𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘵.

sapphire nevada bryant ; michigan born and raised. school psychologist, artist & car racer. 🌺 🌺 🌺 i'm feeling scared and you know it. I drive fast, wind in my hair; I push you to the limits 'cause I just don't care. I've got a burning desire.

[mothershroom-deactivated2021031]

Zoë Kravitz for YSL

[sapphirebryant]

* VESTA TASK #008 _ SAF’S APARTMENT *

located in this historic district, sapphire’s apartment went through quite a few makeovers ever since she moved in. it started as an empty place to crash in between lectures anmd became a melting pot of instagram and pinterest decor. right in between these two extremes lies her grunge phase where everything was black, plum and navy blue. it felt as stuffy as a questionable bar during midterms. the thought of moving out has never even crossed her mind, especially now that she outgrew her need to party every night and is becoming more of an adult than a pale excuse of a social butterfly. she loves the district and it helps that both her campus and her workplace are only a couple of minutes away. not only is she saving on the speeding fines from the police, but she also likes to feel young by discovering all the new hipster spots.

located on the first floor of the small industrial building, the apartment is complete. there are five rooms, including a complete bathroom with washing and drying machines. she first found it on accident. she was looking out to rent a room, since she could not afford on-campus studios or anything else at that time. after a semester, the original owner dropped out of school and gave the keys to a very happy saf. after sharing her entire life with someone else, her twin brother, she was looking forward to living absolutely lone. she did not know at the time she was less antisocial than she imagined, but that alone is a different story.

when you first walk in, you are greeted by a small dining table that, more often than not, works as an office to study student cases from work or to write her thesis. there are note pads, sheets of paper and books absolutely everywhere. behind the table, instead of stocking fancy plates and other dishes, sapphire keeps her collection of stationery messily organized in various bins. the kitchen is perfect for someone who does not cook anything else than grilled cheese and cereal bowls or, when she truly feels fancy, a salad. the bathroom is also located nearby and, currently, it might be the only room that seems in order. if you dare to look through the cabinet under the sink, you will find a myriad of bathbombs, salts and bubbles to insure a relaxing bath after an exhausting day of meetings and of analysis.

the rest of apartment is much more interesting. first of all, the living room is cozy and comfortable. a guitar is hanging on the wall, remembering sapphire of that promise she made to herself to actually learn how to play it. the shelves hold several psychology books as well as dvd’s by the dozen. the range goes from mean girls and legally blonde to psychological thrillers such as prisoners and ex machina. movie marathons are always unpredictable in the bryant household. right next to the living room you can find saf’s second favorite place on earth (right after her father’s garage): her studio. it was supposed to be a serious office to stimulate productivity and inspiration, but it soon became cluttered with random knicknacks she finds in thrift stores and art supplies on sale from michaels.  her completed paintings and art pieces are hidden behind a makeshift curtain in the wardrobe while the rest of the room is exposing her collection of works in progress. she also has a record player, a housewarming gift from her dad, where david bowie, britney spears, heart, florence + the machine, ozzy osbourne and lady gaga meet for one eclectic creative spree at 3 am.

at last, but certainly not least, there is her bedroom. it works as a three in one: a bed, a walk-in closet and a fashion runway. instead of that one chair where already worn clothes wait for a second chance to shine, she has one of those retro car seat couches that jett and she built together.  she does not own many clothes, but they sure do pile up on that poor rack that is holding on for dear life. on her mirror, you can always find necklaces hanging or lipstick kiss marks for aesthetic purposes and not because she was feeling herself and thinking she lived in a lana del rey music video.

there are plants and art pieces absolutely everywhere. whether it’s a succulent or a dead basil pot, whether it’s an art work she is proud of or a weird sculpture she bought from a lady when she was drunk beyond belief and thought it looked better than all the greek statues combined. do not be fooled: her apartment has no coherent theme and is absolutely messy. in fact, it represents her state of mind. from the outside, everything seems to be under control, but inside, it is a tornado of thoughts, doodles, song lyrics, car paint fumes and unresolved psychological issues.

in brief, she is joana ceddia’s soulsister except she does not only change her room decor: she strips the apartment naked every six months and always changes its looks because she’s never satisfied (she also uses the walls as canvas, but don’t tell the landlords).

[beatum]

Booksmart (2019) dir. Olivia Wilde.

[firstfullmoon]

The role of the artist is exactly the same as the role of the lover. If I love you, I have to make you conscious of the things you don’t see.

James Baldwin, from “The Black Scholar Interviews James Baldwin,” in Conversations with James Baldwin

[sapphirebryant]

TEXT Saf & Cute Einstein 💬

Saskia: Listen to anything by Hozier. Hozier's songs are relaxing.

Saskia: Which makes me think, I haven't heard you sing! I want to hear you singgggg. ♥

SAF: NOTED. Hozier better transport me into an ethereal world or else I'm sueing.

SAF: There's a reason why you have not heard me sing. I don't sing. But I could be talked into it for you...

SAF: Do you want an exclusive cover of Baby Shark?

