TIMING: Current LOCATION: The Jones Household PARTIES: Ophelia (@scorched-sunrise) & Emilio (@mortemoppetere) SUMMARY: By chance, Emilio sees the letter left to Ophelia by the fae that abducted her father. This results in some very heartbreaking news for the young nymph. CONTENT WARNINGS: Parental death (mentions), child death (past, mentions)
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Reluctant as she was to involve her surrogate uncle in the search for her father in any meaningful capacity, Ophelia recognized at length that she was making no actual progress and that her hope was wearing thin. She had nothing new or helpful to offer to him, and wondered what the purpose of this visit would even be, other than to say “I’m scared and upset”, because what else could he do to help outside of searching the mountains himself? It would amount to nothing, she knew, so she didn’t present the visit to the home he was staying in (his home, then?) on the Isle as a matter concerning her father, though it sat heavy in the back of her mind.
She’d been there an hour before her fingers dug into her pocket to retrieve the familiar piece of paper. It was the one that had been left on her mother’s bedside table, the one that detailed the fae plot to kidnap her father and the hardly regretful admission that they’d slain Mariela for attempting to stop them. She rubbed the corner between her thumb and forefinger, her eyes raking over the message for the millionth time. It always managed to light a fire in her belly, to reignite the embers that turned cold after days of no news and no discoveries.
The writing was a messy scrawl, distinct in its way. She wondered often who had been the one to write it—Barley, perhaps? He’d always eyed Rhett suspiciously, and had not even been overly fond of Mariela and her daughter when Solomon brought them to the aos sí. Outsiders, he’d called them for a while, before finally relenting after seven months. She wouldn’t put it past old Barley to do such a monstrous thing, not now. Not having seen the true brutality that her kind were capable of. She imagined his hand scribbling out the note she gripped tight, imagined the smile on his face as he did so… perhaps even the blood on his hands, creating the curious stains that dotted the paper here and there.
Emilio came back into the room after having stepped out a moment, and Ophelia looked up at him. Her gaze was hard and soft at the same time, bitter but glad to see him, glad to be near him, even though it hurt. She sighed, setting the paper on the coffee table in front of her and pulling her socked feet up onto the couch, hugging a pillow to her chest. Again she stared at the thing, shaking her head. “I’m never going to find him, am I?”
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Family was a difficult thing to navigate. Emilio used to think himself good at it, arrogant enough to consider himself a professional. Every scar carved into his skin by someone he loved was a lesson, clusters of them forming classes worth of lectures and things learned. How many years did people go to school to achieve elaborate titles? Didn’t Emilio, with his thirty-two years worth of lessons in family, have them all beat? He used to think so, used to believe he was an expert. He’d been wrong.
It hadn’t been Lucio’s revelation that revealed this. It hadn’t even been his betrayal years before. No, the thing that made Emilio understand just how little he knew about family had been holding his daughter in his arms for the first time. She was such a tiny, fragile thing, and he’d felt so helpless. Nothing in his life had prepared him for it. Even helping his sister raise her son felt like poor practice compared to what was expected of him with Flora. There was no way to adequately ready yourself for parenthood, he thought. No amount of lessons in the world could make you ready for that.
He felt a similar cluelessness with Ophelia. It had grown since her mother’s death, since she showed up in town to tell him that Rhett was gone. She had so much hope, and Emilio had no idea how to approach it. He didn’t know if it was kinder to let her hold on to that desperate belief that they’d find Rhett alive or to rip the bandage off and tell her that he was certain they wouldn’t. He wasn’t sure either was the better answer. There seemed to be no approach that would spare her, no way to keep her from aching. And he hated that.
There was a heavy feeling hanging over the living room today. He got up to get a drink, but it was more of an excuse to escape that suffocation than it was anything else. He lingered in the kitchen, and he wished Teddy was there. They’d know what to do better than he did, he thought; they were better at being a person, even if they’d spent most of their life as something else. He gripped the counter for just a moment before nodding to himself, sucking his teeth to return to the living room. He would have been more comfortable walking into a battlefield; at least in a fight, things were simple.
Ophelia looked up as he reentered the room, setting something down on the coffee table. He moved to sit beside her, stiff and uncertain but trying all the same. She asked the question he didn’t want to answer, and he tried to find the best way to reply. He didn’t want to lie to her, but he didn’t want to hurt her, either. It was an impossible thing.
