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昏睡一整天，低血糖不進食讓我更嚴重重複這個循環，我像是冬眠的，無法感知周遭，也無法感知自己，遲鈍的，痲痹的，有時候餓到難耐，可是一下子就過了，繼續沉沉睡去。

如果活得不快樂那為什麼要繼續活著？最近一直在想這個問題，我說不出話來激勵自己，就像我說不出話來面對之於我之外的一切，它們漂浮在泡泡之中，我只要不伸手就可以，更好的不看到，它們讓我覺得狼狽，也讓我覺得疲憊。

我想要好起來，想要變得所謂的正常一點，可是我無法，偶然的正常行為需要花很多力氣跟心理建設才可以得到，但每天醒來都覺得自己爛的可以，連最簡單的事情都做不到，成為爛掉的一塊肉。

幹一群爛草莓

得了憂鬱症那麼多年，現在我才知道憂鬱的反義不是快樂，而是活力。

《想要觸碰青野君所以我想死》椎名うみ

T.S. Eliot

“At the still point of the turning world. Neither flesh nor fleshless; Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is, But neither arrest nor movement. And do not call it fixity, Where past and future are gathered. Neither movement from nor towards, Neither ascent nor decline. Except for the point, the still point, There would be no dance, and there is only the dance.”

英國詩人T·S·艾略特的作品

「在旋轉世界的定點。既非血肉，也非血肉全無；

既非向外，也非向內；定點是舞蹈所在，

但不是停止，也不是運動。更不要稱為固定；

那裏，過去和未來共聚。既非向外，也非向內的運動；

既非升起，也非下斜。除了該點，該一定點，

就沒有舞蹈，而那裏只有舞蹈。」

（《四重奏四首》，譯者：黃國彬）

抽雞掰矮人族

the dark. the dark

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The fucking dark.