeah, I could sense that." Gives James some genuine advice on coming out and accepting himself. Felicia designs a heavy-handed npc to be a boyfriend to James's character. Gets legitimately into planning a fun and engaging session for them. Volkan gives James a tour of his place after, stopping by the basement with all its knives and whips on display ("this is where I work on my research with Felicia." James is like "đ€ hmm ok"). Gets James a lyft home, Pete is the lyft driver (he has five stars because Harrison always gives him a good rating). Takes Felicia back downstairs for some light torture before bed. All in all, a lovely time for everyone đ
Felicia wasn't thrilled about being roped into this at first, but she ends up really enjoying it! Developing the campaign is a nice distraction from how miserable her life is. She likes getting to flex her creative muscles and pretend to be somewhere else. And of course she's happy to support James on his journey of self-acceptance.
This raffle has been a long time coming as a late celebration of 500 followers and general gift to the whump community.
What's being raffled?
A waist-up greyscale sketch commission of a single character.
Any character, any pose, any whump.
Rules:
To enter, please reblog this post. That's all!
You don't have to be following me to enter (but I mean you could be that would be very cool of you.)
The raffle will end on March 20th, and one winner will be drawn via a random name picker. The draw will happen around 4pm GMT (10am CST).
I will DM / send an ask to the winner to let them know they've won. They then have 24 hours to confirm, or I'll pick a new name.
[Optional] Add in your reblog tags which character you would want drawn in a precarious situation :V
Thank you to everyone out there for sticking with me (and my un-knowable, unstable schedule of posting things) I read every comment and every tag, and I'm very grateful to everyone who enjoys my blog in the open or in the shadows.
Good luck to everyone who enters! đŠ
Thank you to @sableflynn for letting me use Volkan and Felicia in this piece! You light my fire, baby!!
CW: Dissociation, Vague Non-Con Type Mention, Beating, Broken Bones
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Felicia had disappeared again.Â
It was happening more than usual. Ivy asked her about it once, where she went when her face went vacant and the sparkle in her eyes shut off, âJust inside myself, I guess,â Felicia shrugged, âJust away.â
That had happened to Ivy before, when Volkan beat her worse than she knew she could endure. Every nerve was firing and frayed, her bones broken so badly her legs took on a brand new shape, her eyes nearly sealed shut with bruising, lungs punctured so she gasped and choked on her own blood, her right arm left uninjured so he could enjoy the way she tried to resist him climbing atop her. Sheâd felt herself shrink then, fading behind her eyes, turning into something small and naked, burrowing deeper and deeper into herself where he couldnât touch her. Even when Felicia put her hands on her and magic surged through her, knitting her wounds closed and twisting bone back in place, Ivy hadnât resurfaced for hours. Sheâd found herself in a guest bedroom, bite marks on her shoulders, a strange man snoring beside her, her wrists uncuffed, no will in her to strangle him or fish through his belongings for something sharp. Sheâd just gone back to sleep, grateful for the rest.Â
It had really frightened her. The lost time and the loss of herself. It went against who Ivy was supposed to be. Ivy wondered if Felicia felt the same way when she disappeared, but Ivy didnât know who Felicia was meant to be, all she knew was who Felicia was when she was there.Â
Felicia had a quiet kind of strength. A firm set mouth when she was concentrating and the steady hands of a healer, eyes burning with determination whenever Ivyâs started to die, a small whisper of a voice in the quiet drowning darkness whenever Volkan mercifully left them together, hope pounding in her heart so hard Ivy swore sometimes she could hear it. Sometimes, they were alone together long enough they felt like real girl-friends, joking at Volkanâs expense while he was out of the house until they were grabbing their sides in stitches, sharing salacious stories of sex and college, things Ivy had stolen when she was a teen, secrets Felicia had only ever told her girlfriend Elyse, Ivy gently brushing tangles from Feliciaâs hair and weaving braids to keep it neat, if just for a little while.Â
That Felicia was what Ivy lived for. And when she was gone, Ivy ached. It was lonely standing beside someone empty. And Felicia had been gone since yesterday. Sheâd smile and nod, replying convincingly enough when Ivy had a moment alone with her, but her eyes were hauntingly dim, and Ivy knew better than to press it. Drawing attention to it would only be blood in the water for Volkan, who loved to pry until they reacted just how he liked â breaking them down to husks and then jabbing at them until they bit back just so he could restart the cycle.Â
Now, Volkan struck Felicia so suddenly and so hard that Ivy actually gasped. She pretended not to notice the way his eyes flickered over her, a rush at her shock, her rare instant of vulnerability. His gaze burned a welcome hole in her back as she played her part, willingly and honestly, reaching for Feliciaâs hand to steady her as Felicia wobbled on one knee.Â
Ivy brushed strands of hair from Feliciaâs face, a red mark already flaring on her cheekbone where his knuckles caught her, eyes unfocused and eerily dry of tears. Ivy gave her a look, something she hoped would connect with the Felicia buried deep inside, and helped her to her feet.Â
Then, when Felicia was steady, fingertips absently tracing her bruising â maybe broken â cheekbone, Ivy turned on her heel and spat. It struck him on the chest, wetting his white button-up, and Ivy already knew he didnât care. Heâd have her blood up to his elbows by the time he was done with her, whether she behaved or not. He smiled at her, that infuriating, hungry, charmed smile. Fighting all of her instincts before she lost her nerve, Ivy grabbed at his tie with her right hand and pulled, swinging at his chin with her left. It connected with a satisfying crack, but she could feel from the buzzing in her knuckles that it hadnât been enough. It never would have been. And now he would hurt her, as he had hurt her yesterday, as he likely would tomorrow, as he would again and again until he was tired of this game they played and finally let her die.
She stepped back, shaking so hard she vibrated where she stood, teeth chattering with rage and hate and fear. Every atom was telling her to flee, but Felicia was rocking on her feet, staring at the floor with glassy eyes, so Ivy bunched her fists and blinked back tears and waited for it to start.
