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Schekinah. Metro-NYC Area. Student. Photography. Photo Blog TAGS: Personal Writing Graffiti Newark Instagram

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Toughest time of the year for me, so I did something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time and cut my hair.

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I’ve lived here (Philly) for almost 3 years now. And I still hate it very very much.

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Year 4. Still so horrendous.

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Year 5 going on 6, I leave the house more.

Crime is down A LOT, I have more community here, as I’m getting ok with this place, I’m also planning my exodus even though the city won’t let go.

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Year 6 going on 7. Buying a place here!

I couldn’t have pictured that in my wildest dreams or nightmares.

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Yearly appearance.

Mommy, husband and I have so many plans for our future as a family.

Always missing Dad, but overall content and satisfied and in awe of the adult I’ve become.

[schekinah]

I’ve lived here (Philly) for almost 3 years now. And I still hate it very very much.

[schekinah]

Year 4. Still so horrendous.

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Year 5 going on 6, I leave the house more.

Crime is down A LOT, I have more community here, as I’m getting ok with this place, I’m also planning my exodus even though the city won’t let go.

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I think I hate this little life, this little life.

Been a very tough last week having lost one of my childhood best friends.

Took off last week and went on an already scheduled work trip with my husband, for me to take some classes while he worked.

The juxtaposition of reeling internally and being externally in a 5 star hotel resort was not lost on me. I felt like whatever characters Reese or Nicole play on “Big Little Lies”.

Idk, you think as you get older and more settled, that life will settle itself too even if for a little while for you to get to properly enjoy.

Im seeing that any anxiety I’ve had in the last couples of years pales in comparison to how I’m feeling now.

Trying to find ways to keep my mind and body occupied. It’s sad how deep sadness taps into a creative part of my brain, maybe it’s to keep my busy. I’ve never thought of it that way before.

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Yesterday

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I’ve lived here (Philly) for almost 3 years now. And I still hate it very very much.

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Year 4. Still so horrendous.

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Emotion turmoil looks so good on me.

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I really think I need to seek some sort of help for my PMDD.

It’s alarming and throws me for a loop each time, especially with such an irregular cycle. It makes me feel like a stranger in my mind and like I’m losing it.

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Vegas.

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Are we all slowly coming back to Tumblr?

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I hate being misunderstood so much.

I handle everyone and everything with kiddie gloves on 9/10. And the one time I speak with frankness and clarity, I’m the bad guy.

Something I miss about being back home is the frankness and honesty in how people talked. It almost makes me not want to say how I honestly feel about anything or anyone ever.

I just want a weekend and sometime to myself by myself.

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It was my period yall.

It was me!!

[schekinah]

I hate being misunderstood so much.

I handle everyone and everything with kiddie gloves on 9/10. And the one time I speak with frankness and clarity, I’m the bad guy.

Something I miss about being back home is the frankness and honesty in how people talked. It almost makes me not want to say how I honestly feel about anything or anyone ever.

I just want a weekend and sometime to myself by myself.

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Dismiss the idea that you are cursed to suffer for eternity and start bringing little joys into your life NOW. It will build up in time...

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I went to my favorite place with my favorite person.

I really hope I can squeeze in another beach trip this summer.

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I’ve lived here (Philly) for almost 3 years now. And I still hate it very very much.