mental health matters until you become irredeemable
mental health matters until i share my most depraved fantasies
mental health matters until i say i used to envy people who experienced sexual assult, because i thought that if i didnt go through it then it meant i wasnt pretty enough
mental health matters until i say how i used to wish every day for my mother's death and even planned out how i should've killed her
mental health matters until i explain the huge emptiness i felt everytime i saw someone sicker then me, and how i wanted to get worse just to prove to everyone that i was suffering the most
mental health matters until i explain how even a miniscule action can make me lose my mind and make me take irrational decisions that'll ruin my life
mental health matters until i have rotten teeth and matted hair and no one wants to be around me because of how bad i stink
mental health matters until all i care about is my phone and dont do anything except using it and consume
mental health matters until i'm a parasite for society and others, and thus dont deserve basic necessities like eating or being loved
mental health matters until they realise i cant talk to anyone because of how unstable i am
mental health matters until i throw my head against the wall because i didnt get what i wanted
mental health matters until they realise i'm genuinely a bad person and want to hurt others for my personal satisfaction, and it's the only thing closest to happiness that i can feel
mental health matters until i dont wanna get better, because i was born a monster and no amount of therapy or help will change who i am
(this poem doesn't reflect who i am currently, but how i used to feel during teens while i experienced psychosis and other serious complications. to anyone who relates: please understand that you're experiencing reality in a very distorted manner, you probably endured years of abuse and neglect without realising; we live in a rotten world and we cant change that, but we can change ourselves by building a strong community and being surrounded by people who love and value us. ny dms are always open)
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