Volkan took his time appraising her, saying nothing, letting her terror marinade until he shifted and she flinched.Â
The first hit always surprised her, despite how many sheâd endured at his hands, it always threw her. But a crack to the head was like nothing else, the floor and ceiling switching places, ears ringing and metal in her mouth while she blinked, dazed and lost until he had her pinned by the throat and took his time with her. He had a way of waiting until her consciousness came back before he pushed her further, and Ivy was willing to play her part and scramble in his grip.Â
She clawed at his hand around her throat, lashing out with her legs, bare feet bouncing off his shins until he pinned her under his weight and took her wrist easily in his grip, twisting slowly, agonizingly slowly until she screamed just how he wanted, long and desperate, actually managing to say âplease,â before he snapped it.Â
She sobbed then. His weight shifted and he was over her, his shoe colliding hard with her ribs, sending her rolling, gasping silently, wrist alight with white fire, her vision blurring much too soon. When she found her breath, she didnât want it, her ribs made sharp, stabbing into her, her mouth getting wet and slippery with blood.Â
âI hate you,â she gurgled out for no reason in particular, a trickle of blood running from the corner of her mouth down her chin, landing hot along her collarbone.Â
He loomed over her with an expression that could have been pity or amusement before snaking a hand in her hair and wrenching her up to a strained sitting position, stabilizing herself with her intact hand, trying not to wince at the pull in her neck, the shifting of her ribs.Â
Felicia was somewhere in her peripheral vision, a wash of pale cream and burnt orange, a blur of light brown speckles whenever she shifted in the light. Ivy fought the urge to cast her a glance, to search for her expression, to see if this brief reprieve was enough to bring her friend back, because god it was so lonely doing this without her.Â
Then Volkan swung another fist at her face and she stopped caring about anything beyond breathing. Heâd hit her and heâd wait. Heâd break her ankle and let her scream. He pressed his shoe into her wounds, slowly and forcefully until she was delirious with pain, coughing and choking hard on her blood, sick with the metal taste, trying to turn over for just one gulp of clean air, trapped in the prison of her own body, wet with sweat and blood, clothing ripped where he wanted it, roaming hands exploring wounds, a knife slowly nestling itself in her thigh until she was sure she was going to black out and maybe never wakeâ
âFelicia.âÂ
He said it almost warmly, somewhere far away, and Ivy waited that familiar eternity until Felicia appeared over her in a blur, her cold, soft hands finding her shoulders, and the hard hum of magic starting through her.Â
They both shuddered as one, Ivyâs wounds knitting themselves closed, her bones snapping into place and fusing back together, the wound in her thigh burning and tightening as the muscle reincorporated itself, and Felicia suffered the phantom pain as if her own body had endured each and every hit.Â
Then her hands were gone. Ivy only caught a glimpse of her face, her expression still vacant, her friend hardly there.
Then, Volkan started again.Â
It might have been days spent there on the floor, her will weakening as Volkan broke her body in new, exciting ways. Sometimes he only used his hands, sometimes it was just the knife, he shot her twice in a row when she started losing her spark, and Felicia returned each time, hovering over her with healing hands, her face slowly growing more desperate, tears starting in her eyes, her friend waking to a nightmare.Â
Ivy could hardly care by then, even healed, her body was shuddering violently, she was weak and disappearing, going away somewhere inside herself, somewhere it was safer to shut her eyes and sob. If he did it again, there might be nothing left of her. But he did anyway, almost kindly, snapping each of her fingers like they were pencils, savoring the way they cracked and the way Ivy whined like a kicked dog until he was done with her.
âLeave her,â Volkan said when he left Ivy there, Felicia automatically stepping forward.Â
âDonât you think thatâs enough?â Felicia snapped.
Ivy sat cross-legged, blinking at her misshapen fingers, hissing through her teeth, wanting to lay down and die, wishing Felicia would shut up, wishing Felicia would keep talking and take this horrible attention somewhere else.Â
âIt is enough,â Volkan agreed, and Ivy wanted to sob with relief, but she had no tears left, no joy either. There was nothing in her anymore. Maybe there never would be again.
Then he spun and struck Felicia. This time, Felicia was the one who gasped, and Ivy stared at the floor, eyes unfocused, listening down a tunnel while a sweet girl with long red hair and spattered freckles cried out and shrieked, taking her turn against the monster Ivy had tried desperately to save her from, if only for today.
just a generally stupid question
are there literally no other females living with felicia in the mansion? not one househelp or worker that she can identify/have sympathize with her?
just curious lol, no shade
I think regardless of gender, Volkan is very careful about who he brings on to work in his Mean Estate. There very well may be women working there, but not women who would sympathize with her. Similarly, there's definitely been mean women who visited as guests different times, but I haven't really dwelt on it in the story because...tbh I prefer writing m/f noncon đ€·ââïž a future f/f/ noncon side scribble is definitely not off the table, though!
That said, sometimes I think it would've been fun if I had included a staff member who was a little more conflicted about it all or felt some guilt, but I feel if I threw that in now it would be very tacked on, haha. On the other hand, while Volkan is still careful about who he invites as guests, they don't get quite the same thorough screening as employees, so who knows what could happen in the future đ
Time seemed to blur after that. It became something somehow both sticky and fluid, grounding Vienna with unbearable awareness to the present while also slipping through her fingers faster than she could catch it. She kept track of it through the clock, the television, the tiny windows in the main room of the basement when he took her out for those extended sessions. More than once, Vienna had caught herself admiring the quiet beauty of dust floating in the small rays of sun, as if it could take away from Alec grunting and panting on top of her at the very same moment.
Time was easily lost in those early days, when Vienna didn't realize yet what a tether to sanity it was. Entire days could be slept away, her mind and body giving into the numb oblivion they so desperately craved until she was roused by the sound of his footsteps coming down the stairs. Sometimes after he left, she'd be so enveloped by panic that she could spend hours sobbing and gasping for breath without any notion of how many minutes had passed.
Some mornings she clung to the idea that maybe he would kill her after all â the thought came with a guilty rush of relief, though she hated herself for wanting it. Other mornings she willed herself to be numb, to drift somewhere outside her body, because that was the only way to survive his hands, his words, the endless cycle. It didn't work nearly as often as she wanted it to.
Survival meant she had to learn a new language. One she never wanted to know â Alec's. Not in the way of words, necessarily, but of footsteps, of tone, of actions. She learned to brace herself for anger and fists when his feet came down the stairs hard. She learned when it was okay to push back at him, when it would amuse him, and when it would just earn her punishment. But sometimes it felt like it was a learning curve she could never catch up to.
The energy in the air changed before she could even blink. One moment they were sitting, almost normal, as he ranted about his day â and then he was on her, yanking her hair, pinning her wrists, pulling at her clothes. "Wait â wait â" she cried, completely caught off guard. He didn't care. He shoved her face into the mattress, muffling her scream as he tore into her with no preparation. Panic spiked as she couldn't breathe for a moment, and she gasped for air as he flipped her over. But it was only to shove into her again, hands holding her in place as he forced a suffocating kiss onto her lips.
