sammy

16 he/him shameful tranny read my intro or smth idk

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intro post

name: sam/sammy

pronouns: he/him

age: 16 (June 9th 2010)

general info/warning: im trans and also currently questioning transmed (i believe you need dysphoria to pass, and that you should at least try to pass if you’re able to) and if you call me they/them ill shoot you

bonus info: i have EDS and im recovering from an ED so that might be brought up sometimes, ed edd and eddy amiright????

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interests: hannibal, jeff buckley, brokeback mtn, SLC punk, guitar, COD (im anti military though), moose, the pitt, cowboy bebop, heath ledger, inger lorre, and many more

dni: idrc but please dni if you post weird things abt minors, fictional or not i’d rather not have you follow me. same goes for gore blogs and ppl who are into animals, anything crazy graphic or radqueer adjacent i prefer to not see.

interact: transmeds, transmasc ppl or trans ppl in general, ppl with the same interests as me, just chill ppl overall

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slowly accepting teenage love isn’t possible for me since i’m 16, trans, fat, and annoying, all while living in a red state. also i refuse to online date, so this is a misery i chose but god i wish i could have somebody who loves me.

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went to the thrift, ignore the messy room i haven’t had the energy to clean lol

i think i pass decently in these, i love the last jacket a lot

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fit for the day, very mismatched but i’m lazy and it’s hot out

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i miss my cane, my mom doesn’t want me to have a mobility aid so i’m having my friend hide it at his house but i miss it so bad

it looks pretty badass tho as well so i also miss it for that reason

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the closest i got to feeling like a man is when i was getting put in handcuffs while “i want someone badly” by jeff buckley played in my ears

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“you bind incorrectly” yeah i have big tits and binding any other way makes them obvious, yeah it’s gonna cause damage yeah it’s not smart but i value being seen as a man more then my health.

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i hate how testosterone is seen as the evil body mutilating chemical, i want the t-dick bro, that isn’t mutilation or gross, that is just a penis. which is a normal thing to have. why do people find our bodies so disgusting after transition?

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my disability fills me with endless dysphoria, i can barely lift weights cause my shoulders dislocate, and my legs ache so badly after working and my job is just standing for a few hours and taking orders. no real man would be this weak bro

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yeah sure i can transition or whatever but ill never be able to jerk off and also cum with a penis so why should i live

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idk maybe ill understand once i transition more but i’ve known i’ve been trans for 6 years and i’ve been socially out for 3, but i’ve never really felt “trans joy” typically i just feel deeply ashamed of it no matter how hard i try.

it probably doesn’t help that im from a very red state, but i’ve never felt happy about being trans, hell im stealth on all my socials besides here, i just wanna be seen as a man instead of a trans man.

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fit i wore today, cant rlly tell if i pass or not in it, typically i don’t speak in public so i can pass more. i like talking but i’m teaching myself to be quieter