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✧ angel ･ 24 ･ they/them

✧ about ･ my art

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Im playing tomodachi and I made rupaul

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I also made Obama and trump and theyre crushing on eachother and bond over fake news ans 9/11. I also made kurtis Conner and then I made pim

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therapy went good unshockingly enough lol

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Im playing tomodachi and I made rupaul

[whe-renot]

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Me every 3 weeks when another thing goes wrong

[ainavisa]

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I dont want to die but I want to dissappear so bad and have all my memories and subconscious absolutely wiped and just live in the woods by myself forever and ever. but that cant happen so every day I just ask and think really hard to be in a really bad car accident to whoever might listen up there

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I just dont trust anyone and I dont want to be here

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You'll get the courage to say youre thinking about hurting yourself or youre depressed or suicidal whatever because you need to talk but dont want to get institutionalized again sland people around you will be like But You're Selfish And What About US like yeah im telling you so I dont do it but youre reacting in a way that makes me shut down and now you wonder why I dont talk about how im actually feeling

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Everything is stupid also because your loved ones, support system, friends, whatever idk will be like talk to me and then you will tell them youre thinking about suicide and they get offended like ok whatever you told me to be honest...

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I knowwww its bad but I truly do believe there is no hope in life for me rn. Its a detrimental self serving ideology that ive adopted but It keeps proving to be true so whatever. Maybe I bring it on myself but its been this way since I was 3 so whatev. Don't know what to do anymore and im not excited about therapy anymore bevause part of me is scared it just won't help. Idk like its so easily to logically be like "well this isnt productive to think, angel" but in my heart I truly believe I was born to suffer for no reason at all other than the world is cruel to some people.

I have no one to talk to about this because I hatw opening up to actual people so you get my ramblings for today now stop reading my gay ass posts

[babylamb1]

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All I want is mercy

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All I want is mercy

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Literally how am I supposed to keep going after literally everything that has happened....bruh

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I start dbt this weekend I dont wamt tooooooo but I have tooooo