The weekends were different.
There was no clock to count down, no sound of him leaving for work in the morning. He stayed. Hours stretched and folded in on themselves, and she stopped trying to guess how long it had been.
What lingered with her was the way he seemed almost lighthearted. He laughed easily, whistled under his breath, narrated his own enjoyment as if he were sharing a private joke. The sound of her crying never slowed him down. If anything, it seemed to give him more energy.
What unnerved her the most was that nothing about it felt secret or shameful to him. He wasnât hiding. He wasnât angry. He was having fun. And she was the toy â not just her body, but her mind, too.
He was making noises deliberately to humiliate her. She knew that. She knew that. But still, Vienna couldn't help but grimace and choke out a sob as Alec moaned, the sound reverberating against her chest. His mouth made a sloppy smacking sound against her skin, and she felt nauseous. "P-please just stop â" she tried to beg, and the groan turned into an outright laugh. "Stop? Oh, sweetheart. Hours before that word matters. Iâll enjoy every second. And it's not like it hurts this time, right?" His hand wedged between their hips, to the stickiness on them both, and shame surged so hot another sob burst out. He laughed again, a grotesque loop as he lowered his lips back to her skin. Every movement was excruciatingly slow, giving them both time to drink it all in.
The television, of all things, became her lifeline. Its flickering light and constant hum were a poor substitute for company, but it was better than silence. She watched everything â sitcoms, game shows, sports, documentaries, infomercials she could recite by heart. For a few hours each day, she could pretend she was somewhere else, anywhere else. The news was harder. She was hit with something that was equal parts dread and longing when her name came up. If he knew it was coming, Alec would invariably be in the basement to watch with her â watching the reporters talk about her âmystery disappearance,â watching her parentsâ pleas for answers, watching her watch it all.
He loved boasting about how lost the authorities were, how he'd outsmarted them all. He'd sprinkle in memories of watching Vienna before she'd ever known he existed â so many instances she never knew about, she thought he must be lying, but then he'd drop in a detail, a gut punch that told her it must be true. How she bit her lip while she studied in the library. How she'd worn a blue and green sundress to Zander's last basketball game. How she'd dropped her books one time in the cafe and she and Abi had both bent down to pick them up. Every last thing he'd imagined. And how he could do it all now.
SMACK. SMACK. SMACK. Alec was hitting her hips again and again, in time with his thrusts, and Vienna was sure her skin must be glowing bright red by now. "Please - it h-hurts-" Vienna gasped, stumbling over her words as she realized the admission would just spur him on. And it did. "Good!" he snarled, slapping her again and then holding onto the red flesh, digging his nails into her. "I can beat you black and blue, bitch. All while you fucking beg me to stop."
She quickly learned that for Alec, it wasn't just about the sex. Not only that, anyway. It was about him reveling in his complete control over her, breaking her down over and over, doing whatever he pleased that pushed her to that space that left her crying, begging, screaming.
The rapes almost always brought those reactions out, except on the rare, blessed occasions she was able to dissociate the entire time. But Alec seemed to like to switch things up. Some days he seemed more interest in maximizing any type of violation for her, whether he got physical pleasure from it or not. Other times, it was all about the pain. Vienna began to have visceral reactions whenever he approached the closet doors in the main room, knowing exactly what its doors held. Minutes and sometimes even hours would drag, his laughter and taunts mingling with her cries and pleas like it was the most natural thing in the world. And it always had the same ending: Alec dragging her to one of the beds, or set of restraints, or even just the floor to cap off the day.
Oftentimes, his words were the worst - crude, mocking, smug, unbearably satisfied. They wormed their way into Vienna's head more deeply than any physical torment, ringing in her ears long after he'd left.
"Tastes perfect, feels perfectâŠ. just like I imagined. God, it's like you were made for me." She felt his breath against her skin, making her feel trapped in ways the restraints never could. A sob ripped from her throat, legs shaking, trying to close, and his laugh vibrated between her legs. "That's right. Just like that. Let's see how much more you can take."
At the end of the day, it was hard to decide what was the most painful. Being torn from her loved ones, being treated like nothing more than a plaything, the physical intensity she was forced to endure again and again. But it may have been the way Alec crushed what she knew of the world beneath his fingers. The way he reacted to her tears, her fear, her pain with pure delight shocked Vienna every time, each laugh and taunt made the world shake around her. She had never known a person could be this way.
During the most intense moments, when his laughs and taunts bounced off the walls amidst her screams and pleas, she had trouble reconciling that it was her own voice mixing with his. It sounded nothing like her own, more like a clip from a horror movie, a scene taken from a nightmare. And she knew he loved that.
It was like being buried alive, over and over and over again, and still somehow waking up the next morning. Truthfully, she had no idea how she survived it. The simplest answer was that she had no other choice.
She tried to plead, to beg, but her words slurred with exhaustion. Her throat was raw from screaming, and still he demanded more. âBeg louder,â he growled happily against her. âI want to hear you choke on it. Tell me how bad you want me to stop.â
âI canât â I c-canât ââ she sobbed, her voice barely there.
âYes, you can. You can, and you will. Youâll do it all day long for me, little girl.â
One thing became clear: Vienna's life was not her own anymore. She fought the idea that it was ruled by Alec â by his moods, his hands, his visits â but every day he seemed committed to driving her deeper into despair, into helplessness. An average day before might have been going to class, eating a meal with Zander, watching TV with Abi. Now, it was anticipating footsteps above her, counting the minutes until his weight shifted off her, singing songs or sketching landscapes in her head to try and push through the pain and pure violation that had become her daily life.
It was mornings like this. Alec had come down for his usual visit before work. He was in a good mood today, practically giddy, but it didn't make things any better for her. No, instead it meant he wanted to play a game: forcing her to beg for him to stop before clapping his hand over her mouth again and again, enjoying the way her words got muffled against his palm.
"Try again." He grinned, rocking his hips. Humiliated tears streamed from Vienna's eyes as she stammered, "P-please - please stop - it's almost been an hour, you're going to be late for work, please just â mmph!"
Alec laughed, an ugly, delighted sound. "Ohh, I'd be pretty unhappy with that. And you'd be to blame, wouldn't you? You better help me finish quick."
