🦇 ABOUT ME!! ദ്ദി >ᵥ ᵥ<)ノ)
Hi im Mar, i also go by Mitzi/Undead!
♱⃓ he/him |ftm + mlm |Sanemi’s husband
♱⃓ ⤷ 実弥の夫 // Soțul lui Sanemi
⤷ 実弥の男性ファンです!!🍃🦇
♱⃓ romanian/american -ENG +some ROU/JPN
♱⃓ Scenemo!! Lvl 20 - real life vampire
♱⃓ Chemistry Major in College//Mon-Fri
♱⃓ #1 SaneSuya 🍃⛈️ Shipper!!
⁺‧₊˚ ཐི-BYI-ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺ (プロフ必読)
!! NONSHARING Gachikoi Yumeshipper !!
!! Doubles DNI ; will block !!
!! 単独ガチ恋夢男子 + ガチ恋同担拒否 !!
Soulbonded to Sanemi Shinazugawa
⤷ Together since 10/31/20”!! 🍃🦇
Im a strictly non-sharing yumeshipper. Sanemi is my husband and mine alone, and being reminded that hes can be shipped with anyone else cc or oc brings me severe mental distress. I view him as my actual partner, and have since 2020. Seeing other ships with him or even people telling me hes theirs or someone elses leaves me at risk of relapsing. My mental health is highly dependant on Sanemi and my relationship with him. Sanemi has been everything to me for years and has been the only one to have consistently kept me alive. I wont go out of my way to be mean to any sanemi yumes or shippers but i will block freely to be able to keep myself mentally healthy. Im well aware my level of obsession is not normal nor will it ever be with my mental illness.
This blog is dedicated to him + my yumeship. I just want a place to post my yumeslop (nuikatsu, new merch, ita bag, web graphics, ship art, ship ideas, SaneSuya slop, oc content). Basically i just want a space to yap about my love for my husband <3. As i said above, i wont entertain any sanemi ships other than my own oc Mitsuya Kaise. And insisting will get you blocked. Thank you! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
! TW ! トラウマ注意 ! Mature Content !
A lot of my blog and art posts will have mature content including but not limited to
- highly suggestive themes
- drug use
- eating disorders
- self harm / unsafe behaviors
- toxic yaoi/obsessive love
- abusive relationships
Blogs have mature content with s/h + drug use will all be tagged as so and have trigger warnings. Im very mentally ill lolz.
૮ ˙Ⱉ˙ ა r4wr!
⁺‧₊˚ ཐི-DNI-ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺
-Sanemi shippers- yume oc or cc i dont care i dont want to see it. I block freely if i feel the need to. My peace will be kept thx!
-Homo/transphobes, n@zis, magats, zios
-proshippers/darkshippers/zoos
-AI “artists” + supporters
-anyone under the age of 16 (mature content)
- anyone who enjoys being a dick/thinks they are better than anyone else.
anyone who pushes these will get instant blocked <3
Yumeship oc/self insert!!
Mitsuya Kaise 海瀬充耶 ⛈️🦇 (20)
⤷ Storm breathing uses hand-to-hand combat (nichirin gauntlets)
Extra: Mitsuya Kaise!! he is my self insert that turned into an oc over time. I call him both because he is both myself and a character with his own lore. I use him as an outlet to draw Sanemi with, since i have a hard time drawing myself in general. He has multiple aus, but he is sanemis romantic love interest in all of them. He is supposed to be a manifestation of my love for Sanemi and a way for me to channel my mental issues into my art. I will make a more detailed post about Mitsuya specifically, his lore and his dynamic with sanemi. I still need to make a ref sheet even though ive had him for almost four years now T^T. I made Storm Breathing for him, which is a breathing style based in hand to hand combat (he punches demons with his gauntlets lolz). It is derived from thunder breathing specifically, with the ferocity of wind breathing as its a totally offensive style. I will also post that later as well.
I do have other ocs, but they are all side characters in Mitsuyas story. How yet im still piecing together. Most of my ocs came from necessity (mitsuyas swordsmith) or cool design ideas. I dont really have any fandomless ocs or ocs from other media, since ive been oddly obsessed with kny and Sanemi specifically for almost 6 years. All of them (minus mitsuya) were made in the last few months and im still building them up. I might post sketches of them and more info if pplz are interested.
