Sau_spicivicto

LGBTQ+ 🌈 Writer ✍️Spiritual 🌕 Sharing thoughts on life, and everything in between. Gardening enthusiast, finding peace in the soil and spirit. join me on this journey of words and growth.

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Self Love 💕

Hey, I’m Jayesh.

Over time, I’ve learned to love myself—completely and unconditionally. And I want to ask you something: Do you love yourself the same way?

There was a time when I was shy, introverted, and self-conscious about how I looked. I used to be very thin and had insecurities about my skin tone. Now, I’m bulkier, but those physical changes never defined my worth. Who I am at my core has always remained the same—and that’s what really matters.

Self-love isn’t about being perfect. It’s about accepting yourself, flaws and all, and knowing that you are enough.

Sometimes we forget to take care of ourselves. We get caught up in routines, trying to meet others' expectations or simply going with the flow. In that process, we often become our own harshest critics.

But it shouldn’t be that way.

You deserve your own love. You deserve your own kindness. Always remember to treat yourself with the same compassion you'd give to someone you care about deeply.

So today, take a moment to check in with yourself. Remind yourself of your worth. Be proud of how far you’ve come.

Love yourself—always.

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Embracing the Off Days.

There are days when you wake up and the energy just isn't there. Maybe it's the heaviness that lingers in your chest, or a quiet sense of exhaustion that pulls you down. It’s something I believe is common for so many of us, something that’s just a part of life. And I’ll be honest—I consider myself a relatively mature person, yet there are still times when I feel low, less energetic, or even lonely. Even in the comfort of my own space, with people around me, that feeling can still sneak in. But here's the thing: I truly believe this feeling is completely normal.

It’s okay to not feel okay all the time. We should normalize it. We’re so used to expecting ourselves to be upbeat, productive, and positive every single day, but life doesn’t always work that way. Some days, you just need to breathe and accept that it's fine to not have it all together. It’s not a big deal, my friends. It really isn’t. Because at the end of the day, you will be okay. You’ll find your balance again.

You might be thinking, “What is she talking about?” But this is me. This is how I deal with it. And I know it might sound cliché, but it’s true. Some days are just harder than others, and that's a part of being human.

Sometimes, it’s just the weight we carry around in our minds. It’s the constant overthinking of everything—every little thing that happens throughout the day. The worries pile up, and suddenly, they’ve taken over your thoughts.

I find myself worrying about my health, my future, my parents, my partner… It all starts to stack up and become overwhelming. It’s like a storm that appears out of nowhere, swirling around your mind and messing with your peace. But here’s the thing—I think we all need to give ourselves more space to just be. We need to give time to everything: to our emotions, to our thoughts, and, most importantly, to ourselves.

We need to learn to step back and have “me time.” Time to truly listen to how we’re feeling. Time to understand why we’re upset, why we’re anxious, or why we’re drained. Don’t let those feelings take over. Don’t let them overwhelm you. You are the one who’s in control of your emotions. And trust me, you have the maturity and strength to sort through them.

It was just one of those random days, with random thoughts that passed through my mind. But I wanted to share this, because I believe we all have moments like these. And I’d love to know, do you feel the same way sometimes? How do you cope with those days when things just don’t feel right?

The bottom line is: it’s okay to have those days. It’s okay to be low. Just remember to be kind to yourself through it all. Tomorrow is another chance to feel better, and you’ll be alright.

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The Midnight Encounter: A Journey Into the Unknown

It was a quiet, eerie midnight when my phone rang. My partner's name flashed on the screen, and I quickly picked up.

"I’m not feeling well," he said, his voice strained, heavy with fatigue. "Can you come pick me up from the office?"

A chill ran down my spine—not because of his words, but because of the silence that hung in the air. It was the kind of night where everything felt still, as though time itself had taken a breath and paused.

Without hesitation, I grabbed my moped and sped out into the cold, dark streets. The night felt unnaturally quiet, as if the world was holding its breath.

On the way, I passed my apartment and saw something strange. A man stood at the corner, facing away, his posture... odd, as though he were in the middle of relieving himself. His presence was out of place, but I brushed it off. It was just a late-night wanderer, I thought. Nothing more.

I reached my partner's office, and relief washed over his face when he saw me. He smiled weakly, the light in his eyes dimmed by whatever sickness had a grip on him. We headed back home together, the moped's engine humming as we made our way through the deserted streets.

As we neared the same corner where I had seen the man earlier, my heart skipped a beat. There he was again, standing in the exact same spot, facing the same way, in the same strange posture. It felt… wrong.

I couldn’t shake the feeling that something was off.

We continued on our way, the eerie sensation crawling up my spine. I had spent over an hour picking him up and returning home, yet this man—this strange figure—was still there, unmoving, locked in that same position.

What kind of person stands in one place for that long? It didn’t make sense.

I should have been more frightened, but instead, a strange calm washed over me. Something deep within me clicked. It was as if the universe had sent me a message, a warning, or perhaps a greeting. This wasn’t just a coincidence. The man wasn’t just a strange figure. No. I realized something far more unsettling.

He wasn’t human. He was... something else. An entity, a presence that had chosen that exact moment to cross my path.

From that night on, I began my journey into the unknown. I explored the realms of the spiritual world, unlocking gifts and abilities I never knew I had—gifts, I believe, bestowed upon me by a force far greater than any earthly understanding.

Was it a coincidence? A trick of the mind? Or had I unknowingly stepped into the world of energies, where unseen forces play their part in our lives?

I invite you to share your thoughts. Do you believe in energies? Could this strange encounter have been more than just a passing moment? Or was it simply a figment of my imagination, conjured up in the dead of night?

One thing’s for sure: that night marked the beginning of something far bigger than I could have ever imagined.