hello! hi! heya! umm i really don’t know how to say this LOL
so i’ve been really inactive lately, (of course i’ve been popping in here and there but) i feel extremely guilty for giving you guys…well, false hope. technically, i don’t exactly ‘owe’ any of you anything but i know some(??) of you have probably been anticipating the new gojo chapter, my christmas series, the sae oneshot and all that. well, im just going to tell you…….its not going to happen😭 i apologise for how rude this sounds. but for a LONG time i just haven’t found the joy in writing anymore. as much as i love the interactions i get on my short drabbles, anything long i seem to make just never gets any recognition. compare my what.. 100 word sae drabble to my 3.7k words gojo chapter. my gojo one doesn’t even have one hundred notes while my sae one already hit 1k. now, im not any attention whore who craves notes but the lack of interactions into works that i actually enjoyed writing, that i put my body and soul into be ignored? now thats VERY demotivating. i wrote a few drabbles to keep my blog alive, and the interactions on them just seem to sky-rocket. but something i put so much meaning and love into just get buried away. i still appreciate all the reblogs and comments i get, but i don’t see any point in writing something i enjoy if other people don’t enjoy what im writing. i don’t know if any of you (other than mutuals) remember my ayrastv account that got deactivated. long story short it wasn’t actually an accident.. i intentionally deleted it. i just felt like my longer works on that account weren’t being seen and i no longer enjoyed writing, so i just ran away from my.. ‘responsibility’. seeing my mutuals worried that i left with no explanation whatsoever made me feel extremely guilty so i made up an excuse and continued writing on a new account. i thought maybe starting fresh like this would make me enjoy writing again, but it didn’t. it’s still the same as before. i still didn’t feel motivated or enjoyed writing at all. on top of that i have uni and a job which keeps me busy and my writing schedule inconsistent which im sure none of you like. so yes, this is my quiting message. im so, so sorry for the incomplete series/events if any of you looked forward to it, but i really just can’t find the part in me that wants to continue writing. even if i haven’t been doing it for long, i still had a great time with mutuals and interacting with other people! im also sorry for lying to my mutuals about that deactivation, hope you guys won’t hold any grudges against me 💗. no, i will not be returning if you’re curious. but still, thank you for all the support i’ve gotten so far! i’ve made many amazing mutuals and friends on this app that i really enjoyed talking to <3. thank you all so much for everything.
peace out!!!!!!!!!! love you all so much!!!!!!!!!!!!! old navi.