He moved off of her then, took his hand off her mouth, but there was no relief. She knew by now what those words meant.
Ten minutes later, he was finally getting dressed, splashing water on his face at the bathroom sink before heading off to work like nothing had happened. Vienna stayed curled on her knees, arms wrapped herself as the footsteps faded away above. Her new favorite noise sounded: the mechanical scrape of the garage door opening and closing overhead. He was finally gone for the day.
The basement was cold. Her body was wrung out, trembling with the raw, heavy weight of what had just happened. She hated that she could feel every trace of him lingering, that her muscles remembered in ways she didnât want them to. She felt miserable, used up, like a shell of herself.
But after a few minutes, she took a breath. Sat herself up. At least it was a weekday. At least she had the blessed reprieve of Alec being gone for a few hours. At least her body had a moment to recover. She should take advantage.
The shower was scalding, how she liked it now. In her mind, she organized what her day would be like. Whether it was sane or insane, she couldn't tell, but she had started breaking her days down by hours, themes. Each hour correlated with someone from before. A reminder that life outside these walls existed.
Every morning after he was gone started with a mom hour. Vienna would take meticulous care of herself, even when she wanted to tear off her own skin. She would shower, gently brush her hair, sometimes braid it like her mother did when she was little. Then she'd wash the soiled sheets, remaking the bed with slow, deliberate care, no wrinkles. Clean the bathroom or kitchenette. Try to tell herself one kind thing her mom might say if she were here.
After that was a dad hour. She'd find something to eat, think about what she would have for lunch or dinner. It wasn't possible to really cook like her dad liked to â classic Filipino dishes or cozy baked goods weren't doable with the kitchenette â so oftentimes she'd just pretend, even narrating out loud as if she was on a cooking show. She ate slowly, mindfully, trying to notice flavors or textures she hadn't noticed before. Some days it all tasted like ash.
Next might come an Abigail hour. She'd watch TV. Vienna had almost laughed when she came up with this one, imagining Abi's playful indignation. What, that's the first thing that comes to mind?! But there was a comfort to it, a familiarity nothing else in the basement gave her.
Nearly every day, she did a Zander hour. She'd sit at the table and read, whatever Alec would give her. It didn't really matter what. What was more important was the steadiness of it, how much it reminded Vienna of Zander. Sometimes she'd try to imagine what he might say about a scene, or read a passage in his voice. Even more often she'd stroke her own hair while reading and try to imagine it was him.
And there were plenty of others, too. A Kaya hour â Vienna would do light exercises, trying to give her body some other function. A Daniela hour â she'd play cards by herself, make up new games. A Jay hour â she'd put a random sport on the TV and try to learn the rules.
Anything that made her feel human. Anything that kept her from thinking about what was coming again soon.
Because, without fail, the garage door would open again. Footsteps would descend the staircase. And it would start all over again.
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Felicia hit the hard cement of the basement floor as she had countless times before, and yet like she never had before. She was bruised and bloody, her shoulder screamed where she had been shot, and deep inside her, something long dormant now burned brightly.
Volkan was also different. His single eye no longer held that deep, personal hatred heâd thrown at her in the woods, but neither did it shine with his usual frivolous amusement. His boundless rage was now concentrated to a fine point, focused and honed and deadly.
She staggered to her feet, but before she could fully rise he kicked her onto her back. She sprawled out, and he slammed his boot onto her shoulder where heâd shot her. He stomped again. Something in her cracked.
It was a dance theyâd performed countless times before. Already, the fire in her was fading, smothered by pain and blood loss, but noâshe grit her teeth and held on. She was going to lose, but that didnât mean she had to make it easy for him.
When he snarled a hand in her hair to drag her across the room, she dug useless nails into his skin. He ripped the sleep dress from her body with a single tear, and she lashed naked legs at him as if she could stop him. He threw her onto a metal table like she weighed nothing, and all her wild lashing was nothing as he strapped down her arms and legs.
She was secured, arms pinned, hips at the edge of the table, legs spread, because he was so fucking predictable.
Volkan ran his hands along her bloody body, drawing out the lightest healing from her. It was just enough to prevent her from bleeding out, not enough to truly ease the pain. Heâd gotten very good at that level of granular healing.
He considered her, half his face cloaked in blood and shadows, and his silence unnerved her. He hadnât spoken a single word since bringing her to the basement, where the silence echoed louder than her screams.
Then he stepped behind her and out of her line of vision. She stretched her neck back as much as she could, but restrained as she was, she couldnât get an angle to see him. She could hear his heavy footsteps, and then the harsh sound of metal on cement: he was dragging something across the floor. Her heart rate tripled.
He returned and stood between her spread legs. The sound of his belt unbuckling was almost a relief, because it was something she understood, something she expected from him. He could rape her a dozen times over, and she would close her mind and bear it.
He thrust into her without ceremony. She was as dry as sheâd ever been, tense from pain, and he tore through her like paper. She gasped despite herself as he forced his way deeper, her burning insides contrasting with the unyielding cold of the metal table against her back. Each thrust rocked her, jolting her injuries, splitting her body.
And yet he barely seemed to be taking any pleasure from it. She knew what his pleasure looked like, the endless ways heâd chased it with her suffering, and the way he fucked her now wasnât about his pleasure at all. It was his attempt to reassert his dominance over her, because in all this time, rape was the only way he knew to take control of a situation. It was pathetic, and he was pathetic, and she was in agony but she didnât care.
He finished in her with the slightest exhale and pulled out before she could blink, walking again to the blind spot behind her. Again, the heavy sound of metal behind her, and the dread building within her. She breathed heavily, angling again to try to see him, the movement sending a fresh jolt of pain from where heâd fucked her.
When he returned, his eye still held that sharp, focused anger. When his hands touched her body, they were laced with magic, and the air buzzed with it a split second before pain shot through her.
Each touch sent white-hot magic through her like bolts of lightning. He touched her stomach, and her body seized with the electric agony. Her shoulder, her hip, her thigh. With each jolt, she couldnât move, couldnât breathe, her body paralyzed as the current of pure magic ran through her. Then he targeted her most sensitive areas, her nipples, between her legs, because he was a fucking pervert. She couldnât hold back the scream that broke through as he sent a burst of burning magic through her clit.
She trembled, a thin sheen of sweat covering her body. He had paused at last, but she knew the anticipation would make the next touch sharper than ever. She sucked in a gulp of air, wanting to spit words at him, but it was useless. What would a fuck you, you piece of shit do except highlight her own helplessness? He was pissed, and he wasnât talking, but she knew him. This was foreplay to him. Whatever was coming next would be much, much worse.
