diamant étincelant

nothing about me fits in here

[sagradaanima]

My man and I

[sagradaanima]

How would it feel to have a real group of friends

Or a community

I wouldn’t know

All I’ve ever know is people who may accidentaly tell me what they are about to do so there’s no other option than to invite me.

I have some friends

Maybe one and a half, two. Lots of halves?

They wouldn’t let me in their group of friends

There’s a reason for that. There’s a reason for everything.

I’m kind of problematic. I don’t think I am bad or shady, just problematic.

I don’t act as I should. I don’t follow a list of personality traits that make me predictable. I don’t behave as “someone like me” should. Cause I don’t even know what “someone like me” means.

I guess no one knows “who they are”. But they know how to play their role.

Or they know how to act in order to not be rejected by everyone. Or the majority.

I have always thought that even tho I don’t have lots of friends, I got the right ones by my side.

But I said it before, I’m not an easy person to be around.

I never get invited

I invite

I never get called

I call

People ask me for things.

And if they want to see me it’s never about having some time with my personality but with my appearance.

I feel sad but I started overcoming this sorrow that I relate with loneliness. I love being alone but hate feeling lonely. I don’t think I’ve ever felt a feeling more strongly than loneliness.

I make trouble, I speak my mind. I’m not predictable cause I try not to repeat the same patterns daily. I need to know myself but as I keep learning people fade away easily.

I don’t think I’m a victim. In the majority of the cases I lose people because I want to, because I can’t stand their lack of knowledge of themselves. I can’t stand talking to people who don’t know what they want.

But I’m alone

I don’t have someone to call, that person that will also call me in need of help. And I don’t want to feel like I’m a burden. And I am a burden.

I will have to create and imagine some friends for the next few years cause I plan not to leave this reality for as long as I can handle this suffering. Cause I’ve been looking for them. And I failed.

[sagradaanima]

Quiero un libro de poesía nuevo

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

it’s okay to be sad about losing people who weren’t good for you

[sagradaanima]

But I’ll miss and dream about them till the day I die

[sagradaanima]

I’m never gonna have a peaceful relationship and I guess it’s my fault. I just see lost souls. I keep ignoring the ones that already healed

I’m so helpless.

[sagradaanima]

[sagradaanima]

Tired of everyone why can’t people think a libit

[sagradaanima]

“Enserio esque siempre te pasa algo”

Si bueno es lo que tiene tener una enfermedad cronica lo siento mucho

[moonvera]

[sagradaanima]

I’m crying now

[b0ttleb10nd]

[sagradaanima]

I keep looking for real connections real relationships but somehow something is always more important than that

Something always have to happen for it to end

[sagradaanima]

I keep trying to make things work but maybe Im not meant for this world

I keep on doing the wrong thing

I always end up being the one with scars

I always end up hurt

And I will never be the choosen one

Just an option

[sagradaanima]

[sagradaanima]

I like exclusive people

Those who don’t give their soul to everyone

But they may show it

[sagradaanima]

[gylmara]

[sagradaanima]