Sad Amphiptere

place for me to post sad stuff.

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Fuck you all. You don't want me? You want to kick me out? Fine! You were not my friends anyway. I was just a phase and you fucking wanted me gone! Fuck you assholes! You don't want me to exist! Then have fun never seeing me ever again!

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Are you ok? did smth happen?

i became a bad person. so i have to go.

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I have nothing to go back to. Nothing to look forward to. There's nothing there. I'm doing something for nothing. I have nothing to gain. I'm going to die alone.

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i need to disappear

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i need to stop hoping

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I just want to disappear and make everyone happy. I am already not friends with so many people that I foolishly thought we were. If I just left everything. Just went away. Nothing would change. Why do I have to keep holding on to something that was never worth it in the first place. I never had friends. Just people who said my ideas were cool. And then I didn't post the cool stuff anymore. Then it was other stuff that no one had any interest in. That was the first time. And it just increased more and more and more and more until I had nothing. I'm basically entertaining myself. No one to follow or listen or to say something silly. It's just me. Talking to ghosts that don't exist anymore. I disappeared a long time ago. I just held on because I thought it was for something. But it's not. I got nothing left.

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If I deleted everything. Would anyone care?

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I don't want to eat anything. Even looking didn't help.

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I haven't eaten all day. And I still don't want to. I'm just cooking for my mom.

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I have to leave my room to deal with real life stuff. I might not be back for a while. My cat's wondering where I've been.

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My puppy didn't leave too bark.

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He refuses to leave. My dog to. I feel like I shouldn't have let them in.

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My pets want in.

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I'm not going to leave my room today. I don't want any fuzzies with me. I don't deserve to be out there and even have a semblance that I did something right.

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Is it stupid that I get genuinely upset that no one recalls what I do? There's no art, or silly discussion about anything I do. I don't get that stuff. Nothing I do is memorable enough. And it makes me question all over again if it's really worth it to stick around If I'm just background noise.

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Hey I've just found your blog (also sorry for spamming your notifications and asking you this so late at night) are you alright?

I can listen to you if you wanna talk anytime i know we might not be that close with you but my arms are open for you anytime

I'm about as okay and I've always been. Luckily I was already pretty sleepy when you found this. Thank you for the offer. I might take it sometime.