He touched her again and she flinched, but it wasnât the magic-laced touch of before. Almost tenderly, he wiped down the skin of her shoulderânot the one heâd shot, the other one, where a lifetime ago heâd given her a cigarette burn. The scar of it lingered as a faint white circle, an inverse freckle.
He spoke at last. âAre you familiar with the symbol for failed healing magic?â
She was. It was standardized across all hospitals and clinics, a symbol all aspiring healers learned on their first day in healerâs college. A deceptively simple series of lines and loops, found stamped in medical files to represent failure. An attempt at healing that didnât take. An injury that was too grave. A healer that wasnât good enough.
Not trusting her voice, she jerked a nod.
Seemingly satisfied by that, Volkan nodded in return. He reached behind her, and at first her mind couldnât piece together what she was seeing: the swirled symbol, glowing white-hot. A branding iron.
The heat of it, inches from her, triggered a primal terror. She pressed her body away, chains and metal table digging into her skin. âVolkanââ
âItâll be worse if you move.â Something of a smile started to creep back into his faceâdespite everything, he was enjoying her pain, her fear. He loved that he could still get to her.
His free hand pressed into her sternum, holding her in place, and brought the iron down to her bare flesh.
The minute it touched her skin, her vision went white. The burn was worse than any magic heâd used, worse than the cigarette heâd burned her with, worse than anything, and she couldnât stop her bodyâs instinctive attempts to twist away from the heat. Even over her screams, she swore she could hear her own flesh sizzling. The meat of her shoulder was melting away, leaving bone, leaving nothing.
He ripped the brand away at last and a bit of flesh went with it; she was on the cusp of hyperventilating. Grabbing her head, he forced her to look at her shoulder, at the mark heâd left. She struggled, and then everything slammed into focus: angry burning skin, hot and red and charred and oozing and agonizing.
He traced a nail along the edge of the burn, and her scream became a sob. âStopââ
âI havenât started.â
He released the bindings holding her down and slid her body to the floor. She couldnât even bring herself to all fours. Everything sheâd had in her had left when he ripped the brand from her flesh.
She barely managed to lift her head as he stalked around her and lashed a vicious kick to her ribs, and again, and again. She coughed, gasped, struggled to breathe. In the haze of her vision, he was a blurred mountain looming over her.
Then the bracelets at her wrists hummed with fresh magic, and she flinched against the imminent pain before chains connected to her shackles, dragging her to kneeling, to her feet, to her tiptoes. Stretched and swaying, she couldnât quite get a solid foothold; when he crowded into her naked body, hands stroking her hips, her attempted kick was weightless.
âIf youâre very lucky,â he said, âI will kill you in the next twenty-four hours.â
The terror of his words was there, tight in her chest, threatening to break freeâbut there was something more beneath the surface. She didnât want to die, and she had never been as vulnerable as she was in this moment, but neither had she ever been as honest as she was now. Sheâd drawn something out of him that sheâd never seen before, a twisted honesty in turn, and she no longer needed to scrape and appease and make herself small for him.
With nothing else to say, she spat in his face.
He didnât blink at that, holding her gaze, his own inscrutable, one eye a bloody crater.
The basement door opened.
His expression didnât change on the surface, but she knew him, and she saw the shifting of miniscule muscles like the shadow of a storm. Behind him, a staff member approached with the air of a man on the gallows. Volkan didnât turn from Felicia.
âVolkanâŠâ The man placed a cautious hand on Volkanâs arm. He barely went up to Volkanâs shoulders.
âI trust this is incredibly important.â Volkan removed his hands from her at last, and turned to face the man.
âIâm so sorry for interrupting, butâŠâ The manâs voice lowered, and Felicia strained to hear but couldnât pick up any words.
Volkanâs reaction, however, was unmistakable. His expression changed at last, slowly growing into the smile heâd been missing all night, the smile that chilled her worse than any hate-filled glare.
âThank you,â Volkan said with genuine warmth, placing a genial hand on the manâs shoulder. âIâll see to it at once.â His smile broadened as he motioned towards Felicia, pushing the other man in her direction. âFeel free to spend some time with her,â he continued, âand let the others know that sheâs available as well. Open for both staff and guest use.â
And without another word, Volkan was gone, leaving Felicia alone with this strange new man. Relief at her presumably-delayed execution curdled with a low-burning dread at what news couldâve brought such a sudden change in Volkanâs demeanor.
The man was nondescript, one of the dozen or so workers in the estate who facilitated Volkanâs rape and torture, and he eyed her now as if he didnât dare believe his luck. His gaze roamed over her naked body, and then he placed a hand on her breast and she shut her eyes to the inevitable.
âIâm not a sadist, you know,â he said.
Fuck. Not only was he going to rape her, he was going to make her listen to his half-hearted justifications and apologies while he did it. She couldnât stop him from doing anything he wanted, but she didnât have to respond, so she kept her eyes and mouth shut. He walked around behind her, and when he trailed a touch over her sensitive nipples, she flinched despite herself. His hushed intake of air at that told her heâd misinterpreted her bodyâs reaction.
âIâm really not,â he continued, now behind her. âI donât want to hurt you at all. This doesnât have to hurt.â The clink of a belt buckle, cold hands on her bare hips. âBut I canât very well turn down a gift from him, can I?â
She didnât dignify that with a response. The man made a token effort, fingers dancing over her clit, before presumably deciding it wasnât worth the work to worry about her pleasure. Then the fingers were replaced with his cock, and his hands were on her hips again, and he pulled her back onto him.
The barest arousal heâd managed to wring from her was hardly enough to lubricate his way as he forced himself deeper into her. She grit her teeth against it, already sore from Volkan, now alight with fresh pain. He fucked her with short, rocking thrusts, breathing heavily as if it were some great exertion.
The rape was mundane, after everything Volkan had put her through. If she focused her attention on the sickly sensation of this stranger sliding in and out of her, if she leaned into the slight burn of the everyday pain it brought, she could almost forget the horror of the branding that still pulsed through her like a heartbeat. She could almost forget that Volkan had declared her open for both staff and guest use.
The man finished quicklyâor he didnât drag it out, the way Volkan always didâand then walked back around to her front without another word. She was bare and burning and cold where heâd filled her a second ago, and when he cupped her cheek with a thumb tracing her lips, she shivered. He kissed her almost chastely, and then he was gone before her brain could even come up with the idea to bite him.
