quitting this blog.
if you saw my last post you know i got adhd meds that make me feel not hungry at all and it's great. i'm working out/dancing and i really really enjoy it and it has become a new lovely passion hobby of mine. and it's no longer JUST for weight loss. i do still intermittent fasting, but i'm letting myself eat food i actually like since i can't eat much anyway bc i feel full (bc of the meds) and coming back to this tumblr... feels wrong. i see all the negative depressing posts and i decided i don't want that anymore. i genuinely feel like, yes my TRUE self is skinny. and tho other peoples' opinions mean a lot to me, i realized that the main reason i want to be thin is for myself. i feel so good, athletic, and confident when i'm skinny, and most of all i LOVE fashion and clothes. i am still going to lose all that weight but in the past 5(around) months i've learned that this negative tumblr is not right for me. i'm getting over my binge eating disorder, and doing it at least in a semi healthy way. like it could be better but i'm not in any danger. i just feel so good about myself. i'm still very overweight and have a long way to go but i'm already smiling, knowing i'm gonna get to my goal. and i'm gonna do it my own way in my own time without obsessing about calories. i'm gonna dance, swim, try to be more confident and positive and not care about food because frankly my meds are doing the work for me. i really only notice i need food when my body starts physically begging for it. but i promise i'm gonna take care of my body in a healthy way while still losing weight.
i truly wish you all well. and i might've made it sound hopeless for you because of the meds, but i promise it's not just because of them. you can do it. but i HIGHLY recommend recovery. seriously. you can be thin while taking care of your body the right way. goodbye everyone.
