Saby's Sandbox

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Hello, this is just my little corner on tumblr to reblog things I like and post about my life and thoughts. Any negativity will be tagged as Negativity TW, but I will try to keep it at a minimum.

#saby rambles // #sabys reblogs // pet post

Aetherverse / LofiRp / Art Blog / Ramble Tag / Reblogs

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Over and done. I have mixed feelings about it, but knowing there is no need to check my rp blog anymore is a relief ngl. I haven't really been online today and spent all day reading.

Just reading, drawing and getting my life in order are my priorities at the moment. I will set up a 'yapping about media I enjoy' blog but I don't think I'll bother with a writing blog anymore.

If I ever want to go back to writing, I will do it in private. In a google doc maybe. I don't think I'm a good writer anyway.

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I started writing a post on lofirp. One I feel like I should post, and then be over with for good. But it's so hard. What if I do want to return again one day? Unlikely as it is? I am just so, so burned out. And mentally unwell. Since a while already.

I like having a creative, productive hobby online. But I also... suck at being online. I need more distance. Maybe I will continue writing just for myself, but I genuinely don't know.

It is just so scary to make a huge 'I quit' post.

But I also realize that I might not miss rp that much. And that I'm not really going to be missed. I haven't been very active lately and barely chatted/plotted with anyone ooc. But it still feels me with dread.

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sharing my writing blog here with my besties https://aetherchapters.tumblr.com/

because it's still a huge construction site as I post it =)

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My one-year curse is striking again lol. I am genuinely not sure about my OC blog atm.

It's not helping that when I check the blog, one of the messages I see is someone telling me 'I would love to reply that starter but Idk what's going on and where you want to go with this'. Yeah Idk.

Not feeling my characters for Rp atm. I am, as it is, more comfortable rping with canon characters, even tho I do have more freedom with my OCs.

People seemingly struggling with my OCs and their world made me contemplating to just resort to move them and then completely rebranding the new blog as my personal writing and (maybe) ask-blog, but no longer rp.

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I have 2 appointments this afternoon. One was at home and is done, the other is outside and I'm still waiting for. Of course I forgot the person's name the second I approached the reception to say I'm here 😂

I'm still not doing hot and I took a mask with me.

And my brother asked me last Saturday if I can take off this Thursday for an Europa Park trip. Bro I was sick for 4 days, still don't do hot and I already took a day off two weeks ago. I... can't ask for a day off again already for on Thursday. But I wanna go there... 🙈🙈🙈

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You know, being sick and rotting away, I was thinking about the multi fandom rp group I was in years ago. It was established that the characters were kidnapped into that world. But it was up to our own interpretation as to why characters disappear again when they drop out of the group, which was... odd?

See, I personally always established for myself that characters got sorted out every few days again to maintain space and avoid overcrowding. Which would make sense imho?

But there were people that went like 'people can just go home and later return again whenever they want'. When you go under the pretense that coming and leaving is involuntarily and happens at random, then your character is obviously unhappy about being kidnapped. When they voice that in an open starter, and then you have a muse of one of those people jump in and say 'well you can just leave if you don't like it', it's just awkward asf.

Them not properly establishing such details made interactions with other muses sometimes awkward or even impossible. But you know, that wasn't the only gripe I had with the group. Some of their rules were super stupid and unnecessarily complicated, and they had a serious clique issue, with mods being parts of them. You could tell that mods played favorites.

Anyway, I just had to vomit these random thoughts. Idk why I still bother thinking of them, I know I won't bother putting my foot back there again. Last time I checked, none of their many issues have changed. I guess I still miss it somewhat because I had a few great buddies there. But they all quit anyway, so what gives.

[nezuchuuko]

New chapter was wild.

[izutsumi-izutsumi]

Get squished idiot

[dunmestuffy]

[mooreaux]

It’s Dungeon Meshi Thursday everybody! Have another Senshi warmup ✨

[mooreaux]

Senshi with a big gulp sized cup of tea!

[sannuiz]

POV : you're about to get served the most bomb food to ever exist possibly

[artdoingdan]

I am now a dungeon meshi grocery store au fan account lmao

(These are some sticker designs that I'm gonna be selling at Anime North this weekend 👀)

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Went to bed yesterday, with leg cramp and shaking. Cat woke me at 1:40 AM. I felt like I'm inside an oven and had a migraine attack. That was 'fun'. But I made it through somehow.

My nose is so stuffed and I still got a headache, I may stay home tomorrow too and go back to work next week. I'm wrecked.

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I may finally watch Dungeon Meshi and give my brain another new hyperfixation while I'm just rotting in bed, shaking with leg cramps 😷👍

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Stayed home and also called in on the appointment I was supposed to have this afternoon. Idk if I really have caught a cold or I deal with my damn allergies again (curse the pretty weather and fucking pollen), but my throat has remained sore all morning and still is.

If I can't get any writing done after lunch, then I'll do another 'doing icons while listening to ebook or podcast' attempt, now that I'm not bleeping tired at least. Just feeling sick asf :/