He was the first of many to visit her in the basement. Felicia had always had a vague sense that there were others living in the mansionâshe knew better than to think Volkan was doing his own cooking and cleaningâbut it dizzied her, the number of unfamiliar faces, figures indistinguishable except in their desire to hurt her. They came alone or in pairs, clutching half-drunk beers, slapping her or kissing her, blowing off steam. One made a punching bag of her body. Another took her slowly, fingers working expertly between her legs and coaxing a bitter orgasm from her.
Somehow she ended up on the ground, the world spinning around her, throat still sore from the last visitor. The chains held her still, jangling rudely with each shuddering breath she took, and the brand on her shoulder was a burning stake holding her in place. She sank as low as the chains allowed, pressing her forehead to the cool cement and letting her eyes drift shut.
Then the basement door slammed open, and she heard familiar voices.
She squeezed her eyes tighter, willing them to leave, refusing to acknowledge them even as her muscles tensed in subconscious terror. The voices mingled, three of them, and none of them was Volkan but they all tugged at her memory, dragging her somewhere she didnât want to goâ
âSheâs a mess.â
âI like her better this way.â
Sheâd made them drinks, and theyâd used the bottleâand when she could no longer deny it, she opened her eyes and took in the three figures looming over her. Miles, Scott, Victor. The night sheâd been forced to entertain them was a lifetime ago, yet the dread of it returned in an instant.
What more could they do to her? Sheâd been raped, beaten, branded, and anything they added to that would be a drop in the ocean.
But Felicia had yet to find a limit to the cruelty of Volkan and his lackeys.
They circled her, taking in her battered form, the bruises blooming on her skin, the come drying in her hair, the brand spreading tendrils of fire within her. One of the figures crouched beside herâMiles, she could make out the faux-warmth in his eyes and the hunger beneath it.
âIf you all lift her up,â he said mildly, âI can get under her.â
She shut her eyes again, tilting her head away from him. âGo away,â she croaked. They ignored her.
âI donât want her mouth again.â Scott, petulant. âI had that last time.â
âWe have all night.â Victor was behind her, already sliding hands down her body to adjust her position. âYou donât have to limit yourself to one hole.â
She was shaking her head, no, but Victor was lifting her up and Miles slid under her, cock already out and hard. He took her hips and guided her onto him as if she were made of glass. She barely felt him inside her. Numb, she let her eyes drift shut again.
A sharp slap to the face, and her eyes flew open. Scott loomed over her, cock in hand. âI want to see her choke on me,â he growled, slapping her again.
From behind her, Victor said, âSheâll bite you off.â
She would. Scott mustâve seen it in her eyes, because when he grasped her jaw with a rough hand and forced her mouth open, it wasnât his cock but a gag he shoved in her mouth. She bit down anyway, but he was already buckling it around her skull, and the cruel prongs stretched her jaw painfully.
He guided himself into her mouth, and she jerked back instinctively. The motion of it ground her body into Miles, piercing her from below; he let out a breath at that, and she forced herself to hold still, but Scott thrust deeper into her throat, and behind her Victor was pressing against her ass with a practiced efficiency.
She couldnât breathe. The assault was too much, from all directions, filling her below, above, behind. Victor thrust forward and fully sheathed himself in her ass, and she screamed; the vibrations massaged the cock in her throat, and Scott jerked her forward until her nose pressed into his abdomen; she writhed against him, and Miles gripped her from below and angled his hips and between the three of them sheâd never been so full, every molecule of her being suffocating.
They didnât quite move in tandem, but there was a rhythm to their motions that never fully gave her relief. Miles couldnât do much from his position, but between him and Victor she was sure she was splitting open. Scott was fucking her face like it was another cunt, his furious pounding leaving her the barest space to catch a breath before it was knocked out of her again from behind. Her vision blurred with tears, and maybe it was better that she didnât have to see their shitty faces, but it only added to the disorientation.
They fucked her for what could have been hours, or days. Miles finished first, flooding her with a sickly warmth and wriggling out from under her to lean against the wall and sip his drink. Victor finished a minute later with a grip on her hips hard enough to leave bruises. When he pulled out, Scott did as well, sliding from her mouth with a string of saliva. His cock, still erect, bobbed as he walked around her, and across the room Victor was examining the tools lining the wall.
Her jaw ached from the punishing gag, and then as if heâd read her thoughts, Miles was there, drink in hand. He gave a small smile and brushed sweaty bangs back from her face, then tipped his drink into her open mouth.
âThis will help,â he murmured, pressing on her forehead and tilting her head back so she was forced to swallow or choke. The burn of the liquor inflamed all her other injuries, heightened the sensation, and with her jaw held open she couldnât bite down the sob that broke through. Miles softened and reached around her to undo the buckle of the gag. With it loosened, she could finally close her mouth, ignoring the condescending pat on the cheek from Miles as he stepped awayâ
And fresh pain exploded in her core as Scott thrust into her from behind, hammering into her ass like an instrument of war. She cried out, each movement sending daggers of pain through her body. Where Miles had stepped aside, she could just make out Victor raising a whip. She took in a quick breath, and he brought it down across her breasts.
The pain of it lanced across her, her muscles seizing, and Scott answering her tightness by redoubling his thrusts. The second lash from Victor hit her nipple, drawing blood; the third hit her fresh brand and she screamed.
If she could have passed out, she would have, but some primal part of her brain clung to consciousness. The lights of the room alternated overly bright and dim as her vision wavered. Each strike from the whip was answered with Scott sheathing himself to the hilt inside her. Miles stood to the side, presumably content to palm himself and enjoy the show; Victor wielded the whip like a maestro, each lash precisely placed to torment; Scott ground himself into her and then growled, âGive me thatââ and Victor must have known what he wanted, because he didnât hand over the whip but instead strode over to them and forced the handle of the whip into her cunt and her vision went black.
They took her for several rounds, rotating in and out, switching positions, pulling tools and toys from the wall to use on her sore and shaking body. She hung limply from the chains, jerking whenever they fucked her or hit her or electrocuted her. Even as they finished with her, leaving her in a crumpled heap on the ground, it took several minutes for her body to realize she was alone, for her muscles to stop tensing in anticipation of the next strike.