[sapphirebryant]

Meteor: What’s something you wish you could tell, but can’t?

I wish I could tell the pale excuse of a mother that gave birth to me how crappy she was. Really, she was just on another level of bad parenting. Oh, and I’d like to tell Sas she looks really good when she’s being all nerdy and shit. That’s a secret, though.

[sapphirebryant]

Pinwheel Galaxy: Would you date the last person you talked to? Sombrero Galaxy: Do you have a crush right now?

( Pinwheel Galaxy was already answered here! )

What do you think? I can bet you have enough braincells to put two and two together. I got faith in you!

[sapphirebryant]

Sirius: Have you ever failed a class?; Cigar Galaxy: How’s your flirting skills?

Sirius

Absolutely never. Never have and never plan on failing one. Do you understand why performance anxiety is such a cool thesis topic now? It hits home.

Cigar Galaxy

I mean... They’re not that terrible. I ‘m not actively trying to improve them, though, so I’m fine if my bad pick-up lines manage to pick one very specific person.

[sapphirebryant]

Arcturus: Have you cried out of something other than sadness?

( this was already answered here! i can’t think of something else to reply with, i’m so sorry! )

[sapphirebryant]

Bellatrix: Have you ever been forced to lie/keep a secret?

Keeping secrets is kind of like... My whole career, y’know? Although I’m not forced to keep secrets, that’s just what I have to do. I can go around telling what my patients did, but what’s the point? If their lives or the lives of others are not at risk, I do not have the authority to share their confessions. Unless I feel like teachers or parents should start to worry, but even then... There’s a limit I need to respect. Anyway. I had to lie countless times to save my brother’s ass, so I don’t even care anymore. Every single day I’m forcing myself to lie about my feelings for Sas and I’m not dead yet, it’s not that terrible.

[sapphirebryant]

Moon, Libra, Sunflower Galaxy & Quasar

Moon: What are you currently studying/hope to study? 

Psychology. Do I not look like your typical psychology major? Please, don’t answer that. I would love to go back to school eventually, learn more about special education so I could be even more helpful if I decide to stick working in schools for a while. My thesis is on performance anxiety at school and its impact on children and teenagers. It’s very interesting, ask Saskia.

Libra: Favourite colour? 

Bubblegum pink. The more obnoxious the better.

Sunflower Galaxy: Would you date/make friends with someone out of pity? 

If you date somebody out of pity, you’re clearly seeking for validation and admiration for your so-called good intentions and empathy while in fact you’re just playing with someone’s emotions and that, my dudes, is trash. I wouldn’t date out of pity, what the hell? Date somebody because you love them, you idiot. As for being friends... You may call this pity, I call it empathy. It costs absolutely nothing to approach someone who’s lonely and become friends with them, making their day ten times better. Empathy is cool, you should try it.

Quasar: If you could spend the rest of your life with only one person, who would it be? 

My brother. He’s my favorite person on this goddamn planet.

[sapphirebryant]

Canopus !

Canopus: Have you ever broken a bone?

I leave all of that to my brother. He broke his ankle, his rib, his wrist, his arm... I lost count. Jett’s a pro at that. I guess that’s how we decided to split things up when we were chilling in the womb. It’s a twin thing. He was going to be fragile, and I could bike my way through the backyard fence every day for ten years and only get a tiny scratch. Maybe my bones are made of metal, maybe I’m Wolverine, maybe it’s Maybelline.

[sapphirebryant]

Arcturus: Have you cried out of something other than sadness?

You’re telling me people don’t use crying as a coping mechanism to everything? Why punch a wall when you’re angry when you can cry your feelings out, y’know? Life changing. Grow the fuck up. Crying doesn’t make you weak, it makes you strong for expressing your vulnerability and your emotions. Cat eye liner is overrated anyway, we would benefit a lot as a society if we accepted the whole depressed raccoon look as a new beauty standard.

[sapphirebryant]

Pinwheel Galaxy

Pinwheel Galaxy: Would you date the last person you talked to? 

Who would not date her? That’s the real question. She’s like... Man, she’s the real deal. I’m trying to keep it lowkey, y’know, subtle and all that shit. If she hears the butterflies in my stomach squealing whenever she’s near, she could get scared. I’m a lost cause, you don’t need to tell me.

[sentencestarters-and-asks]

Send a space thing for questions

Planets: Life

Mercury: What’s your full name? 

Venus: What’s your first language? 

Earth: Where’s your home? 

Mars: What’s your sexuality? 

Jupiter: Do you have any siblings? 

Saturn: Any pets? 

Uranus: What’s your hobby? 

Neptune: When’s your birthday? 

Pluto: What time is it right now where you are? 

Moon: What are you currently studying/hope to study? 

Stars: Experiences

Sun: Have you ever had alcohol? 

Sirius: Have you ever failed a class? 

Rigel: Have you ever gone on a rollercoaster? 

Deneb: Have you ever been out of your home country? 

Arcturus: Have you cried out of something other than sadness? 

