even in death,

your heart is ᴾᵁᴿᴱ, stefan.

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okay friends , this blog is officially an archive ! you can find stefan and i @salvatoraes now ! feel free to soft block this account since i won't be checking it anymore. ( this will queue ! )

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" — i heard about this one vampire, crazy bloke … always on and off the wagon for decades. when he was off, he was magnificent. 1917, he went into monterey and wiped out an entire migrant village. a true ripper. " ©

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okay friends , this blog is officially an archive ! you can find stefan and i @salvatoraes now ! feel free to soft block this account since i won't be checking it anymore. ( this will queue ! )

[salvatoraes]

" — i heard about this one vampire, crazy bloke … always on and off the wagon for decades. when he was off, he was magnificent. 1917, he went into monterey and wiped out an entire migrant village. a true ripper. " ©

[salvatoraesmoved]

okay friends , this blog is officially an archive ! you can find stefan and i @salvatoraes now ! feel free to soft block this account since i won't be checking it anymore. ( this will queue ! )

[salvatoraesmoved]

okay friends , this blog is officially an archive ! you can find stefan and i @salvatoraes now ! feel free to soft block this account since i won't be checking it anymore. ( this will queue ! )

[salvatoraesmoved]

okay friends , this blog is officially an archive ! you can find stefan and i @salvatoraes now ! feel free to soft block this account since i won't be checking it anymore. ( this will queue ! )

[salvatoraes]

" — i heard about this one vampire, crazy bloke … always on and off the wagon for decades. when he was off, he was magnificent. 1917, he went into monterey and wiped out an entire migrant village. a true ripper. " ©

[salvatoraesmoved]

yeah … when i move blogs ( hopefully tomorrow / thursday ) i’m definitely gonna control who i follow & how many people i follow for my own sanity. 🫨

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to my new followers , i probably won’t be following back because i’m slowly in the process of moving stef to a fresh blog but feel free to stick around for when i move <3

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my bestie bought me life is strange and before the storm so my night will consist of me playing the first one for a bit 🙂‍↕️

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aesthetics for the entities, part i.   bold what applies to your muse, italics what applies situationally or only in certain verses. rest of the fears here.  this is based on a horror podcast;  potentially triggering and / or upsetting content ahead!

i.  the buried.   weighed blankets.  drowning.  the comfort of a loved one’s weight.  soil and sand piling on top of you.  hugging so hard it hurts a little.  cramped hiding spots.  letting out air underwater to sink to the bottom of the pool.  walls pressing in on you.  not moving from a position even though you’re cramping a little.  dragging the last second before you have to inhale.  lonely subways.  feeling like one with the earth.  a layer of dirt on you.  looking for something below.  cardboard boxes and tiny pillow forts.  hands calloused from digging.  knowing that your purpose is just below the surface.  entering your final resting place before it kills you.  a storm drowning you out.  dust and sand speaking to you.

ii.  the corruption.   insects.  a close imitation of the natural course of life.  an illness in a community.  a rag that dirties more than it cleans.  an untreated wound.  containment.  breaching containment.  unbreathable air.  fungi.  one with that you love.  one with what loves you.  a corpse unfit for a glass case.  hearing a song in the sound of tiny wings and legs.  honeycomb patterns.  an ecosystem within a person.  a curse passed on.  the hubris of a scientist.  an ugly death where a glorious one is owed.  blood on a handkerchief.  parasites.  something pushing up the sewer.  a mask to keep something out.  trypophobia.  knowing you belong.  death weeks after impact.  fever.  food that’s gone off.  pandora’s box.  death behind a glass.

iii.  the dark.   shadows.  lights that turn off by themselves.  the feel of cold marble.  a beaked creature in the night.  the difference between seeing darkness and seeing nothing.  touch of something you can’t see.  hiding under a blanket.  white, clouded eyes.  months without going outside during sunlight.  pouring dark.  unscrewing lightbulbs.  black matter.  light sensitivity.  a starless night.  time before light was created.  a shadow on the wall without a body to attach to.  withering plants.  a world without a sun.  footfalls in an empty house in the night.  a light that doesn’t reach as far as it should.  desperate reach for a flashlight.  clothes that hide your shape.  staying unperceivable.  winter months in the north.  an empty church.

iv.  the desolation.   senseless pain.  warmth of faith.  wax where skin should be.  a blazing fire.  heat without a source.  the third or fourth tragedy in the family.  losing everything you’ve ever held dear.  so much to live for, gone so soon.  the smell of gasoline.  touch that scars.  coffee cup that never goes cold.  scorch marks on wood.  inescapably warm air.  a child born in fire.  death of a loved one.  a candle without a flame.  an altar in the middle of the woods.  animals with burnt fur.  plastic explosives.  burning hot metal.  sweating in an interrogation room.  never touching a loved one.  disfigurement.  a kiss that ruins you.  the scent of burning fat.  a tattoo that terrifies its viewer.  the agony of hellfire displayed as art.  auburn hair.  little clothing in cold weather.  a ripple in the air.  trying to cool down in vain.

v.  the flesh.   body horror.  factories.  a hunger for something more filling.  never quite happy with how you look.  the terror of an animal waiting for slaughter.  a very good meal.  the liquid of a perfect steak.  fighting your worst survival instincts.  a twisted bone.  long nights working out.  more than one heart.  appearance that shapes like clay.  a bag of bones.  bone broth in a pot.  knowing to fear pigs.  the butcher’s shop.  plastic surgery.  something alien inside your body.  a hunger in the gaze laid upon you.  unwitting cannibalism.  forgetting what you used to look like.  being admired for your appearance and appearance only.  teeth marks on skin.  scars from wounds that should’ve killed you.  cooking in scarcity.  fenced in with one way to go.

