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@sadcomrade
I’m seriously so angry, realising I have some facebook friends who only ever comment on my status updates to talk down to me when they have literally no other relationship with me
but I don’t want to unfriend them at that moment and have them think I’m having a reaction to what they said or did.
will i ever feel fulfilled? yes. i have felt fulfilled before. i will feel fulfilled again. will i ever be content? yes. i have been content before. i will be content again. will i ever be happy? ecstatic? overcome with joy? will i ever feel surrounded by love? supported? encouraged? will i ever feel proud? will i ever feel hopeful? will i ever feel confident in myself? will i ever feel optimistic about my future? yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. my present is not my eternity.
For the second day in a row, I have cried all day long. My boyfriend said he was glad to have spent the past fifteen years with me and I started sobbing uncontrollably into his face. It was ugly crying with odd noises and snot.
me, opening content I know will 100% trigger me: I Just Wanna See How Bad It Is
me, after opening content I know will 100% trigger me: Yeah It’s Pretty Bad
I have a pretty bad relationship with humour. It always just makes me realise how really bad I feel. Like I acknowledge that something is funny on an objective level, then I realise I’m too far gone to get any joy from it.
but today was next level
today my boyfriend told a joke to cheer me up and I immediately started sobbing
The most frustrating thing about being this depressed is that I can’t manage to draw for more than an hour a day...
My kink is people who accept me even with my mental illness and don’t abandon me when it’s too hard for them
Honestly some days the only thing that keeps me from throwing myself in front of a train is that I have a dog who wouldn’t understand why I never came home
there’s just something so disheartening about knowing that no matter how much reassurance you receive from people that they care about you and no matter how much you may work with them to build and strengthen your relationship you’ll never really be sure that they care about you. you’ll always come back around to believing they hate you and that feeling will never stop
Oh hay so, nifty tip for dealing w/ invasive irrational thoughts.
Pretend Spock is standing by your shoulder telling you it’s “illogical” or some shit.
Getting invasive thoughts that everyone you know secretly hates you? Spock is there to be all “That is statistically improbable Captain, several of your friends have told you many times that they enjoy your company.”
Paranoid that you’re going to get hit by a car every time you walk by a road? Spock is walking beside you, calmly explaining that “You are mostly like not going to be hit by a car. You’re walking on the sidewalk, and there are no cars in sight.”
Is someone not messaging you back right away, and part of you is terrified that they’re dead in a ditch somewhere? Spock is there to be all “Captain, your friend is currently at work. They’re probably helping a customer, not dead.”
Seriously, I spend a lot of time pretending that Spock is blandly telling me why all of my irrational, invasive, and paranoid thoughts probably aren’t true.
“Spock, someone’s watching me.”
“Captain, you are alone in your apartment. Everything is fine.”
There are three rules.
1. If you do not go after what you want, you will never have it.
2. If you do not ask, the answer will always be no.
3. If you do not step forward, you will remain in the same place.
Wow, i really needed this
I wish this were inspiring but it’s honestly so terrifying and depressing to me
You don’t need to have it all together to be ready for love. You just need to have a willingness to learn along with your partner about how to maintain a healthy relationship.
Anyone else terrified that they are toxic and manipulative and just can’t see it? Or is that just me?
someone: every time you go through something painful you get stronger uwu
me, living with consistent suicidal ideation and unbearable depression: Please Stop Me I’m Getting Too Strong.
who else has a mental list of villainous — coded neurodivergent — characters they relate a lot to, and are kinda worried that they do, lol
the hardest part of having breakdowns is having to clean up all the loser depressing msgs after its over and pretend nothin happened it’s so awkward?? Like “oops sorry I sent that 10 sentence message about how much I want to die, im ok now so how are u lol”
this is me atm
