I've finally decided to let go.
I have come into terms that you will never reciprocate the feelings that I have for you.
You aren't gonna come back to me no matter how much I said that i'll still be here as you go to another woman's arms.
I'm still a bit bitter about what you said... My dreams aren't big enough for you?
I wish life is that easy for everyone to be able to just have their dreams and goals coming true. I gave up on my original dream, the dream that I've wanted to pursue cause of the world's circumstances right now and that there were no such opportunities and privileges that are able to make my dream come true. I had to face reality and compromise. Thankfully I found a new hobby that I've come to love and has now become a goal that is easily achieved if I disciplined myself enough. Requires no money if optional. I made that and I was happy with it but you weren't. You had the audacity to say that my goals aren't big enough and that made me look like I'm an immature brat.
And this one, boy it plagued my mind for weeks. The confidence and self-esteem that i've been building up cause I was inspired to change myself because of you came crashing down once more when you just had to interrupt me when I was talking about how, maybe my appearance was not good enough and maybe in the end it just came down to appearances, you went ahead and quoted what the girl said to you that (can't remember the exact words but) 'appearances are like seen on how you take care of yourself. and if you know you have flaws and you're not taking of your physical appearance then... it shows'
lowkey in my opinion, somewhat twisted. Well beauty is objective but for me a person can take care of themselves really well and still find flaws and feel ugly af. if by taking care of flaws you mean like skincare and stuff, can you say the same for people with actual problems that just can't be solved with a pimple patch and dermatologist? what if they can't fix that because they can't afford it? how is that person's appearance then?
I'll assume you're happy and content with your decision and I respect that.
It's kind of a waste cause I think we would've been compatible and we would've been at home with each other. madlessly in love but I guess it was just my imagination running loose once more. it was just me.
maybe you really just didn't like me like what you said. maybe you just liked the fact that i was just there talking to you.
I've been doing well. Maybe some occasional missing-you moments but I'm fine. Maybe two-three heartaches were enough to let me know what I should do when I'm in pain, when i'm at my lowest, and when i feel like i wanna be permanently gone from this world. i know what to do and i know now that it'll pass.
i mean from the beginning i told you that no matter what happens i'd be okay with us and i reassured you that i was okay to wait.
yes i meant that. maybe just not from the fact that you chose someone else.
But that's fine you deserve to be happy. I'm lowkey getting pissed at you now looking at it but I have to let go of all the lingering feelings that I might still have thus why I'm writing this.
I'm starting a new chapter in my life and I wanna leave everything behind. I got all that I need and I don't wanna be tied down by that small glimmer of hope that you're gonna run back to me. Which I know you won't.
Can't say I was happy with the decision you made. But I know I've done everything that I could and still wasn't chosen. So that's all there is to it. So goodbye for I will move on.
For I choose to be content. And I think I'll be happy with what I have decided.
Cause I think I'm getting there.
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