Passion Of The Sam

Sam Winchester is a character of all time. My poor baby meow meow. I am more invested in supernatural than I ever thought I would be. Tragic.

[sainteangel]

if only they knew how much worse everything would get

[fllooredbythelorddotcom]

[novakstogive]

Sam Winchester SUPERNATURAL — 1.08 "Bugs"

[perfectassimilator]

while it is frustrating to hear all the time, when you really think about how spn's narrative is set up... is it really that crazy that the fandom blames sam for so much? the narrative camera is practically glued to dean’s eyes (he's not the sole protag but he is the protag whose pov we usually judge the world through) so when dean gets into all into sam's face and says, "it's gone too far, sam. if i didn't know you, i'd want to hunt you. it's not what you're doing; it's what you are," the show’s music, close-ups, dramatic pauses (++ jensen's skilled acting) frame that as the narrative truth, even when the factual truth contradicts it. we're repeatedly conditioned over hundreds of episodes to treat dean’s moral compass as the correct path this way

where the fandom becomes even more irrational than dean is in the perpetuity of the debt. its a nobrainer that sam saved the world dozens of times over (stopped many seals from breaking, stopped the darkness/amara, helped kill god, threw himself into a pit of eternal torture at the hands of lucifer) and still went on to do much more so like by any logical metric, sam's debt or penance or whatever is paid a thousand times over right?? but no. in the fandom's eyes (and in tbh, in dean's eyez), the slate can never be truly wiped

but why is that?? what's the point of putting all the problems on sam? what's the use of rehashing everything and beating the hell out of the dead horse? it's because the apocalypse became less of an event, and more of an identity. okay this sounds stupid but bear with me: the apocalypse was one of the pinnacles of sam's destiny. he is forever branded as an abomination, the antichrist, more than a monster, a freak, the boy king, lucifer's vessel, the boy with the demon blood. but he never actually TOOK ON these titles, these were all forced onto him by the people who needed him to be what they wanted him to be. but the fandom will never stop blaming him for the apocalypse because it's easier to see it the way dean does than it is to recognize there was so much grooming that went into sam's life, it would have been impossible for sam to be truly autonomous as heaven and hell moved mountains to make sure the apocalypse happened. and the thing dean truly hates most is the feeling of powerlessness

[bluepearlie]

Obsessed with hell permanently changing Sam and Dean's characters in opposite ways.

Dean who gets traumatized by being the torturer. He has the soft parts of himself hardened into a small, condensed ball of hate that he gets brief pleasure in hurling at those who hurt him before going numb again. He still has love, but it's a hard, inflexible thing that refuses to learn or grow, and the part of himself that accepted cruelty as an act of self-defense is not afraid to beat that love into submission so it stays right where it is - firmly his, firmly under control.

Sam who gets traumatized by being the tortured. All his defenses are burned away, leaving the soft parts of himself pulpy and malleable as an open wound for the world to prod at. He wears his heart on his sleeve, but it has no boundaries protecting it. He's learned to not trust himself, so he puts everything into trusting others even when it hurts him more. Fighting back never worked in the cage - not even the smallest, meekest "no." Why would it work now?

Dean used to tell Sam he could go back to school and live his life once their hunt for Dad was over, and he meant it. He used to want Sam to move on after his death, not crucify himself to bring him back.

Sam used to tell Dean what he wanted, feeling safe enough with him to be totally honest, even if it caused conflict. He used to love with self-respect, staying when it was healthy and leaving when it wasn't. He used to say No.

Now they're both people who would be unrecognizable to their younger selves - would probably horrify them if they knew. They're the "bad future" versions that an after-school special would show to scare kids straight, show them the adults they don't want to be.

And isn't that just perfectly tragic?

[fllooredbythelorddotcom]

[gothicsammy]

[fllooredbythelorddotcom]

[commiefaggoth]

so embarrassing to watch yourself become obsessed with a character that feels tailor made for you specifically to become obsessed with. feels like i fell into a trap made just for me. like damn they got me. those are all the things i like and go crazy for

[novakstogive]

Sam Winchester SUPERNATURAL — 1.09 "Home"

[oneswordstyle]

[sp00kiep00kie49]

Sam winchester side profile appreciation

[samwchsgf]

salivating in therapy

[stickingupforsammy]

[sam-loml]

Supernatural 2.15 | Tall Tales

[samfreak]

i will never get over how funny dean is in 1x08 bugs he fully thinks sam is the only guy who's ever gone to college. to dean college is a cult and sam is charles manson with bangs

[novakstogive]

Sam Winchester SUPERNATURAL — 1.06 "Skin"

[sam-loml]

Supernatural 2.15 | Tall Tales