Fragments of forever

It’s been a while since I’ve picked up paper and pen, but now I’m writing poetry again- so thought I’d share it with you all ☺️

[same-skies]

Lingering echoes

You and me, it never used to be this way,

You were someone I could talk to day after day,

When things were good, or when they were bad,

I wanted to share with you everything I had,

But yet now when I see you across the room,

I don’t know what to say, it ended too soon,

You were the person that I made my home,

But you’re a stranger now, and I’m alone.

Yet there are still a few things I need to know,

Then I can walk away, I can let you go,

The love we had, was any of it real?

Was it just an illusion, something to feel?

Because I can’t deny the way I felt with you,

Your touch, a warm embrace that felt so true,

Hope, a fragile bird I held tight in the night,

Because you and me together, it used to feel right,

There’s nothing but nostalgia between us now,

I’ll never understand how it got to this point somehow,

You were my favourite person, my best friend,

And I thought our love would never end.

Yet even the best chapters must come  to a close,

So now I walk through memories’ gentle haze,

Recalling our laughter, those sunlit days,

The echoes of our love, a bittersweet refrain,

In the quiet moments, they call my name,

Goodbye, my dear, though we’ve grown apart,

You’ll forever linger in the corners of my heart.

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Curtains close

I don’t want to do this anymore,

I don’t want to get out of bed, to walk out the door,

Fake a smile, laugh and say that I’m okay,

Putting on a practiced act to get through the day,

Surrounded by mess, physically and in my head,

Acting like I’m alive, but feeling like I’m dead,

And I’m thinking that maybe it’s time for me to go,

To close the curtains on this pointless show.

But before I go, I’ll leave this note behind,

Not for pity, not for guilt, just to clear my mind,

I tried to scream in silence, tried to speak in code,

But no one ever noticed the weight I always showed,

I was the joke, the light, the one who made you smile,

Whilst inside I was crumbling, mile after mile.

You saw the mask, the act, the lines I’d rehearse,

But never the aching verses of my silent curse,

Maybe someone will read this and finally see,

That pain wears a face that looks just like me,

And maybe, just maybe, someone will learn,

To ask twice, to listen, to feel the burn,

Because I’m not the only one who walks this line,

There are others out there saying “I’m fine.”

 So if you hear those words, don’t let them slide,

Look in their eyes, see what they really hide.

After all, my smile hasn’t been genuine in years,

Yet I’ve never let anyone see my tears,

Would you even miss me if I walked away?

Guess we’ll find out, today is my last day,

Because this time the demons have won,

So instead of fighting, I’ll let them have their fun,

They can tear me apart, body and soul,

When you bury me in the ground, maybe I’ll be whole.

Don’t try and stop me, the damage is done,

But you live your life, just go and have fun,

Don’t sit and dwell, don’t wish this wasn’t the end,

If it makes you feel better, you can say you were a friend,

But don’t mourn my loss, it isn’t a loss at all,

After all, you never even made time to call.

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Crying on the floor

You think I left because I stopped caring,

that I was cold, detached, my attention sparing,

You couldn't be more wrong though,

But that's a truth that I'll never let show,

It was easy to cast me as the one to blame,

To say I gave up, extinguished the flame,

But for what it's worth, through pain and breath,

I still choose you, in both life and death,

I spend hours staring at the photo frame,

The picture of us before the silence came,

Yet you chose to walk away, to shut the door,

You thought I'd be fine, but I'm still crying on the floor,

But these tears are ones you will never see,

Because I won't tell you how much you destroyed me.

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Whispers of me

I never asked for life to be like this;

A blur of tasks, a maze of endless lists,

 each moment mapped, every second tightly bound,

Yet somehow, I’m nowhere to be found,

I worked straight through a day, through the year,

I missed laughter, the clink of glasses and cheers,

I forgot that blue once made my spirit sing,

And slowly stopped remembering everything,

So tangled in the web of what's expected,

I lost the art of being unprotected,

I lost the freedom in being me,

I became the person they wanted to see.

But in my shadow, in the moments dropped,

Adventure lingered, the life I'd lost,

We once ran through fields and through streams,

yet we barely talk now, and when we do it's through screens.

My best memories are with people I no longer see,

Because in this world of adult life, I lost what it meant to be me.

I’m still here, somewhere beneath the noise,

Not quite broken, but far from poised.

I don’t have answers, or a map to follow,

Just echoes of dreams I’ve tried to swallow,

And maybe that’s all this moment can be…

A quiet ache, a whisper of me.

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Shadowed love

I see you across the crowded room,

A fleeting glance, a silent bloom.

Your eyes meet mine and then look away,

A secret dance we perform each day.

I notice you, a whisper in the air,

A heartbeat quickens, but do I dare?