“What happened on that mountain…” He trailed off. “Rhett knew his odds going up there weren’t great. He must have known that.” He chose to go anyway. And Emilio couldn’t help but think that he wouldn’t have made that decision if not for the fight they’d had just before it, couldn’t help but wonder, as he always did, how much of this was his fault. He cleared his throat, trying to distract himself by letting his gaze wander to the paper she’d been clutching before he came in. He nodded to it. “What’s that?”
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She closed her eyes and buried her face in the pillow for a moment, unwilling to let Emilio see the way pain flashed across her face. “I just don’t get it,” she said finally, lifting her chin again to instead prop it on her knee. “Why come to us if he knew it was so dangerous? Why not stay here?” She knew of the fight, of course. And that was probably it, wasn’t it? He’d felt abandoned, even though Emilio had begged him to stay, and he saw no other course. Such a fool. Ophelia heaved another sigh, knowing that Emilio would not and could not answer the question, knowing that they both had the same idea in their minds, though one inspired guilt where the other inspired anger. So instead she turned her attention to the letter that he was pointing out now, biting down on her lower lip for a moment before answering.
“The letter they left behind after—the one they left for someone to find. For me to find.” She glanced away again, feeling suddenly embarrassed for having carried it around all this time. “I should probably toss it out. There’s no reason to keep it, it just makes me angry and scared all over again. But I…” She didn’t know. “... maybe that’s why I keep it. To keep me motivated to find him.” Her gaze raked across the room as she turned her head to look at him, her eyes gleaming with the heartache of it all. “You… can read it, if you want. I don’t imagine it’ll help any, it’s just an account of what happened and why. Bullshit it may be.”
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Guilt sliced through him like a knife, and the silence that followed on its heels was heavy and poignant. He could try to explain it to Ophelia, try to make sense of the tangled web of shit that had led to Rhett storming out of that apartment and marching off towards his doom without so much as a glance back in his brother’s direction, but what good would it do? There were things that couldn’t be held in words, explanations that would never quite fit the way they were meant to. To properly explain why Rhett left, Emilio would have to go back to the very beginning — to an angry teenager who didn’t know how to grieve properly and the angry man who slid into his family by feeling just the same. No words could fully encapsulate what it felt like for the both of them to love Flora, or what it felt like to lose her. Anything he said would come up woefully short.
So, he focused on the piece of paper instead. It had always felt like an odd piece of the puzzle, from the moment she’d told him about it. He’d chalked it up to not fully understanding fae customs, though there was still something undeniably strange about leaving a written confession when the perpetrators could have just as easily let Ophelia assume that her father was the culprit and avoid any retribution. He’d never pushed on it; it had seemed cruel to ask. But now, with it sitting in front of him, curiosity tugged at his chest. “Might give us some kind of clue,” he offered, leaning forward to pick it up but hesitating, looking to her for one last nod of permission.
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For her own part, Ophelia had never considered it odd that the fae had left behind an explanation. Maybe they feared retribution upon their return, she thought—which was wise of them, because that had been her intention all along, but… they hadn’t returned. Or maybe it was more a matter of gloating. Barley, the assumed author of the note now sitting perilously between them, was one that would surely love to do this. I told you so, she could hear him saying. I told you that stray and her pup were nothing but trouble! Sun above, she should like to carve him open from sternum to pelvis, she thought, and then recoiled. That was a violent desire, even for her. Up to now, they’d all been nameless, descriptionless things. She didn’t spend the day imagining how she’d kill Barley and his company, only that she would, sun help them, if she ever found them.
“Might,” she muttered, watching his hand reach for it. At the pause, she met his gaze again and nodded, hugging the pillow closer to her.
She knew there was nothing helpful to be gleaned from that message, and yet her heart sped up as Emilio picked it up from the table, watching him intently as he read it, searching his expression for any kind of sign that he’d discovered some truth she’d overlooked. He was a detective, after all. She hugged the pillow even tighter still, realizing she was holding her breath when the look on his face changed. But it wasn’t to something that she’d hoped to see: the revelation, whatever it was, did not brighten him. No, instead it seemed to drag him down, and the young nymph felt fear rising from her gut. “What?” she barked impatiently. “What is it?”
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He would have liked to have claimed he knew the moment he picked up the paper, like some invisible jolt went through him and revealed the truth all at once. He would have liked to have claimed he knew before then, even, and maybe a part of him had. After all, his mind had jumped to certain conclusions the moment Ophelia told him her mother was dead, even if he’d chased those conclusions away the best he knew how. He’d come to accept the version of events she placed before him regardless of the inconsistencies or puzzling questions, because it was easier. It was easier to live in a world where things were simple, where you could tell yourself that the heroes were the people you loved and the villains were the people you hated and there was no complexity beyond that.
