CHAPTER XXI

21 | Tahitian Dancer | College Student

[sammyxjr]

I’m trying and trying.

..... Nothing is still working. I’m hurting so bad right now.

[sammyxjr]

I just noticed..

Sometimes, you don’t seem concerned about me as much as you used to.

[sammyxjr]

I’m just so confused.

I just don’t get it. I don’t know how to feel. Everything just seems that it happened too fast that we didn’t have enough time to elaborate on everything before actually just saying and doing. No one has any idea on how bad I’ve been hurting lately and there’s not much I can do about it besides me just moving on from this point... Goodnight.

[sammyxjr]

I’m starting to lose it.

The more I do, the more heartbroken I’m starting to feel.

[sammyxjr]

I miss you... I miss us the most.

[sammyxjr]

I don’t think I’m happy....

I’ve been feeling so lost lately and all I’m trying to do is find myself again. I feel that everything I do isn’t enough and I literally put my all into people I love and the things I do. I don’t feel important anymore and I’m just trying to catch my breath at this point.

[sammyxjr]

My Bestfriend, Joshua M. Dasalla.

[sammyxjr]

My note to self.

Sammy, sometimes you gotta stop overthinking.. Okay?

[sammyxjr]

Your favorite Dutch Bro’s Stockton Broista.

[sammyxjr]

The two who I’ve spent literally almost everyday with for Summer 2017. I’m so thankful that God has blessed me with these two. Joshua and Rachelle, I owe you the world and more. Whenever I started to land in my darkest days, you guys easily knew how to pick me up before it got even darker. When I’m with you two, life just feels so bright. Friends, forever, I promise. <3

[sammyxjr]

I can show you better than I can tell you.

[sammyxjr]

I miss my Bestfriend..

[sammyxjr]

<3

[sammyxjr]

Some friendships aren’t meant to last.

For what I’ve went through recently with 3 individuals who I once trusted with my life and considered my closest friends, my trust issues are at an all time high now. Once I open up to you and give you the title as a close friend, I have high expectations. The fact that those 3 people ruined it, all I can say is... FUCK YOU!

[sammyxjr]

Dutch Bro’s Stockton Broista’s! Some are missing though.

[sammyxjr]

[sammyxjr]

The healing process is real.