Noxah

[sanzinoa]

♥ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ ιηтяσ ρσѕт ﮩﮩـ٨ﮩﮩـ٨ﮩ♥

First things first, I enjoy spamming people, so if you've been spammed by me, it's normal for me, do not feel any compulsion to spam me back, I don't expect it.

ⲯ﹍︿﹍︿﹍ 𝙷𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚏𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚜 𝙽𝚘𝚡, 𝙽𝚘𝚡𝚊𝚑 𝚘𝚛 𝚂𝚊𝚣(𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚜), 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚒 𝚓𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚛 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚝 𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚠𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚓𝚒𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚓𝚘𝚒𝚗 𝚒𝚝.

𝙸 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚝𝚜 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 ^_^ ﹍ⲯ﹍ⲯ﹍︿﹍☼

𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚟𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚒 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚝.

Pronouns : Any is fine, but it would be damn sweet if you used he/him :3 js sayin'

ⲯ﹍︿﹍︿﹍ 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚍 𝚍𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝙰𝙳𝙷𝙳, 𝙱𝙿𝙳 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚜𝚞𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚊𝚕 𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗. 𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝟷𝟾 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚋𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚡𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚘𝚛 𝚗𝚜𝚏𝚠 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚞𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚑𝚢𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚡𝚞𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝚊𝚜 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕. ﹍ⲯ﹍ⲯ﹍︿﹍☼

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Top Graphic by @/saikacho

[sanzinoa]

Everynight before I sleep I pray to god that don't let me wake up tomorrow but that is too peaceful and end for someone as horrible as me

[sanzinoa]

Every 2 days I plan my suicide and 2 hours later I chicken out because someone shows the most basic levels of kindness (the same people will say the cruelest stuff later but atleast they're being kind in this moment)

I am tired of this.

[sanzinoa]

It's gotten so bad I almost relapsed

[sanzinoa]

Stop telling me to be happy or else ill become sad you mf. If I manage to find a 100% foolproof way to kms I won't be alive the next day. I'm beyond the point of sadness and I don't have anything that emotionally anchors me to this life , only the fear of failure and living with the shame that comes with it.

[im-afra1d-im-r0tten]

I'm a fucking pervert I went out to run some errands and I saw sweating boys coming out of basketball/volleyball practice I didnt even look at them bc im not a creep ok but YOU CANNOT IMAGINE THE SMILE ON MY FACE

Smilling from ear to ear honestly 10/10 hope it happends again 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[sanzinoa]

I am forcing myself to let go of my art perfectionism and instead learn how to do more casual drawings, drop in a character (cartoon, anime, game) you wanna see drawn, I'll try to do my best and @ you

[sanzinoa]

@sleepymeowzidol

I tried my best :( I drew in a simple anime style after so long, it felt nice :3

[pr3ttyr0ses]

I need to run to the mountains where there’s snow.

[sanzinoa]

I am finally going to the doc tmrw for my skin!!!!

[sanzinoa]

Bonjr to the banner making side of jiraiblr

I wanna change my theme to tighnari... Like... Yk jirai-nari and want banners pfps and dividers to match too, but I don't wanna impose on anyone and make them do the work for me, id also prefer to use something I made myself, is there any tutorial I can get from YouTube?

[sanzinoa]

My child 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

[sanzinoa]

The one positive thing I would say about the past few years was it taught me empathy and to be humble 😭 and also knocked down my ego by a few pegs

[sanzinoa]

My face card serves so well, sometimes I am tempted to dox myself

[sanzinoa]

I wanna post something let me just uhhhhhhh *goes through my entire gallery*

[sanzinoa]

I am forcing myself to let go of my art perfectionism and instead learn how to do more casual drawings, drop in a character (cartoon, anime, game) you wanna see drawn, I'll try to do my best and @ you

[sanzinoa]

hey i’ve noticed that you aren’t feeling good. god that may be an understement. i’m so sorry for all the shit that is happening to you right now. i’m so sorry that the people that are supposed to be there for you aren’t. i’m so sorry that you can’t stand being alive. i know i don’t understand the full extent of your problems, but i think you need help. there are plenty of services online that can assist you, you can talk, vent, work out solutions and other things. these people will want to help you. even if that seems intimidating, i would recommend joining the suicide prevention community here on tumblr. i joined for a short period of time when i was also feeling very suicidal, and the pure encouragement and support i got there was part of how i got through. the people there may not be going through exactly your situation, but they will be in similar places mentally. i guess what i’m trying to say is that you can get through this. just remember how you’ll be able to show the people who have hurt you how much better you are without them. show them how shitty they are.

your blog is really interesting and super cool, and even though i dont actually know you i think you are a strong person. i love checking your blog for updates, and seeing your thoughts or even just knowing a side of you. you are amazing and super strong, and you can get through this.

if this wasn’t helpful or you just don’t need it, you can go ahead and delete this ask, but please, please remember that you have someone who is vouching for you.

oh god, I am genuinely so touched rn 😭 thank you so much, I read the entire thing and I feel a whole lot better now, thank you so much 😭

I will look into the community,maybe all hope isn't lost, who knows

As for online resources, I don't think I can access them as freely without being checked by my parents but I will look further into it

[sanzinoa]

I wanna be popular so bad and get attention but my presence is irregular and my personality is dogshit