Kujo

19 | He/him | 🇸🇨 in🇦🇺 "Kojima is god" Inbox always open! :D

[schizo-toddhoward]

I do feel a bit bad for abandoning this account, but i was under so much paranoia and in a depressive spiral that i ended up taking a step back and got my meds doubled.

So I'll catch everyone up to speed. Under the cut

Historically, my mental health has always been bad ever since i could remember but from 2019 - 2024 it was back to back meltdowns, friendship issues, etc.

Last year, my closest friend (I'm calling her H) and my other closest friend (I'm calling him J) got into a nothing burger spat that J started out of nothing, i can only assume he was bored. I sided with H because she too had the same thought as me, a nothing burger spat.

Fast forward to a month and bit of me having to play messenger boy, J ended up leaving the friend group (somewhat) and ended up going to my old friends who i stopped talking to cause they were ńáźí sympathises. I wish i was joking.

Then a month later he cried wolf and I had none of it. I want no affiliation with him.

Please keep in mind, my childhood dog passed away, my mother was in a cast and i got friendzoned all in a span of three months with having to deal with J.

J also contacted me several times which only made my paranoia worse.

I am in a much better mental space now, i got my antidepressants doubled, diagnosed with ADHD, came out to my therapist, I am currently getting aid with job searching and maybe even getting resources for gender affirming care?? (We'll see where it goes)

I'm very happy where I am in life though, I'm surrounded by friends who I love and care for, I got back into contact with my father-figure (not my biological dad) and got stuff on the table for my fics in the future.

[simone00102]

好喜歡他們❤️‍🔥

[schizo-toddhoward]

This is just me rambling but I genuinely don't feel like I belong to any queer spaces as a transman.

I've been feeling so dysphoric because I keep getting mistaken as a chick by a friend. I understand it cause I still sound like one and look like one but if 99% of my friends can get it and understand it except for one. Then I don't fucking know what's the issue.

[jeaniedreaming]

Not to flex guys but there are BIG things happening to me on Pinterest

[schizo-toddhoward]

Private bits heheheheh

[pain-isnt--needed]

[schizo-toddhoward]

My brother trying not to eat everything in the house pin the blame on me: IMPOSSIBLE EDITION

[schizo-toddhoward]

Ratonhnhaké:ton, it seems I’ve grown quite fond of you though there are no sexual urges or desires, you come to me as a long lost friend whom I once picked apples with in papa’s orchard.

[erosmutt]

tumblr stop changing THE FUCKING USER INTERFACE CHALLENGE FAILED FAILED FAILED FAILED STOPPPP

[schizo-toddhoward]

Having a crush on essentially no-name voice actor is genuinely not for the weak cause i probably look schzio as shit liking every instagram story and post

[scoundressandfriends]

from the 1980 Rolling Stones article on ESB

[erosmutt]

why does he look like that 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[schizo-toddhoward]

Natural selection

[schizo-toddhoward]

Sourdough bread and carrot cake scones are the reason why I can't loose weight omg

[mothgirlcyborg]

Costco blueberry sourdough loaf would ruin you

[schizo-toddhoward]

I am a weak man. You know this.

[mothgirlcyborg]

Lathered in butter, and perhaps with a nice blue beery cream cheese? Still warm from the toaster

[schizo-toddhoward]

Send it to me in the mail, idc if customs takes it or it becomes mouldy.

I want it.

[mothgirlcyborg]

White castle crave clutch...

[schizo-toddhoward]

White castle crave clutch..... it could fix all my problems...... could be considered gender affirming care....

[schizo-toddhoward]

Sourdough bread and carrot cake scones are the reason why I can't loose weight omg

[mothgirlcyborg]

Costco blueberry sourdough loaf would ruin you

[schizo-toddhoward]

I am a weak man. You know this.

[mothgirlcyborg]

Lathered in butter, and perhaps with a nice blue beery cream cheese? Still warm from the toaster

[schizo-toddhoward]

Send it to me in the mail, idc if customs takes it or it becomes mouldy.

I want it.

[schizo-toddhoward]

Sourdough bread and carrot cake scones are the reason why I can't loose weight omg

[mothgirlcyborg]

Costco blueberry sourdough loaf would ruin you

[schizo-toddhoward]

I am a weak man. You know this.

[schizo-toddhoward]

Sourdough bread and carrot cake scones are the reason why I can't loose weight omg

[starlingslove]

ezio enjoyed hotpot today