Our gazes brush, a spark ignites,

Yet we retreat into the night.

We talk in riddles, laughter’s veil,

Emotions hidden, hearts so frail.

But in the shadows, truth resides,

A longing deep that we both hide.

We wear our masks, pretend to be,

Just friends, just smiles, just you and me.

But in the silence, feelings roar,

A silent love we can't ignore.

Will we one day, in courage, find

The strength to speak what's on our mind?

Or will we wander, paths apart,

Forever hiding what's in our heart?

Perhaps one day, the truth will show,

In words unspoken, in the glow.

But for now, we play our part,

Two souls entwined, two hidden hearts.

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In your hands

I never told you, but I kept your shirt,

Admitting that would be accepting the hurt,

Instead I curl up with a head full of doubt,

With no idea how we can work this out,

We’ve been through a lot together, both good and bad,

But never once did I want to leave what we had,

It was never simple between you and me,

Yet it was something real, which anyone could see,

We stood together, hand in hand,

This was the best kind of chaos, completely unplanned,

In one another, we found a best friend,

The person we’d fight for until the end,

We faced every storm, braved any weather,

No matter what, we did it all together.

But then that all changed overnight,

It was sudden, a violent end to a long fight,

Yet I still sit and reread conversations of old,

There were times I was blunt, honest and bold,

The messages were raw, passion bleeding out,

Trying to heal, trying to erase any doubt,

Yet it wasn’t enough, this fight we couldn’t win,

After all, everything we’d done, you could argue was sin,

And that day in June we lost it all,

Everything fell apart, you were no longer my first call,

I had to work it out, I had to stand alone,

I faced my demons all on my own,

Yet I still look for you, in every crowded room,

Hoping you’d be there, knowing I lost you too soon,

And that was a pain I hid, pushed down deep inside,

I tell everyone I’m fine, even though they know I lied,

Because without you I’m lost, and falling apart,

Cause in your hands, you’ll always hold my heart.

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Say the word

If today you were to call to say you needed me,

Nothing else would matter, by your side I would be,

If I could hear your voice shake with unshed tears,

I’d rush to you, sit and comfort you through your fears,

If you needed someone to talk to, to hear you out,

I’d be there, no questions, hesitation or doubt,

I’d drop everything to be there, it wouldn’t take me too long,

Running to your side, to the place I belong,

If you were on the other side of the world, many miles apart,

I’d be sprinting to you, tears in my eyes and pain in my heart,

I’d be looking up flights before you hang up the phone,

Rushing to you, to the place that’s always been my home,

If the text sounded serious, if there was a hint of dread,

I’d call you back so fast, and listen to what needed to be said,

I’d really try not to get there too late,

Forgetting the fear, anger and hate,

If you sounded small, quiet, stressed or scared,

I’d be straight there, because for you I’ve always cared,

If you were falling apart and the overthinking had won,

Just say the word, and to you I’d always run.

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Unsent

This is a letter to you,

Written with hands bloody, black and blue,

See I got into a fight last night,

But don’t worry, I’m alright,

the one that I was fighting was me,

And the marks, you won’t be able to see,

The injuries are hidden behind a smile,

And I can keep up this facade for a while,

Because I won’t let you know the hurt I feel,

Even writing it down is making it real.

And this is a letter that I won’t send,

But if you find it, read it to the end,

Because I just feel like I’m falling apart,

Crumbling as I break my own heart,

And in pieces, torn and shattered,

You were the only thing that mattered,

I’d crawl to you, broken and bleeding,

In your arms, there’s a sense of healing,

I wouldn’t ask for help or demand your time,

I’ll just smile, laugh, and say that I’m fine,

I enjoyed every moment spent with you,

And the love I felt was always true.

And maybe someday, I'll find my way,

To heal, to mend, and seize a brighter day,

In time, the scars will fade from view,

love will heal the wounds that I hold true,

I’ll find my passion and spark again,

Moving on, leaving behind the pain.

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It’s been a year without you

And I don’t know where to start

So many things have happened, that have torn my world apart,

I’ve made some bad decisions, and lost friends along the way,

But I’ve learnt that true friends are the ones that see the darkness and still stay,

I’ve fallen in love, with someone who can never be mine,

And I think that was a distraction from the cruel hands of time,

Everyone grieves differently, we let go in our own way,

But you know, goodbye is the one word I’ve never been able to say

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Convincing myself I don’t love you is the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

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I hope....

I hope I cross your mind every once in a while, just so I don't feel so stupid for thinking about you all the time.

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Echoes of laughter

Walking through this house again,

The weight of the pain started to set in,

I dragged my feet from room to room,

And in familiar places, sadnesses looms,

The echo of laughter, now distant and faint,

Hangs in the air, like a sorrowful paint.

