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20// sf bay/ gay I’m Alex and I have a wonderful dog named cuddles

[midiport]

what does this mean

[telltaletypist]

literally could not be more straightforward

[schvantzzz]

I think he’s finally gonna leave me alone no restraining order needed no idea what finally did it but I’m not complaining being stalked/harassed by him for the last year has been miserable

[schvantzzz]

Cuddles is ok

[9inchmales]

Shoplifting haul: 6 sauce Total: .23 cents

[schvantzzz]

https://open.spotify.com/track/7CCpHRIkmLUNGetpe4VQ5c?si=BApEvyrlQ_W3sVngVpU7yw

Will no longer be using this blog message me for the new url if you aren’t the reason behind that

[incel-moved-deactivated20210803]

[lisaminnci]

Lilo & Stitch (2002) dir. Chris Sanders, Dean DeBlois

[johntorrington]

who wants to go to the aquarium with me i want to stand in cold rooms for two hours straight and look at jellyfish and maybe pet a small stingray

[johntorrington]

emotionally i am here

[jailerat]

[herefortherobutts]

Feel like shit. Just want to pet sea pancakes again.

[schvantzzz]

I haven’t thought about pink Lars in a while I’ve been procrastinating for like two years to watch steven universe future

I did finally watch infinity train I really love it what other new crop(like years old at this point) should I check out

[schvantzzz]

Anyone watch Sarah z? Her new video has me really rethinking a lot of my relationship with this site and it’s also super fun because she basically grew up here like I did

[schvantzzz]

Last three days I’ve exercised for 10 mins a day which is kinda a big deal I’ve always avoided exercising with every fiber of my beings I was 15 the last time I ran and I don’t have any shoes so I just Hotta slide around in my socks and I have this lung trainer and I’ve been going way longer between cigs

(I’m keeping track of it with a shortcut but my worst time has been an hour and my best six hours)

I fucking hate this Juul I need a real vape and I can’t believe I’m even still trying after not sleeping for two days

[schvantzzz]

I’m going nuts I just can’t start smoking like crazy again especially with my all-nighters I won’t be able to breath for a week I can’t believe cuds is having problems too

Like he needs antibiotics and I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to get a ride there

[schvantzzz]

This is rly hard because I’m sleep deprived and have zero energy but I’ve been trying to the last few days to cut down on smoking and wean myself to a vape

Anyway tumblr is bugging and this text box looks blue

[schvantzzz]

* dogs having health problems again I

* trying to cut down on smoking

* not doing good

* been up for two days :( I miss this site

[schvantzzz]

For whatever reason during the beginnings of quarantine I spent three months hyperfixated on bread making I managed to get a hold of a ton of yeast and idk how I managed to summon this amount of self control but I basically spent everyday making bread and learning everything I could about it for like three months

Every couple of weeks though for whatever reason I miss it buying a few lbs of flour and spending a few days just making loaf after loaf and messing around with adding different things and after a day or two I’ll have dozens of loafs of bread.

And i mean it tastes pretty good but I don’t eat a ton and rarely cook much of anything so I’ll end up eating a loaf giving one or two away but I’ll end up wasting a trash bag worth of bread and I mean I have frozen a couple of them but it always tastes kinda off to me for whatever reason

And I mean that’s well and good but I go months without cooking anything and I can’t rly afford buying nice bread so it’d be cool if I could use my extremely sporadic hyper bread fixation for something because I currently think of it as like going to a festival or something I’m just buying flour(it’s like $5) for the entertainment of cooking it (but seriously though it feels like I’m getting possessed by some kinda bread master for a few days I literally can’t get myself to pay attention to one thing for longer than ten minutes and most of the time I can’t even imagine caring at all about bread

I’ve tried cooking bread outside of these bread manias and I just don’t really get any sort of reward chemical out of it it just feels like cleaning the toilet or anything else I have to force myself to

But every few weeks I suddenly find the motivation to spend 8 hours a day making loaf after loaf like it’s less enjoyable to sit and do nothing and I’ve never felt that away about pretty much anything aside from like other people and dogs

Maybe that’s what people that aren’t horribly depressed with dehabilating adhd feel like all the time but I have to force myself to do literally everything aside from talking to people and having sex

It rly does feel like I become a different person once in a blue moon and I wish I could summon that for something I could more easily turn into money or at least something I don’t actively hate doing bc I would legit hate doing anymore bread making than I do now

Anyway I was about to put this down on a Reddit post looking for preservatives but that would have been ridiculous and nobody would read it so I might as well be slightly less cringy and post this here where I know no one will read it

But maybe that’s kinda cool in a way like writing in a journal knowing no one else will read it feels very different than posting it somewhere people could in theory read it

And idk the only reason I post anything on Reddit is because I want to give back a little bit and I also know that people read a lot of old stuff and idk I feel like maybe someone will appreciate it someday even if that’s by some robot historian in a thousand years

[y2kaestheticinstitute]

‘Gel-Phones’ - Alcatel concepts (2001)

[mysharona1987]