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Warnings: Mentions of fighting with family members, mentions of feeling inferior to your brother, mentions of favoritism,
"Rintarō, if you don't give me back my ice cream, we're going to have issues." You narrow your eyes at him, crossing your arms over your chest.
It was far too cold for you both to be out, in reality. You both should be inside, in one of your beds, surrounded by warm covers and pillows. Though, you couldn't resist the calling of your sweet tooth and Suna couldn't resist the smile you flashes him when you wanted to convince him to do something. So here you both were, shaking like leaves every time a slight breeze swept over the both of you, at two in the morning.
And there your boyfriend gives you that stupid, stupid lopsided grin of his and you can only imagine what he has planned. "Oh yeah? What kind of issues?"
Letting a deep sigh escape your lungs, you find yourself smiling, despite your feigned annoyance in your boyfriend. It was so far to keep a smile from your lips when gave you that grin of his. "Shut up, you're such an idiot."
"An idiot that your dumbass fell in love with," poking your cheek with the ice cream-filled spoon, he smears the frozen dessert across your cheek, eliciting a gasp from you.
You bring your hands up to grasp the napkins that you'd shoved in Rintarō's sweater pockets, quickly wiping it off of your cheek, all while the male in question snickers at you.
"You're such an asshole, Rin," you flip him off whilst taking your ice cream back, sticking your tongue out at him as you take a bite of the dessert, enjoying the moment. That was until Rintarō decided he wanted you in his arms, reaching for you and easily pulling you into his grasp.
With your back pressed against his chest, you're enveloped in not only his arms but also the natural warmth of his body. His lips brush your ear, warm breath trailing down your spine and making you shiver. "Like I said, an asshole you're in love with," his teeth nip at your ear, causing you to shiver, once again.
"Shove it." You manage to shove him off, a playful smile flitting across your lips... Well, the smile stays, until your phone begins to ring, your happy expression quickly falling. You didn't have to look at your phone to know who was calling.
Seeing the shift in your demeanor, Rintarō sighs, "You two are fighting again?"
With a scoff, you glance at your boyfriend, "Don't tell me that you're going to take his side in this." When met with silence, you continue, pushing your boyfriend away from you and taking a step back so you can look at him, "Look, I'm not in the mood for a lecture from you too, Rintarō. Every damn time anything happens between me and my family, everyone is involved. Aran, the twins, Hitoshi... Everyone acts like it's their business, and to pile on more, everyone acts like it's my fault, every time.
"I know I'm not perfect, okay? I know I don't even have a definite position on the team, because yeah, I can play almost all of them, but I'm not exceptional at any particular one. I know no one is going to choose me over anyone else on the team. I know that no one is going to choose me, out of a lineup of good-looking people. I know that. But don't tell me that now, after I finally think someone did choose me, over my brother, you're going to change your mind."
Maybe you sounded dramatic, though to be fair... It was how you felt in the situation. Everyone always chose Shinsuke over you. In every team, when you both were growing up. Your grandmother always chose his side, in arguments. Even the team you were on now, with some of the people you trusted most, you still felt like you were in Shinsuke's shadow. And you hated the feeling.
Because maybe you weren't the most talented at volleyball. But you were a damn good and hard-working player.
Maybe you weren't the most attractive person in the world. But you knew damn well that you were, indeed, attractive, nonetheless.
You were just as good as Shinsuke and you deserved to be treated that way. You'd thought Rintarō, if all people, would see that.
After a moment, Rintarō raises his eyebrows, "Are you done?" He asks, "Or do you need to get the rest out, as well?"
Letting out a quiet breath, you size him up, before shaking your head, "I'm done."
"Good." Rintarō, once again, pulls you into his arms and puts his chin on your head. "Because you know I'm always on your side... Do you want to talk about it, or go back to my place?"
"I just don't want to go home."
Nodding, he moves away from you, wrapping his arm around you. "I'll text him to let him know that you're safe and you're with me, so you don't have to. But we're going to talk about this in the morning."
Rolling your eyes, you nod, "My prince charming. Of course." You plant a kiss on his cheek, leaning your head against his shoulder. "You'll really always be on my side?"
"Of course," though his face didn't change much, his eyes flickered to yours, the same warm, found look that he always held when he was around you, shining in them. "And I'll say it as many times as you need, you know. I don't think of you as my Captain's sister. I think of you as my lover and as an individual. I'm not comparing you to anyone, but even if I did, you would be second to no one."
He wasn't always good with words, but sometimes, he knew just what to say to warm your heart, to remind you why he was your boyfriend in the first place.
And thanks to him, eventually, your phone stopped ringing and you were able to fall asleep, knowing that you weren't the only one who knew your importance.
Kita was always your parents' favorite, as well. He was the quiet, easy baby, and you... Wanted to be just as loved as he was, but nothing you did was ever enough for them. And even living with your grandmother now, you struggle to be 'good enough'
Of course, you know your own worth. You are a wonderful person who deserves to know how amazing you are, whether or not other people can see it.
Suna knows you struggle to be 'good enough' in other people, though he makes sure you know that you never have to do anything more than be yourself for him to love you.
Sigh... Let's hope this posts... And let's also hope it's good. It's not my best work, but I promise that the story will get better from here. Anyways, I hope you're all having a wonderful day and staying safe.
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