I Cried Today

just a fun, lighthearted blog to document every moment of my crippling loneliness and despair!!!

[sarahcries-blog1]

im afraid that if i get to drunk i’ll get the nerve to kill myself

[sarahcries-blog1]

i wanna go somewhere where no one knows me and fall in with the wrong crowd and fuck whoever i want and do whatever i want and because no one knows me, no one will care about me so no one will judge me and i will finally be free and i can live & die without worry about anything not even myself because i am just a shitty vessel for things and experiences to try and pass through for other people to enjoy and laugh at and care about I DONT WANT IT ANYMORE PLEASE LET ME GO

LET

ME

GO

LET ME BE FREE

let me put all the things inside of me i want

i can see the hole and i want to climb in

I AM STUCK

going nowhere

why keep me here

its cruel at this point

[sarahcries-blog1]

you drove too close to other cars and it made me nervous remember that huge argument we had in chicago? it was game six and traffic was horrible i'd give anything to be nervous with you again

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[sarahcries-blog1]

green hills mall nordstrom dressing room 5/14/16

today i cried in style. i was clad head to toe in chanel. as soon as the dressing room door closed, the tears fell free and i achieved sweet release. it turned into a juggling act as i attempted to avoid getting snot / make up on the clothes and stay as quiet as possible all while trying to enjoy my cry to the fullest. in the end, the clothes left my body unscathed, my hushed sobs were unheard, and i got the emotional fulfillment i was searching for. when i left the dressing room no one asked me if i needed anything or if i was okay, despite my puffy face and runny make up. it was perfect. 10/10 cry.