The Falling Redemption

We sit alone even when surrounded by those who love us. We fall apart even if everyone holds us together. Nobody can really see what's in our minds.

[sball239]

Skype/Kik?

I'm just looking for friends to talk to. Message me for either. I have WhatsApp too if that's your thing.

I don't care what we talk about, I'm pretty adaptable to most situations.

[andreii-tarkovsky]

[sball239]

someone: why are you sad?

me: my man u r not ready for this conversation

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[hallucination]

[8pxl]

[lets-go-to-the-movies]

[ctrlego]

[sball239]

I hope one day, the people i never want to read the things i post, get to read it all. So that they will all know the pain i am in mentally, so if i end up leaving this world they can then hear me speak.

The individuals i post about, i hope you one day read my blog as well. So you may see how it is i feel about you. I know the feelings are not mutual, but i am okay with that. I am more than happy to have just known you in my life.

By the by. If i do not make another post after tomorrow, assume i have died. Haha stupid i know, but the date october 26, 2016 has been thrown at me for many years. Well it is here in just 6 and a half hours.

Who knows? Maybe I will die. Maybe i will gain a life experience that will leave a mark on me for the rest of my life. Maybe it is just a random date in my mind.

All i know is that we are going to visit a “haunted” forest in my area. So maybe ill die haha. We shall see.

[sball239]

Anxiety

Anxiety is the.ost annoying thing in my life. One day i am so happy and nothing can bring ne down. But then all yhe sudden BAM. I'm on the floor staring at my knife thinking how much better off everyone else would be. I can even see the blood that hasn't yet spilled from my wrists on the floor. I want to be alone. But i have friends that stop me from doing that. 2 in particular. Ines and my newer friend Jasmine. Ines is the greatest person ive ever encountered. Jasmine so far is basically in second. Both have no idea that they have saved me from doing some really dumb things. The fact that they saved me, makes me havebstrong feelings for them. So is it real love i feel for them? Yes and no. I have to tell my head everyday that they are friends. So stop thinking of them romantically. But it ia so hard to. Then j tell myself that and then u feel i am not good enough for them and i fall back into an anxious depression again. Then here come my two heros, and here i fall for them again. It is so Dumb. I just wish it would stop.

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[fragile-emerald-arrow-deactivat]

Take a deep breath

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[dalul]

[stability]

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Like or reblog this and i will start an interesting convo or send you something nice

[gvming-x]

“cuddle me”