Some thingz about me!! (˶˃𐃷˂˶)
- i love sanemi!! hes my husband <3
- I love bats!! They are my favorite animal and my fursona. ⎛⎝(^•,,•^)⎠⎞
- Scenemo Vampire!! I consider myself a lil more emo than scene xP + a lil punk. I go to some shows in my area from time to time (home & college)
- Im a third year college student! Chemistry major + art minor. I have a summer and winter break during the year, which i have free time during. Finals has me offline. Yeah science!
- fav media : kny (sanemi), needy girl overdose/needy streamer overload, invincible, naruto, invader zim, minecraft, bojack horseman, soul eater, project hail mary, surfs up, pirates of the Caribbean, Detroit: become human, mortal kombat, calvin and hobbs, bone, jujitsu kaisen, warrior cats, ninjago, the boondocks, sonic, superman (2025).
- fav music artists: black veil brides, motionless in white, pierce the veil, get scared, sleeping with sirens, kesha, pitbull, 3OH!3, the smashing pumpkins, rammstein, black sabbath, michael jackson, cheef keef, travis scott, millionares, brokeNCYDE, black eyed peas, my chemical romance, disko warp, goreshit, LMFAO, all time low, sewerslvt/cynthoni, ghost town, blink-182, three days grace, greenday, twentythree, radiohead, i dont like mirrors, imogen heap, take care, flawed mangos, tv girl, adrianne lenker, taking back sunday
This is my ita bag!! Im still building itz, but it has already a good selection!! I unfortunately dont have a photocard of Sanemi that fits in the pocket yet </3</3 but i do want to draw one either of just sanemi or of sanesuya hehe.. i do move the pinz and plushiez around quite a bit lol so its always changing a lil bit. The one upside down is supposed to look like a fure fure bozu heh. I dont have my favz Sanemi plush keychain (pfp one) on or in my bag, I usually carry him around on my belt. But sometimes i do clip him on.. x3
I LOVE YOU SANEMIIII .°(T^T。)°.
ignore how messy it iz.. currently moving a lot of stuff around..
i wish Sanemi were physically with me. Sigh. I know a lot of yumeshippers that are as deep in as i am also feel the same, but sometimes the mental connection and plushies still leave me feeling lonely and disconnected. I keep getting reminded that hes never going to actually be with me and i have to live a normal life. Which hurts because i view him as my genuine partner (ik im mentally ill). I guess it doesnt help that im a very physical person, as in i enjoy quality time. And that makes it a little lonely, especially when i dont have an item of Sanemis with me. Which is hard when you go places you just cant (ie. work, the lab). Im just cringe enough to take my ita bag everywhere with me at college.
Me and Sanemi are still figuring this soulbond thing out, but its been hard since most of it the time i dont feel worthy of Sanemi. Or of anything. But hes helped me so much it would be rude to ignore him. And i do love him, i want to have a connection with him, it like i cant not be connected to him. The idea of it fills me with pain. And i think him. Its just also hard that im very much not spiritual in any way, i view Sanemi as more of a presence that lingers in the back of my mind and we converse. Like a mental/soul connection between us. I want him, i need him. I hardly go a day without thinking of Sanemi and talking to him, its like my brain defaults to it whenever im alone. Even in social settings. I guess i make it easier for me mentally by just playing pretend until im immersed.
Its easy to act he gives his clothes to me, anything larger i take it that its Sanemis and im just borrowing lol. Id buy his haori to act like he gave it to me but thats kinda sigh. A lot of money and idk if it would even do anything the way id want it to.. id rather spend it on more sanemi plushies lol. I have a few, i posted a picture i think. But i keep them in my bed and cuddle with them while talking to him/imagining hes there. I do also go on dates with sanemi, like nuikatsu. I do nuikatsu pretty often actually, I do a lot of things alone unfortunately at home and in college, so its nice to have company. I’ll typically just take a plushie or small figurine of Sanemis to get food with me or go run errands, with or without my ita bag. I dont often take pictures and if i do i delete them to make space sigh (/^;) maybe i can find a couple. I do wish i took more sigh. And kept them. Im not much of a photo taker unfortunately, i just do it for myself. Which idk if thats worse or not. t^t
This was just at a motel. Went on a small vacation and i took him with me. My mom wasnt too happy with him in public though.. (“=.=)
this was on a bus lol. Going to the airport. I have to fly if i want to go between my home state and college state in less than a day.