No one else came down for hours, perhaps. Felicia lay where theyâd left her; she had long since given up on trying to find a position to alleviate her suffering. With her cheek resting on the cement, her line of vision spread across the ground, where she could just make out the smears of her own blood in the dim light. The room was silent as a tomb. She was breathing, but everything else about her was shutting down, refusing to perceive. She couldnât fall unconscious, but maybe she could stop being on some level.
Time must have passed.
The next time the door opened, she knew it was Volkan; the weight and cadence of his footfalls were etched into her very being. The inevitability of it held her down, sunk into her bones. He was going to kill her. Fighting back the bone-deep exhaustion, she forced her eyes open and looked at him. He had cleaned himself, his ruined eye now covered with a thick black patch. With his visible eye, he watched her not with the unbridled rage of before, or even the methodical, controlled anger, but with a mild irritation, as if she were a distasteful household chore.
He considered her a moment, then stepped around her. A heartbeat later, she felt the icy blast of cold water.
He hosed her down with brutal efficiency, directing the spray along her body, in her hair, between her legs. Red and white swirled off of her down the drain in the cement. The spray of the hose was like shards of ice, and she curled in a feeble attempt to protect herself, but he maneuvered around until she was some semblance of clean.
When the hose was shut off, the room was again silent save the steady drop of water from her wet hair and the gurgle of runoff down the drain.
âI truly was planning to kill you.â
She jerked her gaze in his direction at that, shivering and watching him through narrowed eyes. He stepped over to her and crouched at her level, and his hand on her skin was warm.
âIâd do it slowly,â he continued, âtake you apart piece by piece.â He tilted his head to consider. âI could stretch it out for four or five days, at least.â
She didnât have the energy to move away, but she retracted from his touch on a subconscious level. The deadened fury of her gaze landed on the eyepatch. Her voice was a croak. âNext time, Iâll make sure I get your brain.â
He smiled at that, and it chilled her. It was the smile that said he was enjoying himself, he was no longer furious, he no longer saw her as a threat. He had decided heâd won.
âOf course, once I calmed down, I realized killing you would be wasteful.â He pulled out a small towel and began to dry her off. She hissed in pain and flinched as he rubbed up against her bruises, cuts, burns. He ignored her pain and persisted, roughly but not unkindly. âMuch better to sell you off to someone and at least recoup some of the investment.â
The tenor of his speech, his self-indulgent monologuing, told her that wasnât the end of it, and so she waited in silence for him to make his point. Heâd set aside the towel and was now running his hands over her in healing, drawing on her to take the edge off the worst of the injuries. He never fully allowed her to give herself over to healing, but allowed the smallest stream through to thwart incoming infection, staunch bleeding, drag her from half-dead to painfully functional. The brand flashed in bright pain and then dulled, marring her skin white on off-white.
The healing left her disoriented as always, her mind dissociating from her body as she struggled to keep up with what had happened to her, and in her daze, he pulled her to her feet with a smile.
âIâve found something better to do with you.â His smile was full and broad and hateful now. âIâll be able to get a few more monthsâ use out of you, at the very least.â
âI donât want it.â Exhausted, defeated, she barely knew what she was protesting, she just knew she didnât want to be in a world where he was smiling at her like that. âIâm done. Just stop.â
He ignored her and pulled a slip of a dress over her head, then jerked her forward. âWalk with me.â
She couldnât. She wouldnât. But the promise of fresh air beyond the basement called to her, and she followed him up the stairs on unsteady legs before she could stop herself.
Upstairs, the estate was quiet. The darkness outside the windows was the velvet of pre-dawn, and the household staff were nowhere to be seen. She wondered how many of them had come down to fuck her, if they were all sleeping off their partying.
Volkan guided her through the house, the short walk down the hall an exertion after hours (days?) spent in chains. The rug was soft as a cloud on her bare feet, and the warmth of the mansion thawed the deep-seated chill in her bones. When they finally reached the room Volkan was looking for, Felicia felt the faintest stirring of strength within herself, and braced herself to turn whatever he had against him.
He opened the door, and she blinked as her eyes adjusted to the lightingâthe room was spacious, a few seats were arranged around an open area in the middle, a fire was lit, and kneeling in front of itâ
âMarcus,â she breathed, and the world shifted beneath her feet.
He looked up at the sound of her voice, and the cocky defiance on his face was wiped in an instance: replaced with rage, heartbreak, horror, love.
She crossed the room in a few steps and threw herself at him, arms wrapped tight around him. He was warm and kind, and he couldnât be there. He wasnât supposed to be there.
âIâm so sorry,â he whispered, leaning his head into her. He was bound, she realized, arms and legs twisted and forcing him into a kneeling position. She held him tighter.
âYou canât be here,â she whispered, voice breaking. Everything sheâd been through was meant only for her. He couldnât be in this world. Her heart was hammering with terror, defeat.
âFelicia, Iâm sorry.â He pressed against her, and his cheek was damp with tears. Behind them, she heard the click of a door shutting, a lock sliding into place. She held Marcus in trembling arms, the bracelets on her wrists digging into both their bodies, and she refused to look behind her.
âYes,â Dani said pointedly, curled up in her chair in the library, making a point of not looking at Roman.
âIt is boiling in here, stop doing that! Itâs like walking into a wall when I come in.â
Dani let her book fall flat onto her lap and took a deep breath. âIt is fucking freezing in here and you of all people should know the physical difference between men and women in terms of heat generation and be aware of the fact that you caused my body to be all out of whack where I donât even have the energy anymore to keep the fucking internal heating on!â
She said all that in one breath.
Roman opened his mouth to retort, but found that he couldnât. Stunning him into silence was a feat of its own. âI already gave you a blanket,â he grumbled instead.
âWhich I appreciate,â she said sweetly, bundled up in said blanket. Then held her hand out, waited for him to take it and wince as his warm fingers closed around her frigid ones and he pulled away from the touch. âBut itâs not enough.â
âFine. Let me see if I have anything for youâŠâ
He walked out, crossed the landing to the closed door directly opposite the library, on the other side of the house.
Dani threw her blanket off and followed.
His bedroom was one of those places that was completely out of bounds, always locked, and she had to admit, she was curious.
Roman was already rummaging in his closet. He gave her a side-glance that seemed calculating, but didnât stop her from coming in.