Memories etched in every wall,

Silent witnesses to rise and fall.

The kitchen where we shared our days,

Now stands in a melancholic haze.

Each corner whispers your name,

In a house that's never quite the same.

The living room, once full of cheer,

Now feels empty, stark, and severe.

Every step stirs up the dust,

Of broken dreams and misplaced trust.

Up the stairs, to the quiet hall,

Where pictures of us still adorn the wall.

Your smile captured in a frozen frame,

A stark reminder of joy and shame.

The bedroom door, slightly ajar,

Where once we dreamed under the same star.

Now the bed is cold and bare,

An abandoned relic of the love we shared.

Out in the garden, where flowers bloom,

Their vibrant colours juxtapose the gloom.

Nature’s beauty, a cruel contrast,

To the haunting shadows of the past.

And as I stand in this quiet, empty space,

I feel the tears begin to trace.

For this house holds more than walls and beams,

It's a keeper of our lost dreams.

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Unchanging tides

And suddenly you’re twenty-five and stood at your best friend’s wedding,

This wasn’t the direction you imagined your life heading,

You thought you had everything worked out,

The two of you were never going to part, that was never in doubt,

The pair of you were planning on travelling together,

After all- you were best friends forever.

She has a three year old daughter now,

And it’s like you’ve lost track of time somehow,

Yet you’ll smile, laugh, spin around in your new dress,

And even though she has a family now, she doesn’t love you any less,

As the night progresses, memories flood back,

The midnight talks, the spontaneous laughs, the unplanned track,

You stand beside her, pride shining in your eyes,

Witnessing her happiness under the moonlit skies.

The music plays, and you catch her glance,

A fleeting moment of your old dance,

For in her new chapter, you’ll always belong,

Even as life writes her a different song.

She whispers to you, amidst the celebration,

“I’m so glad you’re here, in every incarnation,”

And in that instant, you realize the truth,

Friendship’s not bound by time or youth.

For though the paths diverge, and dreams may shift,

The bond you share, no distance can rift,

So you hold her close, and make your own vow,

To cherish these moments, here and now.

And as the stars sparkle in the midnight blue,

You know, deep down, your bond is true.

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Shared reflections

I look across the room, her eyes meeting mine, 

A smile flickered across her lips as she pretended she was fine, 

I saw a lot of myself in her, both the bad and the good, 

And I hated to admit that scared me more than it should, 

Because behind the smile I could see the pain in her eyes, 

And it was something that I hated to recognize.

The weight of unspoken words hung in the air, 

A silent acknowledgment of the burdens we both bear, 

Her laughter rang out, but it lacked the joy it once had, 

A shadow of the girl who used to be so carefree, so glad.

In the quiet of the evening, our masks began to slip, 

Revealing scars and stories, the moments we trip, 

For in this mirrored reflection, I found my own soul, 

Wounded and weary, striving to be whole.

We sat in shared silence, understanding without speech, 

Two souls intertwined, each within the other’s reach. 

Through tear-filled confessions and whispered dreams, 

We wove a tapestry of hope, stitched with fragile seams, 

In her eyes, I saw a future not bound by past mistakes, 

A chance for healing, for mending what breaks.

Together we could face the shadows, the fears that haunt at night, 

For in this connection, we found strength, we found light. 

As siblings, we shared a bond forged by blood and tears, 

A history of love, laughter, and fears.

Our childhood memories, both bitter and sweet, 

Formed the foundation where our hearts meet. 

Through fights and forgiveness, we grew side by side, 

Two hearts beating as one, no longer needing to hide.

The road ahead is long, but we’ll walk it hand in hand, 

For in each other, we found the strength to stand. 

No longer just siblings, but friends forever more, 

Finding in each other the courage to soar.

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Crumbling Charade

I did such a good job holding everything together,

Yet I couldn’t maintain this charade forever,

I’d hide my tears in the water of the shower,

And I’d fight against time, hour after hour,

I’d cling to the past, never good at letting go,

Yet the pain was obvious, always on show,

And I’d never been one to walk away from a fight,

But this time, I ran in the middle of the night,

With broken knuckles and a broken heart,

I fled, tearing myself apart.

Through empty streets, shadows my only guide,

My steps echoed pain I could no longer hide,

I ran until my feet bled,

Yet I couldn’t outrun the pounding in my head,

With heaving lungs and a broken sigh, 

I collapsed under the moonlit sky,

Staring at the stars, so far and cold,

Each one a fragment of a story untold,

 The weight of regret pressing down,

In this silent, lonely town.

The night was a blanket, heavy and still,

Embracing me in its icy chill.

Tears clouding my vision, my soul laid bare,

I hated that I still care,

In the stillness, I find no rest,

Just shadows dancing on my chest.