things i think my 15 year old self would be proud of me for:
living in a cool apartment with cool people and posters on the walls in my twenties
being able to leave the house without throwing up and having a panic attack
not only being able to go out clubbing, but actually ENJOYING it
still listening to niche music and going to €15 gigs with less than 250 ppl there
having a coed friend group
actually having super cool friends i can be 100% myself around
having my own money to spend on whatever i like
no longer being a virgin lmfao
throwing a jepic house party and loving it
lowkirkenuinely having and participating in a sex party
things i think my fifteen year old self would be disappointed in me for:
having a boyfriend (yeah no longer a lesbian, soz pipsqueak)
still not understanding neopronouns lol*
pretending not to notice the increasingly nb feelings i'm having
listening to "normie music" like tyler the creator lmao
still not being able to make myself finish (wtv, i'm working on it - at least i can come at all lol)
weed not agreeing with me bc for some reason i was convinced i was destined to be a massive stoner???
ditching the big eyeliner and doing makeup semi-regularly
wearing dresses on occasion
being too much of a wimp to face therapy even though i lowk need it way more now than i did then
not staying friends with more than 3 people from secondary school
not travelling as much as i'd planned (bro i'm so broke pls)
not actually being into super crazy kinky stuff
no longer working in a bookshop even though i way prefer my job now #manicpixiedreamgirl ;P
shedding that whole loud and proud thing, not everyone needs to know how gay i am or whatever
not pursuing legal action against that one creep and choosing to let myself live and move on
weird to look back on myself and see how i've changed, i think honestly i'm the same me just a little older and more socially adept.. some things probably need revisiting though. not ready to let that tv glow iykwim. anyway.
*i will respect neopronouns on ppl ofc i just still haven't wrapped my head around it - anyone willing to help me out will be forever cherished lmfao