nothing i ever do matters. no matter what i do, i keep getting accused of saying horrible things that i never did. and if something hurts me, even if to the point where i am about to blow my head off with a 12 gauge shotgun without having said a word about it, i guess that's me being unfair to them.
what am i? why is it always like this? why am i not allowed to advocate for myself? why is anger completely forbidden and some unforgivable sin to feel, even when i do really good about not being mean? even when i'm wronged over and over?
what is even happening anymore? why is everyone ignoring me? why can't i ask for anything? why can't i feel bad?
i can't take this anymore... i thought i would be
oh well