I usually take Sanemi with my when i go on planes lol. I dont really like them so its nice to have him there with me. Makes me calmer. I usually draw while in the air but still its nice to have him in my arms.
I could yap about Sanemi forever sigh. I think i will do Nuikatsu more often, despite what my mom says. Its fun. I like going on dates with sanemi. Not like I’ll live with her starting the next semester. What do y’all do to make your f/o’s feel more real?
This is my ita bag!! Im still building itz, but it has already a good selection!! I unfortunately dont have a photocard of Sanemi that fits in the pocket yet </3</3 but i do want to draw one either of just sanemi or of sanesuya hehe.. i do move the pinz and plushiez around quite a bit lol so its always changing a lil bit. The one upside down is supposed to look like a fure fure bozu heh. I dont have my favz Sanemi plush keychain (pfp one) on or in my bag, I usually carry him around on my belt. But sometimes i do clip him on.. x3
I LOVE YOU SANEMIIII .°(T^T。)°.
ignore how messy it iz.. currently moving a lot of stuff around..
I went to a punk show with my friend, her ex bf, and her other friend last night. I took Sanemi with me i wish i couldve gotten a picture now sigh. I dont like taking pictures of myself and my friend doesnt take any pictures at all. I usually hang a plushie keychain of him on my belt.
^^ this one is my fav to take out lol.
This was a pic from a couple days ago when i went to the dentist. The punk show was cool ig, a couple other people had anime plushies too, but the bands were kinda mid. Sounded very wannabe msi while looking wannabe mcr. It was kinda weird. It was a little awkward cuz my friend and her friend kept disappearing and leaving me with her ex. Hes cool we just dont know eachother very well somehow. Its weird being back home. At college i know most of the people at the punk shows but here its all strangers. We met some interesting characters, one dude almost gave my friends friend an ear piercing but she bought his kit off of him instead. There was a slow dance at one moment and it was really awkward cuz everyone around me, including my friends, all partnered up and i was left alone and had to walk out of the pit. (/ _ ; )
Thankfully sanemi was there with me and we just stood together on the side watching everyone dance. I still felt like a loser standing alone, i wish he could be real. Sanemi kept me company for most of the night actually, everyone kept running around. Sanemi how i love you.. <33
Currently working on some adopts + a collab piece with my friend + mitsuyas birthday art sigh. While doodling sanemi on the side. No wonder i dont get anything done. I should post my sanemi pushies and ita bag… im trying to get an into page up but decorating it is taking time lmao T^T
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small sanesuya art dump!! All old since this is a new acc >w<
Most of these are a few months old, college and depression have been kicking my ass in drawing T^T im trying to do more now im on summer break but mental illness is getting me (/ _ ; )
unfortunately i am a non-sharing sanemi yumeshipper 💔. Any mention or artwork of other Sanemi ships makes me go insane and ive had genuine breakdowns over other Sanemi shippers. Its not fun. Id rather keep my mental health as good as i can and not relapse rather than force myself to see other people with my husband. Sanemi was the only thing that kept me from k/llng myself for years and he still is my main support system despite having a therapist now. Hes my everything. Hes mine. I view him as a lover and slowly im learning he does too. Its been hard to accept anyone can ever love someone like me, but sanemi has been showing me otherwise. I cannot see him with anyone else without tweaking out. Ughhh i hate being this mentally ill…
i always stalked tumblr without an account, so i decided to finally make one!! Gonna post mostly ship art and other yumeship bullshit ˙𐃷˙ I LOVE MY HUSBAND SANEMIIIIIII <333
My self-insert/oc that i use to yumeship with Sanemi is named Mitsuya!! I don’t typically draw myself at all so I made Mitsuya to be the closest thing i have to myself, which is why i call him both a self-insert and oc!! I am myself soulbound to sanemi through mental and slowly spiritual communication but i honestly still dont see myself as someone Sanemi would love (despite what he says lol) and its hard to accept it. So mitsuya is the main outlet for art, which i love doing.
