[scoobied]

hi! we are scoob, scooby, scoobies, or the scooby system. we are a diagnosed polyfragmented DID system working towards functional multiplicity.

27, white, queer genderqueer, neurodivergent, disabled.

We are always looking to make more connections in the community as we grow and heal, so feel free to reach out!

Feel free to ask any questions you want, as well, but keep in mind we have the right to not answer.

[scoobied]

i simply dont think that has to be a (redacted) trait

i hate when shit like that happens i hate it i feel like im going to xry

[scoobied]

how could i possibly explain what hs is to me in a deeply internal sense when everything about it is intrinsically about what's happened to me.

how could i ever hope to explain it.

how am i supposed to tell people about it when telling them about it would mean having to tell them about my trauma history

how do i explain that i've remembered so many things because of homestuck and almost all of them are really really bad.

the list of traumatic things i've experienced was already so long that no one would ever begin to believe it. what do you mean there's MORE?

how could there be more? i have to be wrong it cant be real none of it can be real

how could i possibly have forgotten all of it

how could i have forgotten

how could it be real

looking at certain art literally makes me feel sick sometimes. looking at some fanart literally makes me want to cry

who am i supposed to tell. who am i supposed to explain this to.

[scoobied]

i am actually really. afraid of how sick i still am after all this time. i need to get out of front i need to go back inside i should not be here. nothing is ever going to end well

[scoobied]

i dont really remember and im scared and upset. and i still just. have to get to work

[scoobied]

i just lost an hour

i don't remember. it's gone. i feel like i just loaded the save of a game I haven't touched in years

i remember hanna. i don't know

[scoobied]

who is my friend? who is i kjowM who am i clsoe to?

im scared

im lonely

im adraid

who is there? open the door

[scoobied]

i need this to stop. i just really need this to stop. no more alters coming back from the past. no more new alters. im scared. im tired. im overwhelmed. also hanna is a bitch

[scoobied]

i take it back i hate it i don't want it i take it back please. please just let's forget about it

[scoobied]

i hate this feeling

[byeseeyalaters]

#myfreak. woohoohoo okay. i pray this is the last time i ever have to ask for help, at least with anything this major—i have set up a gofundme to help with fees for relocating to regina, saskatchewan, in light of being denied at the border when the plan was to stay with my fiancée and her family for a bit. the full explanation is within the gofundme story, but some of it is as follows:

conservative alberta is getting scary, and being a disabled lesbian i am watching our premier take pages out of trump's book. i know saksatchewan isn't much better politically, but they certainly seem less chaotic and uncertain than alberta for the moment. please share the gfm with friends and family if you can—i need ALL of the help i can get ; ;

i received a call from a place i applied for that i had worked at before and gotten fired from, so i am not sure if i have any chance at actually getting the job. however even if i do, until “september-ish” as my mother said will not be long enough to save up on my own.

in addition i also have storage fees for the brunt of my belongings (furniture, etc) and my phone bill that i need to pay for which comes to about C$280/month. i have a friend helping with a bit of that (~C$45). if anyone could also help with that, please send to my qayqal with a note stating it is for storage/phone!

i'm so sorry i have to keep asking for help like this. even $1 helps. 50 people giving $1 would be $50 closer to my goal. the little bits add up.

[byeseeyalaters]

ok. i meant to do this yesterday but i have been so fucking stressed out. apartment is a no-go for now as it isn't feasible in my position, but we found an airbnb with a very well-respected hostess. this information is also available on my fiancée's post.

~CA$770 A.K.A. US$565 for two weeks and we see how it goes from there. i feel sick to ny stonach at the idea of being stranded in this town where i know for a fact, if i am on the streets, i will not ever be able to pick back up. currently at approx. CA$196 as a cbunk had to go to my storage, which is good now until NOVEMBER 3.

i need this money raised, preferrably in less than two weeks. landlord comes to my parents' house for inspection tomorrow and from there we find out when we have to be out for. PLEASE SHARE WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS IF YOU CAN. i will be updating the GFM description with more relevant information when i have the time after doing my cleaning. thank you

[byeseeyalaters]

MINOR MISCALCULATION. I HAVE CA$221 A.K.A. US$156 CURRENTLY!

[scoobied]

I can't for the life of me explain why but i hate the terms fictive and factive and i hate that there are apparently More words for things like that? what on earth do we need all these little micro labels for. focus more on recovery and less on hyper-categorization of your alters

[scoobied]

this post was inspired by seeing the term "metative"

[scoobied]

I can't for the life of me explain why but i hate the terms fictive and factive and i hate that there are apparently More words for things like that? what on earth do we need all these little micro labels for. focus more on recovery and less on hyper-categorization of your alters

[elijah-terry]

Donate to Queer Trans Man Needs Home for Safety, organized by Netherland Kinterknecht

Hi all im a 25 year old queer trans man struggling very badly at this po… Netherland Kinterknecht needs your support for Queer Trans Man Nee

this man is facing a high chance of being homeless soon. he has a job, but had a medical emergency last month & issues with his transportation that kept him from being able to save up for moving like he planned. he has two cats to worry about as well.

anything you can do, sharing or donating, would be super helpful.

[scoobied]

im scared and confused and upset and i dont remember what happened

[scoobied]

this feeks. bad. this feels bad this frels bad

why do i feel like this

why am i having a classic lik

14 kr 15 y/o me breakdown

why dont i feel like i can stop. why dont i have any control

[scoobied]

i can tell i am doing. really badly

because i was like "if i just get into something new / make a new oc i'll care about something again"