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Daily tasks - Introducing a new sub

I had trouble sleeping last night. I woke up around 5am and went for a 6 mile bike ride. I have been making smoothies for breakfast everyday for the last two weeks. I did 45 minutes of yoga and then had a salad. My floor exercises were 35 push ups, 7 minute plank, 50 sit ups and I also did a half plank for 3 minutes. I will do some stretching before bed.

Mommy and I have been talking to and getting to know a new sub. She seems a bit shy but Mommy is good at communicating and making sure she is comfortable. Mommy wants me to step up and be more dominant with her and think of tasks for her. I came up with daily greeting tasks and to start a blog like mine to track her tasks and submission in general. 

I am super excited to see how this turns out. It has been difficult finding a third that is serious and available but I am hopeful with her. I really like seeing how patient and sweet Mommy is with other subs. It makes me really see how special Mommy is and how much she cares for me. I feel more and more lucky everyday to be owned by Mommy. 

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I love Mommy

I upset Mommy recently with not being good with communication. I posted my formal apology to her today. We are finally in a better place and I will resume posting my daily tasks and exercises. 

I just got a chastity device for Mommy. It is more symbolic as it is not the most secure belt. Tonight Mommy gave me the task to post a picture of it on reddit. I will do it tomorrow in the morning so the post gets the most attention.

This morning I woke up from a bad dream so I went for a bike ride early in the morning to clear my head. I rode 6 miles around my neighborhood and then later in the evening I went to a trail and did another 3 miles. I did 40 sit ups and 20 push ups but I skipped my planks. I did 30 minutes of yoga and 10 minutes of deep stretching.

I am very happy and grateful for Mommy’s forgiveness and patience for me. I think she is more understanding of the fact that I have her best interest at heart an want to be the best slave for her but I also have to do it for myself. I need to take care of myself and respect myself in order to do the same for her. Mommy makes me so aware of things in me that I hadn’t realized and she is making me a better submissive, partner, and person. 

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An apology to Mommy

The fundamentals to my service to Mommy are all based on open and often communication between the two of us. I let my excitement for a new relationship and my general stress distract me from my service to Mommy. I was slow to respond to Mommy and was not keeping her updated with what I was doing and how I was feeling. I realize that this is totally unacceptable behavior and if I do this again, there will be extreme consequences. I cherish and adore Mommy and completely trust and respect her. When I do not communicate with her, I am not showing her the respect and the attention she deserves and has a right to as my owner. Mommy was very hurt by my actions which broke my heart and I never want to be the source of my Mommy’s sadness. My purpose is to uplift Mommy and constantly be striving to improve her quality of life. If I am to do that, it means that I am checking in with Mommy, listening and sharing feelings and updating Mommy on my plans and schedules. I really am so sorry for my bad behavior, I recognize what I did wrong and I will not repeat that. I love and adore Mommy and I want her to know that I feel like that one hundred percent of the time. 

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Some fun and daily tasks

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I have been denied for almost a month now (possibly longer) and Mommy decided I deserved a little bit of torture for some relief for her needy cunt. Mommy instructed me to get on the floor, put a butt plug in, put a candle and light it in my cunt, and clamp my clit for 15 minutes. Once the 15 minutes were up Mommy made me cover my tits in wax and use a pinwheel on them. Then I was to fucking my throat with my fingers, gag my myself with a ball gag, cover my clit with numbing cream and remove the plug and fuck my ass hard with my dildo. I forgot to gag myself after fucking my throat and expect to be punished for it. Lastly, I was to stay in the inspection position for 5 minutes before taking a cold shower. The whole time I did this Mommy wanted me to have my Hello Kitty plushie set up near me to "watch me". I got so wet doing this and am still pretty wet, even after my shower. Mommy wants feedback and any comments with suggestions of other humiliating things I can do and share here.

https://imgur.com/a/5sVVWpi

Mommy instructed me to get on the floor, put a butt plug in, put a candle and light it in my cunt, and clamp my clit for 15 minutes. Once the 15 minutes were up Mommy made me cover my tits in wax and use a pinwheel on them. Then I was to fucking my throat with my fingers, gag my myself with a ball gag, cover my clit with numbing cream and remove the plug and fuck my ass hard with my dildo. I forgot to gag myself after fucking my throat and expect to be punished for it. Lastly, I was to stay in the inspection position for 5 minutes before taking a cold shower. The whole time I did this Mommy wanted me to have my Hello Kitty plushie set up near me to "watch me". I got so wet doing this and am still pretty wet, even after my shower. Mommy wants feedback and any comments with suggestions of other humiliating things I can do and share here.

My daily exercise today was 30 lunges, 40 squats, 15 minutes wall sit, 50 sit ups, and I went for a 3 mile bike ride. I want to start to add more things to my exercise routine now that I am getting a little stronger. I am going to post this blog and then I am going to do 45 minutes of yoga. I know I don’t really have any followers on here but I might start posting the link to the yoga class I do each day. 

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Tasks and progress

I mean to post here last night but did have a chance to do it. I had a really stressful day yesterday and Mommy told me I could relax so I drank a little bit. It was nice to have Mommy to talk to and let my guard down a little more. We have decided that I will post here daily so that Mommy can easily keep track of my daily routine.

