all types of love

i think in order to be sane you have accept that some things drive you insane.

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the inevitable

today i felt the need to explore something that i fear, yet am also fascinated by. death. i seem to always be thinking about things that are really out of my hands at the moment and i think that my not-quite obsession with death is because i’ve always been unsatisfied why the response of “i am not afraid of death because i know that whatever happens happens.” i think that death is inevitable, but it is something that helps us shape tour lives. the way we live is is also the way we ultimately die. being afraid of death means to me that you have more to live and that fear is what keeps me from sitting idle. i’m not saying that i live my life because of a fear of death, i’m only saying that that fear is what pushes me to be fearless because i know at the end of of my my life i will always be unsatisfied by what i accomplish and/or fail to accomplish.

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the elite members of society

i think that the reason i love watching weird movies and documentaries, reading articles and books about weird subjects is to be a part of a club that i think is is the difference between mainstream people and people who want to know the truth. i think that knowing about weird things makes me more aware of the things going on around because i can relate them to people who had it way worse or maybe even better. i think that the more you know about the world, the more willing you are to hear the truth. knowing about a band that is so non-mainstream that i have to download their music from the internet or watching films about a director that directed one of the most famous cult movies but no one knows about him makes me extremely content. learning has always been something that i am passionate about and i think that my curiosity is the root of this obsession with not being mainstream. i feel like as soon as someone stops being themselves they go straight to the easiest content they can find. i feel that if you dig deep enough to find the cool movie, the cool music, the cool people, that you can dig that deep to find parts of yourself you’ve hid or haven’t had the chance to discover. i love the feeling of learning about a person that had a lot of influence, but nobody still knows his/her name. this club is something i always want to be a part of, even if it is a struggle to find quality media to view.

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retrophile/xanthophile

these two go hand in hand. i love the warm seventies vibe and vintage polaroids that still use sepia film gives me life. i feel like yellow and orange give off such a warm, cozy vibe that when you pair it with a picture of macrame it just clicks. i love looking at sunsets and sunflowers because they are the epitome of these -philes.

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pluviophile

rainy days are possibly my favorite kind of day. i find happiness in the dreary weather which seems like an oxymoron. i love the scene in twilight where its raining while they’re in class because i love the lighting when its rainy. it’s like the light just dims to about the light right after sunset, but it stays like that until the storm has passed.the feeling i get when i think of rain is so warm. it feels like i just lit some candles, snuggled into a fuzzy blanket and started a book. i like feeling cozy and rain just does it for me. i thin this is also a reason why i have a. fondness for the pacific northwest.

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photophile

i feel that everything i describe as my aesthetic has light in it. i love light, natural light in particular, because it feels like there’s still hope for people when light is shining upon you. i love the shadows light creates and the illusions like rainbows and mirages. it’s really fascinating and you know they always that you can find the light at the end of the tunnel.

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dendrophile

save the trees. as a self pronounced dendrophile, i feel that it my duty to spread the message of anti-deforestation to all corners of the world.i love trees, especially the trees you know have been living longer than you. i love the rows of trees down a street that create a canopy over the asphalt, acting like an umbrella for the houses. i love the redwoods and the forest of the west coast. i feel like that is why i feel so inclined to live in the pacific northwest because i almost feel connected with the trees. they have seen so much and i feel that if i can get in sync with nature in a not-so-hippie sort of way, then i can get to what i want to eventually do with my life.

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clinophile

my weakness is my bed. i love to just lay there all day, doing absolutely nothing, but feeling accomplished at the end of the day. clinophile is described as someone who loves laying in bed. for me my bed a like a temple. when i get home and in my bed i can de-stress and process what has happened in the day. i feel because my bed brings me such peace, i can do homework 5x faster than anywhere else and feel more creative when writing in my bed. i think finding that spot for you is a vital part of because once you find your sanctuary, you can use it as a resource to make the best out of life.

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chionophile

a chionophile is a person who loves cold weather and snow. i’ve told a story about me laying in the snow, so i’ll tell another story about snow that makes me happy merely thinking about it. whenever it snows i always go outside with my dog and we play for hours. it seems childish, but dropping everything and going outside into the cold de-stresses me completely. i forget about whatever test i have the next day, whatever problem is on my mind and i just play in the snow with my pup.

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autophile

the first thing i thought when i saw the root auto was car, but as i read farther i figured out that autophile means the same as being on autopilot you are controlling yourself and autophiles love to be alone. i think i relate to this “phile” a lot. i love to be alone and just soak in whatever’s happening around me. when it snows i always go outside, headphones in my ears, and i lay down in the snow underneath a street light with just enough light to be able to see every single flake float down from the sky. the silence of the snow is euphoric for me, i can think about anything when i am out there and i think that is autophilia in essence.

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a list of love

my next few posts are going to be about my favorite infatuations and why i feel the way i do about them.

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bucket list

(not in any particular order)

1. swim with whale sharks

2. live in oregon on the coast

3. live in nyc

4. continue to be creative

5. meet the love of my life

6. go to greece, italy, and morroco

7. own a corgi

8. witness a female president

9. be able to pull off a grungy makeup look

10. work for a magazine

i’m going to add more as my journey continues