sammy

she/her m1a active since june 2024

[sammyl0ll]

about me (TW: E/D)

DNI IF IN RECOVERY

hellooo!! I'm sammy, i'm 15, my blog is mainly going to be about loosing weight + what i've been eating. i am very much PRO RECOVERY and HARM REDUCTION!! although i may not be in recovery atm i love and support anyone who is and maybe some day that person could be me! :D

i do struggle with 🤮 and 🪒🩸

i accept absolutely NO HATE on my page. I dont believe in bullying somebody just because of their weight, this includes both OVER and UNDERweight people so PLEASE keep the hate on your own page and not over here. <3

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weights + my height

H: 5'5

HW: 139 lb (63kg)

LW: 120 (54.4kg) (used to be 130/58.9kg)

SW: 135 (61.3kg)

CW: 120.0 lb (54.4kg) <- BMI: 19.4

GW1: 130 lb (58.9kg) ✅

GW2: 128 lb (58kg)✅

GW3: 125 lb (56.6kg) ✅

GW4: 123 lb (55.7kg) ✅

UGW: 120 lb (54.4kg) ✅

if i feel like i want to loose more after hitting 120 then i will update this

UPDATE: havent hit 120 but i want to add this lol + i wont be forcing myself to get to the UGW but i kinda want to see how i feel whenever i hit those goals yk?

🔓LEVEL 2 🔓

its going to be harder to get daily scale checks because my grandma found out i was checking the scale so i'll do my best with these updatess

CW: 110.0 ✅

GW1: 118 ✅

GW2: 115 ✅

GW3: 113 ✅

CGW: 110 ✅

🔓LEVEL 3🔓

bored asf so im making this now

CW: 100

GW1: 108 ✅

GW2: 105 ✅

GW3: 103 ✅

CGW: 100 ✅

🔓LEVEL 4🔓

JUST INCASEEE, THIS WILL BE THE LAST LEVEL!!

CW: 98

GW1: 98 ✅

GW2: 96

GW3: 94

GW4: 92

UGW: 90

[kissmebeforecourt]

[angela-lovesu]

like just leave me alone

[floridak1los0]

[blingedoubimbi]

[sammyl0ll]

whats a fun vacation without bringing my scale and purging all my food!!!

[sammyl0ll]

damn i barely post anymore :(

[casualstalkertempest]

I only use tumblr to fuel my €d. I don’t find use for it any other way.

[sammyl0ll]

im not even sure where my mind is at anymore. im such a fraud. im genuinely addicted to food its not even funny how addicted i am, my entire day is spent on binges and purges and i cannot even live a normal life at 15. im not even a vegetarian i just lied and told my parents i was one because i didnt want for them to cook for me anymore. I didnt even spend time with my grandma today for mothers day all i gave her was a stupid flower pot and i painted a lily bulbs. I cannot live this life i have nobody to talk to except for my therapist who i havent spoken to in 2 weeks bc of her medical issues. i feel like im going to fall off the edge over here. i cannot fathom living like this anymore i dont think id consider this a su**ide note but this actually might turn into one. im going to fail my biology class because im a fucking idiot. i have also been throwing up my SNRI meds which i dont mean to but it happens when i purge. idk why im putting so much shit on here i just havent been able to talk to anybody.

[sammyl0ll]

nvm i just started my period

[sammyl0ll]

im not even sure where my mind is at anymore. im such a fraud. im genuinely addicted to food its not even funny how addicted i am, my entire day is spent on binges and purges and i cannot even live a normal life at 15. im not even a vegetarian i just lied and told my parents i was one because i didnt want for them to cook for me anymore. I didnt even spend time with my grandma today for mothers day all i gave her was a stupid flower pot and i painted a lily bulbs. I cannot live this life i have nobody to talk to except for my therapist who i havent spoken to in 2 weeks bc of her medical issues. i feel like im going to fall off the edge over here. i cannot fathom living like this anymore i dont think id consider this a su**ide note but this actually might turn into one. im going to fail my biology class because im a fucking idiot. i have also been throwing up my SNRI meds which i dont mean to but it happens when i purge. idk why im putting so much shit on here i just havent been able to talk to anybody.

[st4rvemyangel]

Long fasts you can almost romanticize into a fun little challenge

Eating 500 cals a day feels like medieval torture

[sammyl0ll]

hi guys. i am waking up at 102 pounds. not manifestation just facts.

no ifs

[sammyl0ll]

please whoever is out there in the universe please let me drop these 4 pounds before school starts

[rott1ingbonep1le]

[tor1rex1a]

I was ran over by a car, help me find my mutuals?

[sammyl0ll]

i just wanna be 100 pounds before school starts :(

[sammyl0ll]

im actually going to cry, im so ashamed of how much weight ive gained like im geniunely a failure. i tried semi recovery bc i start running cross country but i just hate myself. ive gained too much and i need to get back to 105 pounds

[sammyl0ll]

3 MORE POUNDS TO GO TIL IM BACK TO PEAKKK!!!

then it will be 10 pounds left to loose.

[sammyl0ll]

oh freaks yes

[zx-saturn]

Take me back to my lw. Pls. I didn't mean it when I said I was fat. Pls.