vi.  the end.   the last page of a book.  nightmares that don’t feel like nightmares.  a skeletal hand.  the grip of the grim reaper around your throat.  existential pain.  ivory dice.  flatlining in a hospital.  gambling with death.  as old as the universe.  soul and spirit tied to an object.  a dream where you die.  closing your eyes for the last time.  the plead of a dying one.  knowing the fate of someone you know and being unable to prevent it.  a thousand cords tugging you towards your end.  skin that’s freezing to the touch.  an act of desperation.  someone’s life for yours.  an eternity spent alive.  the cost of your selfishness.  watching your own burial.  causing your own burial.  the smell of death.  numbness to fear.  words from someone gone.  meaninglessness of the actions or lives of single people in the universe.  multiple near-death experiences you refuse to die from.

vii.  the eye.   googling something you shouldn’t have.  eureka moments.  the unforgiving lens of a camera.  witness reports.  hidden libraries.  eyes of different colours.  feeling of being watched.  a death recorded in tape.  a tragedy you can’t watch away from.  endangering yourself for knowledge.  truth.  analog records.  a symbol of an eye.  a watch tower.  compulsion to document.  turning on recording devices without thinking about it.  saving the evidence before the person.  extracting information.  truth or dare, without the dare.  a thirst for knowledge.  books that speak to you.  coordinated shelves.  cataloguing systems. voyeurism.  police report you can’t put down.  reasoning your way out.  smell of old papers.  books that read you back.

TAGGED BY:   nobody <3 TAGGING:  @klaeus , @forbaes , @malka-lisitsa , @chth0nia , @kindofuneven , @slayhem, @godbrks , @loomenary ( for poe ) , @putregod , @flappervcmp , @freezegirl , @ofcrossrcads , @outlawiism , @bloodsalted , @milleroptimism, @m4tthewdonovan & youuu, steal !

[distressed-devilsitter]

Seeing as how the Big Beautiful Bill just passed, here's are some websites that offer discounts on medications:

- GoodRx

- SingleCare

- Pharmacy Checker

- WellRx - this one compares prices across different pharmacies

- Cost Plus - thanks to @thedamnqueenofhell for suggesting!

-NeedyMeds - a nonprofit that helps pay for prescriptions. Thank you to @allitdoesispause for the suggestion! They also suggested checking the manufacturers website for a paitent assistance program, which can give you a coupon for free or cheaper meds.

- Scriptcycle - thank you to @teleomancer for the suggestion!

-Ask for a discount card - thank you to @cccshutdown for the reminder!

Stay safe, everyone. Things are about to get much, much worse in the US.

EDIT: if you're worried about doctor/therapy appointments, see if there's a sliding scale clinic near you (and ask your therapist if they offer sliding scale prices)

@scribblingandscrawling recommended Open Path, a service that offers sliding scale therapy

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to my new followers , i probably won’t be following back because i’m slowly in the process of moving stef to a fresh blog but feel free to stick around for when i move <3

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me thinks when i move i’ll be going back to lorenzo <3 now that i have screencaps ( everyone say thank you shelley ) i don’t have to agonize about it lmao.

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GET TO KNOW ABC’S : MUN EDITION.

a . age: 29.

b . birthplace: connecticut.

c . current time: 1 : 45 am.

d . drink you had last: water !

e . easiest person(s) to talk to: all of my besties, some of you are here & you know who you are <3.

f . favorite current song(s): been listening to silver springs by fleetwood mac a lot lately, panic attack by halsey, wildflower by billie eilish, stoned by mac miller. i honestly have sooooo many more but those are the ones replaying in my head as of late lmao.

g . goals: find a job </3 & write more when my hand will allow it.

h . horror yes or horror no: horror, yes ! except no fucking clowns allowed here.

i . in love ?: only with celebrities who don't know i exist & my favorite fictional babies </3

j . jealous of people: unfortunately yes, rich people ???? people happily in love ? people who don't get chronic headaches ???? fuck awf.

k . kissed someone recently?: only in my dreams dudes.

l . love at first sight or should i walk by again ?: girl, i am the wrong one to ask.....

m . middle name: marie !

n . number of siblings: one.

o . one wish: to be able to sleep better :/

q . questions you’re always asked: " find a job yet ? " no mfer leave me alone.

s . song you last sang: juno by sabrina carpenter.

t . top 3 fictional characters: listen, picking only three is super hard for me cause i brain rot different things all the time lolol but stefan salvatore ( wink ), joey tribbiani & jackie taylor are forever my babies.

u . unexperienced or experienced writer: i guess experienced if you count this & the one creative writing class i took in college lmao.

v . vacation: i literally just came back from vacation on saturday !!!!! wish i could go back cause now the weather seems to be perfect :/

w . when’s your birthday: october 6th, mark it down lads.

x . x - rays: uh, last time i was at the dentist which was ... far too long ago lmao.

y . your favorite food: mashed potatoes & i are best friends, but also anything chocolate i'm eating.

z . zodiac sign: libra, baby <3

also ... why are r and p missing ?

tagged : ( stolen from ) : @murkyhazed , who happens to have their birthday the day after mine, hey ! tagging : you, steal it <3 tag me !

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thinking i might archive and move stef to a fresh blog, i’m starting to feel cluttered here. and my tags are broken anyway. i’ve also been on this one since jan 2024 so it’s been a while.