Thinking These Thoughts

SamDel (the Poet). She/Her/Hers. Running on dreams intertwined with reality. 🌻🌻🌻

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The Hood

Good Day Faithful Readers!

It's currently 7:15AM EST and I am up writing. My other half has gone to work for the day, and our son is sleeping. I have a hot cup of tea. Too hot, actually; I burnt my tongue. Regardless..... I was "setting up shop" to update the blog, and write some more of my novel, when a thought crossed my mind. What it's like being an author AND a mother. Authorhood and Motherhood.

I think it's fair to say that I knew I would be an author long before I knew I'd be a mother. Writing has always come so naturally to me. Motherhood, did not.

I have journals in my memory box from when I was 10 years old. Poetry has always been a love of mine, so of course the pages of each journal are scribbled with my 10 year old version of what love is; or maybe what love looked like to me at that age. HA. I laugh at the idea.

While I thought I knew what love was at 10 years old, I did not learn what it truly was until I entered Motherhood over 15 years later. Being a mother, much like being an author ( in my opinion) takes balance. It's like a delicate dance; a Waltz.

It's beautiful.

Authorhood for me is waking up at 6:30AM to write.

Motherhood for me is using the bathroom at 6:35AM and being interrupted by a very soft, very gentle "hello? mama?" When my son wakes.

Both Motherhood and Authorhood require discipline for me. Routine. Schedules. Dedication. They are both difficult but extremely rewarding. To watch something you nurtured and meticulously took care of blossom into its own.

Honestly, I wouldn't trade either for the world!

In closing, I could go on and on about both adventures. It's interesting to see how a simple thought can turn into an entire blog post. It's even more interesting how I am ending the blog post because my son is waking up. LOL!

Y,all be bless!

Best,

SamDel

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"Your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing."

- Fyodor Dostoyevsky

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Sippin' Tea; Wasting Time...

My Dearest Readers,

It has truly been far too long. Life, once again, has seemed to sweep me up in its tornado of day-to-day life. My son is 4 now, so that should tell you how long it's been since we last spoke.

So, I'm sure you're wondering whats new. Well, not too much. It seems as though, based on my last post, over a year ago, I come running back to y'all when things are in crisis. Well, maybe "crisis" is too gloom-n-doom of a word. However, if I'm being transparent, things aren't necessarily where I'd like them to be.

I've decided to take my writing career more seriously. Which is a good thing. I recently purchased a new laptop to do so. Don't get me wrong, I love my journals, but a laptop seems more "with the times." It seems I'm getting side tracked, or dancing around the issue.... I'm currently not working because, quite honestly, I have NO IDEA what I want to do with the rest of my life.

I feel like I'm having another quarter life crisis. There's that word again. Crisis. What even is that? Anyway..... I spent all that time in school getting my Doctorate and have LITERALLY NO CLUE WHAT I WANT TO DO. Don't get me wrong, I understand you need to stick with what sticks with you, and the field of Education has done that. However, I'm having trouble finding my groove.

I guess previous work experiences from years ago have really created a sense of hesitation regarding giving another place of employment "my all." Maybe I simply don't want to work "for the man." Whatever that may be.

As I'm sure we all know, IT'S HARD OUT HERE! So, I try to give myself as much Grace as possible. Yet, I remain my own worst enemy. As I'm sure, again, we all can be. But, I make sure to thank my Higher Power for every day given.

I guess I just wanted to check in real quick and say that I really really REALLY am going to make this a regular thing. I love this blog and it's time to get back to the things that make me happy.

I hope you all are reaching for the stars and whatever else is beyond.

Love always,

SamDel

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It certainly has been a while my faithful readers. Life seems to creep up on us, and before we know it months (if not years) have gone by. I finally finished school. AMEN! So Dr. SamDelTay is in the building!!!!!!!!!! Yes, I expect people to call me Dr. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 I worked hard for that title and intend on using it every chance I get! As I should!!!!!! Aside from that, I certainly have not been writing as much as I’d like. Being honest, I haven’t felt motivated enough to write. I’ve been in a cycle of self-isolation, which hasn’t helped me find motivation at all. Music has been a dear friend to me though. Even in my darkest moments I seem to find a lyric that helps pull me closer to the light. My collection Phase Red has been put on pause; well was put on pause until I finished school. Now that I’m done, I plan on finishing that project as soon as possible. I also have been in mom-mode super heavy for the past 2 years. Not being in my son’s life the first few months of his life was devastating to me. I had to learn a lot about myself. Now that he is 3, I understand how quickly life goes by. Time honestly stops for no one. So, I’ve been focusing on him and bettering myself. Yet, I now understand that I have a talent for writing and need to fully embrace it again. So, until next time. I’ll see y’all sooner rather than later! Best, Sam 🌻

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Every night around this time

your name crosses my mind.

It’s habitual to lose myself in love,

and the distance between us remains simply to prove your point.

I don’t talk about it because I do not have the words.

The term breathtaking is quite literal to me these days.

I take everything to heart.

We aren’t where we’re supposed to be.

-SamDel the Poet 🌻

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“Today is the oldest you’ve ever been and the youngest you’ll ever be again.”

— Eleanor Roosevelt

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