Betelgeuse: What’s something you can never forget about? 

Aldebaran: What’s something you care desperately about? 

Canopus: Have you ever broken a bone? 

Bellatrix: Have you ever been forced to lie/keep a secret? 

Alphard: Have you ever lost a friend?

Vega: What’s something you’ve done that you wish you hadn’t? 

Constellations: Favourites

Centaurus: Favourite holiday?

Orion: Favourite month?

Cassiopeia: Favourite book?

Delphinus: Favourite study?

Hercules: Favourite instrument?

Gemini: Favourite song?

Pegasus: Favourite place to be?

Libra: Favourite colour? 

Phoenix: Favourite thing to wear?

Aries: Favourite movie? 

Cygnus: Favourite weather? 

Hydra: Favourite sound? 

Galaxies: Love/Friends  

Milky Way: Who’s your oldest friend?  

Andromeda: Do you consider yourself social? 

Black Eye Galaxy: Do you believe in love at first sight? 

Cartwheel Galaxy: When was your first kiss? 

Cigar Galaxy: How’s your flirting skills? 

Comet Galaxy: Have you ever had to leave a relationship because someone changed too much? 

Pinwheel Galaxy: Would you date the last person you talked to? 

Sombrero Galaxy: Do you have a crush right now? 

Bode’s Galaxy: Have you ever had a secret admirer? 

Sunflower Galaxy: Would you date/make friends with someone out of pity? 

Tadpole Galaxy: Would you deny a relationship/friendship? 

Whirlpool Galaxy: Have you ever cried over a breakup? 

Other stuff: Wishes 

Comet: What’s your big dream? 

Asteroid: What does your dream life look like? 

Meteor: What’s something you wish you could tell, but can’t? 

Nebula: If you could undo one thing in your life, what would it be? 

Shooting Star: If you could bring back one thing, what would it be? 

Pulsar: What do you hope to do in the next 10 years? 

Supernova: What’s one thing you want to do before you die? 

Quasar: If you could spend the rest of your life with only one person, who would it be? 

Wormhole: What’s something you wish would happen, but know won’t? 

Black Hole: What’s the last thing you want to see? 

[sapphirebryant]

saskiathescientist​:

“Besides, bringing a few binder notebooks are totally out of the question for me during my Bachelor’s, up until I finished my PhD. At least when I review, I don’t need to look for another notebook for separate notes. Saves more time and less clutter. I’m glad we agree that dog ears should be banned. I’d be sad if I’d have to judge you for being a dog ears stan,” she joked. “Hah, you underestimate me so much, Saf,” Saskia raised a brow, “I can never tire of reading Biology books. Or anything Science and Medicine related. Ah, fuck it, you underestimate my love for books, Doctor. As for a lame card, you don’t have to. The book and your presence would be enough,” she smiled.

“yeah, same! i carried that two hundred pages ugly notebook and that was it. i was chaotic, i still managed to pass and i was on top of my class, so... i don’t see the point. people who had color coordinated binders and note pads and highlighter charts are suspicious.”  saf laughed softly. “you can judge me for anything else, but this? never.” as saskia gave her a  whole essay about her love for books, she scoffed, trying to hide the fact she found her absolutely adorable. “forgive me, i knew you were a nerd but not i ignored you were that far gone. a nerd who breaks stereotypes, nonetheless!” sapphire added and smiled in return. “you know what we should do? gift exchange! i mean, that’s a tradition at the school anyway, so as a new teacher you’ll probably be forced to participate, but we should do that, together. trying to buy little things that remind us of one another. is that fun or too cheesy?”

[sapphirebryant]

* vesta task #006 _ sorting hat quiz _ gryffindor *

"You might belong to Gryffindor, where dwell the brave of heart. Their daring nerve and chivalry set Gryffindors apart."

Welcome to Gryffindor House, where bravery and chivalry are valued. You belong here because you have a lion's heart; you'll put your life on the line for anything, whether it be for a friend, an ally, or for the thrill of it. Very little stops you from having fun, but you have good morals and when it comes down to it, you choose good over evil.

... okay don’t fight me but i always got weird vibes from gryffindor, or more like from people who believe gryffindoor is the #1 a+ 10/10 best house. it’s cool! don’t get me wrong. bravery, courage, strength, i like this as much as the next person. it’s just, i don’t know! growing up you were either a gryffindor or uncool, so i’m biaised. i always preferred ron over harry (and wondered for the longest time why hermione wasn’t a ravenclaw?). i’m that ~special~, i know! so at first i was just ??? meh ??? not feeling it for saf? i see her more as a ravenclaw/hufflepuff mix but the more i read that tiny description the more it grew on me and i can’t unsee it. it works. maybe not for her current self, since she’s at a weird turning point between “i grew up too fast i shouldn’t be this mature at my age” and “adulting is not that bad it’s just like riding a bike on hot lava”. ALL OF THIS RAMBLING just to say i was mad about the results but it fits and zoë would look bomb af in warm red/maroon and yellow ocre colors so i’m fine.