She didnât, though, she merely lingered in the doorway. His bedroom, the master bedroom, was quite large, with tall windows almost completely spanning the wall next to his bed, looking out over the dense forest surrounding them. A comfy chair was tucked in the corner next to the windows. His bed had a tall dark grey headboard, against a dark blue wall, with matching blue bedcovers. The room was very neat as well. His bed was nicely made, the duvet tucked under the mattress, and there wasnât as much of a sock lying about or shirts on âthe chairâ for tomorrow. Some of that military training must still be lingering in his system. The only thing that could be categorized as âclutterâ was the pile of books on his side table and even one open on the bench at the end of the bed as if it was so interesting he couldnât put it down even when getting dressed.
âHereâs a hoodieâŠâ Roman neatly tossed a folded black thing onto the bed. Probably stamped with the logo of the University of Torture Research. âOh, and I never wear this sweaterâŠâ The metal of the clothes hangers screeched against the rail as he shoved his blazers and button-ups aside to see what else he had.
âIâd really love to have my own clothes.â Not some of his stupid boyfriend shirts, as if she was anything more in this house than a captive.
âIâll see if I can find something at the store tomorrow. Do you need more than these two for now?â
Daniâs attention, however, was now drawn to something else, outside the room.
âYou have a bathtub?â
He followed her gaze to his ensuite bathroom. âI do,â he replied with a very vague question mark in his tone.
âCan I use it?â
âYou have a shower.â
âIf youâre worried about the rising costs of the thermostat, that is nothing compared to what it will take to get me warm again while the hot water is running.â
He shook his head, but sighed in defeat. âYou can have the bath⊠but only for tonight.â
For the first time in forever her face lit up. This time she did enter the room and zipped past him to the bathroom, flicked on the lights. It was way more luxurious than her own guest bathroom. A wide open space, modern and minimalistic, with large tiles, dark but warm coloured marble contrasted with white crisp enamel, a large vanity with two sinks, totally unnecessary, a deep bath tub and showeâ
âA sun shower? Really?!â she exclaimed, half in wonder, half in exasperation.
âI donât use it.â
Dani let out a grunt of frustration. Of course he didnât appreciate the nice things in life. âWhy have it then?â
âIt came with the set⊠And they said it was good for your health in winter and for your back or something, but I go out for a run every morning anyway andââ
âAnd I have money to piss away anyway from my unethical research,â she said in a mocking tone, mimicking his voice.
âWell, yes.â
Stupid rich ass bastardâŠ
Now she was really conflicted. On the one hand, nice and warm bath to sink into. On the other hand, the completely new, and warm, experience of a sun shower.
Roman could see the hesitation as she bounced about and opened the shower cabin, inspecting the large panel. âNow before you shower too close to the sun, thereâs still one little thing.â He pointed at the device around her ankle.
Her mood crashed down. âOh. Waterproof?â she tried anyway and looked longingly at the bathtub.
âShowerproof.â
âYou could take it off?â
âYou could dangle one leg over the edge.â
âSun shower it is.â She didn't feel like getting zapped to death in his bath tub...
âIf youâre nice and good, maybe you can use it again sometime.â
She ignored those heavily implied implications and hid the leap that her heart made and merely grunted out some âThat would be nice.â She looked up, saw he had a rain shower head. Of course.
She hooked a finger around a tiny pair of goggles and held it up for him, a questioning look on her face.
âFor the UV radiation, apparently. You need to wear that if you use this setting.â He hung around the corner to the shower and pointed at the buttons.
âOhh. Like the tanning goggles. Let me guess, you donât use the UV setting either.â
âNope.â
âDo you take ice showers instead?â
âNo. Sometimes,â he admitted.
He explained the two settings, pointed out where the towels and his products were and left her to it. Dani locked the door with a firm snap.
She didnât want to use his shower gels anyway; didnât want anything smelling like pine on her body, lingering around, or worse, clinging to her even when she was alone. All she wanted was to run that shower dry and soak up as much heat as she could.
And the sun shower delivered. The hot water was already bliss, but mixed with the heat radiating into her back was absolute heaven. She rolled her shoulders, felt her muscles untense, scooted her butt back a little to get as close as she dared, turned around and back again. And she melted away. Totally worth it to behave a little more cordially to have a chance to use this again.
With her body unthawing, so did her thoughts, and once she was finally warm enough to form other snippets of thought besides variations of âso coldâ, she wondered why the bedroom door was always locked. Even his office was open throughout the day, and thatâs where all the goods were. Okay, granted, he was in there most of the time as well, guarding his lair, and when he wasnât everything was under lock and key again⊠But why the bedroom. It looked completely normal.
Once she was finished, she wrapped a towel around her hair and put his hoody on to keep as much of this well-earned warmth close to her. Then, just to be sure, she still dug though all his drawers. All she needed was a single, unguarded razor blade.
But as always, she found nothing. Time to go back to reality.
A waft of steam followed her out, maybe even preceded her in dramatic fashion, as she came back out.
Roman was waiting for her; casually sitting up on the still made bed, propped against the pillows, reading one of the books from his side table. It confirmed her shower thoughts: he did not want her wandering about in his bedroom without supervision. So the bathroom was fine to snoop around in, bedroom⊠not so much.
What could he be hiding in here⊠From what she could see, there wasnât much here. Nothing embarrassing, nothing dangerousâ
She perched on the edge of the bed, next to his legs so she was just about out of his reach. She considered sitting next to him or âtestingâ the bed to slip a hand under the pillow to feel around for something metally and deadly. But it would be seen as, at best, suspicious and at worst flirtatious⊠Heâs prepared enough that he wouldnât invite her close if he had a gun somewhere in the vicinity.
Besides, better not to take any risks based on rumours her brain had spunâŠ
âBetter?â he asked.
Best thing that ever happened to her since she came here. âIt was nice and warm," she said coolly.
âGood. Nice to have something to quickly warm you up, should I ever forget you in the basement or outside⊠or something,â he trailed off. He slid his legs off the bed. âNow then,â he continued as if he hadnât just made some unnerving threat. âTime to go back to your own room.â
i HAVE to say that the latest chapter just had me saying ouch all the time lol but i did enjoy it. when i got to the whip part and it being used for other purposes on felicia i swear i cringed. plus the implications that they used other objects on her the same way man poor girl.
i do adore the way you portray hopelessness and exhaustion in her character. sooo looking forward to the next chapter.
Hi anon, I love this ask so much, thank you for reading!! Poor Felicia is sooooo done and over everything this chapter, she can't even get upset about it she's just so over it.
p.s. the trio of shitheads Miles Scott and Victor drove home after this chapter, but they drove their car off a cliff and it exploded in a fireball and they all died. happy ending!