Yesterday my workout routine was upper body and core. I did 20 push ups, 6:32 plank, 40 minutes of and 50 sit ups. I rode my bike two miles but it rains every evening so I couldn’t go for as long as I wanted.

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Expectations - As a Domme and as a sub and other ways to express servitude

I had a task to write down expectations I have for myself as a Domme and as a submissive. I made a list of all of the things I could think of that will help me be self aware as a Domme and as a submissive.

Needs as a Domme:

-Fulfilling the needs of my submissive through pain, humiliation, orgasm control, and aftercare.

-Gaining the trust of my sub so I can better take care of her and make sure she is fulfilled and satisfied with our dynamic.

-Making sure I am aware at all times during play what my subs headspace is and if she is safe and comfortable.

-Having my sub feel comfortable enough to be open and honest about her feelings and needs.

-Being patient with myself and being honest when I need guidance from Mistress.

Needs as a sub:

-Being reassured by Mommy and receiving positive attention.

-Receiving detailed feedback when tasks and punishments are assigned so I know how to correct my mistakes in the future and learn from them.

-Figuring out some sort of aftercare or having conversations where I can be open and honest with my feelings after punishment or physically or emotionally draining play sessions.

-Having the ability to switch between different headspaces from sub, slave, or little.

-Fulfilling Mommy’s needs and making sure I am asking Mommy for clarity and specifications to make sure I am pleasing her in every way. 

-Open communication with Mommy on what headspace I am in.

In addition to this list, there have been things I have been making a part of my daily routine to improve and be a very thorough service sub. I have been making cucumber infused water every morning, finding the best products for cleaning, laundry, writing new recipes and expanding my spice collection and making specialty olive oils. I bought squeeze bottles so I can have a variety of things. Right now I have garlic oil, basil oil, rosemary and thyme oil, a balsamic reduction. I have also been making my own vegetable and fish broth. I am just trying to set up habits for myself that I will carry on to my next relationship and benefit my Domme to the fullest. I like to think of being training and changing my habits which ultimately take care of me the best and therefore maintaining Mommy’s property. 

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Some pain play and humiliation

Mommy has made the decision that I am going to be the primary Domme of the new sub she and I are talking to. I am very excited but also very nervous as I don’t have much experience being a Top in a D/s relationship. One of my tasks today is to write down rules and daily tasks for our new sub. Mommy also gave me the task to write down a thorough list of my needs as a sub and as a Domme. 

After spending so much time talking to our new sub I have been really worked up but I am not allowed to touch. So today I asked Mommy if she would hurt me. She made me cover my clit in hot sauce, put in a butt plug and made me plank, squat, and do wall sits while plugged and my clit burning. Mommy also made me get a coin and hold it to the wall with my nose. I had to start on my knees from the bottom of the wall all the way until I could stand up and back down again. This was very difficult and I dropped the coin several times. I managed to get it full up and down three times. 

Mommy warned me to not make a habit of asking for things even if it is pain. I need to trust Mommy that everything I do is on purpose and only she knows what is best for me. I shouldn’t try to ask Mommy for things I want and only asking her how I can better please her. Tomorrow I will have to spend sometime finding another sub for Mommy for her to Dominate as she has put me in charge of the other woman in order to nurture my Domme side. I am very thankful and appreciative to Mommy for giving me this chance and for guiding me through a new experience. 

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Another punishment

Mommy has been wanting to find another woman to play with us so yesterday I posted some ads and since then have been talking to another submissive women with Mommy. I am very excited to see where this goes. Mommy noticed I have been more dominant around her and so she wants me to explore that side of myself more.

Last night Mommy gave me a talk to hold my piss for as long as possible and then pee through my panties slowly. I was too distracted by how badly I had to pee that I forgot to leave my panties on and didn’t release it slowly. I was very upset with myself and Mommy was not happy with me. My punishment was to write “I will get better” 50 times and then tonight I have to go on a long walk and pee somewhere in public. I have completed the writing portion. I am currently waiting for the weather to get better so I can go for a walk. I am super nervous about peeing in public. I will have to wander around for a while to find a place I won’t get caught.

I am going to try to use this blog to write out current tasks so I won’t keep forgetting minor details. I need to make sure that I am constantly acting in a why where I am being thoughtful and thorough and make sure that everything I do, I have my Mistress in mind and am thinking about whether or not it will please her. 

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A Slave Blog - Daily tasks and expectations

This blog will be dedicated to my training as a female slave and will document daily tasks and expectations I have. My current goals are to work on how well I listen and execute tasks. I must share my daily work outs, diet and daily steps with my Domme everyday and make sure I am checking in with her every morning and every night. I also need to take the time to update this blog when rules or tasks are added and after any play session or punishment.

Things I need to improve upon is being consistent with my daily tasks, listening better and having better communication with my Domme about my schedule or if I need clarification on a task.

The basic rules my Domme has set up for me are that she is the only Domme I am speaking to, no touching or cumming without permission, Honest and open communication, helping her come up with more rules to keep in in line and that all tasks are done on time with picture proof.

Tonight as a punishment for not communicating well with Mistress and not having proper manners, I will slap myself in the face 5 times on each side while telling her how sorry I am sorry for my past mistakes and promise to be a better slut. I will also have to make a post about things I can do to improve, tasks I need to do to improve as a slave and detail the importance of how my only purpose is to serve my Mistress.