sarah is speaking

a lonely girl living in an even lonelier world~ looking for friends!!

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someone just opened the basement door

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theres just numbers on here i dotn ekwno what they mean...

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I FORGOT THE PAPER SCRAPS

therew as someething writiten on them wehre are they

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box is back in the basement

i think thats enoguwth for tontight

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third diary is dione

i nee dot put these back i cawnt look at these anymore

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she hid so muchf rom me

so fuickigni mcuh

i dont watno to thiso anymore but ie cant let myf riends down

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second diary is done

one more to go

img oiewgn as fast ais ii acan

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oh myg do theyre in here she drew them fuckf i have to keep goinf i cant fail eveyrone now

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first diary is done

onto thes econd

my heads hurting but i havew to pwoer through

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theres too many pages to uplaod on here im putting htem on my drive

im skimming each page as i take a photo some of these pages weird me otu

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going through the first diary now

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OH MY GOD I DROPPED IT ON THE STAIRS LAST NIGHT IM AN IDIOT

okay i have it im heading upstairs now im taking the other diaries with me too

why does she have more than one??

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the box was opened

there are 2 more diaries

and scrap papers

but those diaries dont look like the one i found last night...

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im going back down

i took the key out of my pillow and im heading downstairs. heres the plan:

grab the diary and go back to my room

take photos of the diary to show

put the diary back

look through some other boxes (if i feel up to it)

ill try not to fail you guys, wish me luck

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tonights another night

im going to try to rest before going into the basement later. i need to see whats down there before mom gets rid of it.

ill try my best i promise

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i miss going outside

i went out a little bit today but that website from yesterday still freaks me out. i got scared so now im back inside but i dont feel much safer

i liked being outside when mom works or makes dinner. even though i can feel her stare at me, at least theres a barrier between us. theres no privacy here. outside, theres a wall and window that separates us

like...thats how our lives have been, hasnt it? were family we live together yet i dont know her. and she doesnt want me to know

ive thought about telling her everything thats been going on the past couple of days. i know a lot of people have been wanting me to talk to her but it feels so hard. she wont even let me clean the basement with her how would she react to all of this?

how is she everywhere but not there for me?

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i appreciate people who have been sending me nice messages but those who keep sending me weird messages or links to that website please stop im trying to stay calm okay