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[saturnmby]

My boyfriends family constantly telling me abt how much he loves me and how clear it is even when I’m not there 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

[saturnmby]

The skin on my fingers feels like it’s peeling off like a mf peel off mask

[saturnmby]

Being in love but at a Conan Gray concert?

[saturnmby]

It’s genuinely concerning how twisted her perception of reality is now. Not in a hallucination way but in a misjudging and thinking she isn’t doing anything wrong and doesn’t see how sick she really is way. I don’t know what to do.

[saturnmby]

My sleep schedule has started including a nap from like 4-6pm. I feel like an old man.

[saturnmby]

Am i supposed to just forget that that happened and move on and shit?

[saturnmby]

Thinking abt how strategically my old best friend turned everyone we knew against me and managed to make me blame another girl for 3 years before understanding what she did. And I still don’t really know what she did or why she stopped liking me.

[saturnmby]

Constantly staring at the flowers my boyfriend got meeee 💞💞💞💞💞

[saturnmby]

The pre-period mood of feeling like everyone are laughing at u and think ur stupid and hates u :D

[saturnmby]

Why can my brain twist such small things into proof that he hates me.

[saturnmby]

There’s something about him that just makes me want to give him everything and anything he wants. Him smiling lights up my entire world. I’m so in love.

[saturnmby]

I think I forget that 30s exist. That you are not going directly from 20s to 40s. Maybe because my parent’s age was never really mentioned at the ages where they were in their 30s, or because it’s too early in my life for me to remember. I mostly remember my parents as they are now. I don’t know where you are supposed to be in life in your 30s, but I think it’s mostly room to grow but still learning how to properly be an adult. I don’t know.

[saturnmby]

I think I might want kids to have one more chance at feeling, at least somewhat, close to childhood. Some connection. Which would be a selfish reason.

I don’t wanna grow up.

[saturnmby]

Nah everything is fucking great forget all shit things that have happened. They’re alive. I thought they were dead for 2-3 months. ALIVE.

[saturnmby]

Idk what to do with myself and idk who to talk to. There’s so much shit happening.

[yelyahlavigne]

[saturnmby]

Why does my ex situationship have to walk past while i am crying. FML.