But the world was not a simple place.
Emilio didn’t know the moment his hand touched the paper, but he knew the moment his eyes found the words. What was written didn’t matter. The letters on the page might as well have been hieroglyphics for all the difference they made. It was the handwriting that sent his heart plummeting down to his stomach, made his mouth go dry.
Rhett would never let Emilio claim that they’d lived together in Mexico. He’d had his van, and if he’d parked it outside Emilio and Juliana’s house so he could use their shower or eat whatever Juliana made in the kitchen that night, it wasn’t the same as living there. Emilio would roll his eyes, even if he’d known better to argue. And when Juliana noticed Rhett at her table more and more, she’d done things like demand he write down his favorite meals so she could make them from time to time. (Only when he deserved them, she’d say, pointing at him with a sly grin.) Those notes were always scattered around the house, Emilio laughing every time he found one. How the fuck is she even going to read this, man? This looks like you’ve never seen a pen before.
There had been others, too. Secret notes to Flora, left in the hollow space behind a brick on the porch. Emilio used to read them to her, pointed at the lettering on the page in hopes that she’d learn to read better than her father had, in hopes that she’d be more than barely literate the way most Cortezes were. Letters when he was away for long periods of time, little reassurances to his family that he wasn’t dead yet. Responses to the crude jokes Emilio scrawled by hand into the dust coating the outside of the van.
Suffice to say, Emilio knew his brother’s handwriting, knew it as surely as he knew his own.
He knew when he recognized it staring up at him from a page.
Ophelia was talking, was asking him what he saw, and he clearly wasn’t as good at schooling his features as he used to be. His hands trembled a little and he thought, with a bitter jolt, that Rhett would have made fun of him for that once. He didn’t know what to say, didn’t know how to respond to his niece. The room felt tight around him. Her world had ended, and she didn’t know it. How did you inform someone of such an apocalypse?
“Who… Who did you say wrote this?” Maybe he was wrong. He clung to the idea, though he knew it wasn’t true. There was no mistaking this.
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She wished she could decipher what it was in his expression that had him asking that question. Her gaze jumped from his face to the note and back again, trying and failing to make sense of his reaction. He was on the precipice of something, but she knew not what. He shook as whatever it was that he now understood settled in his mind, almost imperceptibly, but not for someone who was looking as frantically as Ophelia was. She searched, and he gave nothing. Nothing but dread, which she couldn’t understand. What was more dreadful in the note than what she already knew? The death of her mother and disappearance of her father, who she was feeling less and less certain would turn up alive with each day that passed? What could be worse than that? What?
“Barley,” the nymph answered slowly, terror constricting her throat. She was afraid to know what he knew. She didn’t want to share in whatever it was that had him questioning what he was seeing, but she also needed to. She couldn’t go another moment without knowing, and yet it seemed to be the worst thing she could ever hope for. “I… think. He never liked Rhett. Never liked us, either. Not really. He was a bastard, and he went missing that night.” She swallowed thickly, realizing that she was trembling just like her uncle. “Why? Why does it matter who wrote it? What does it mean?”
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He wasn’t sure what he was hoping for in her response. Some piece of the puzzle that would make the picture it created into something less harrowing, some explanation that would make sense in a way that didn’t leave him gasping. But her answer wasn’t some magical key that unlocked a kinder truth. It was a guess at something she didn’t know, something she couldn’t know. How could she? Ophelia had never received letters from her father the way Emilio had in his absence in years past, had gotten no secret notes like the ones left for Flora or dinner requests like Juliana demanded. Ophelia knew her father, but only on the surface. She knew the parts of himself he chose to present to her, and it seemed that those parts weren’t as true as he’d let himself hope they might be.
It was funny, in a way; part of him could understand what she would feel when he answered her question. The part of him that still lived on those bloody streets in Mexico with his uncle murmuring useless apologies in front of him, the part of him whose hand still held the hilt of a blade that disappeared into the gut of the only father he’d ever known, that part of him knew exactly what it was to find a betrayal like this waiting for you at the end of an already harrowing experience. It wasn’t something he would have ever wished upon his niece; it wasn’t something he would have wished on anyone.
He struggled with how he could answer her question, tried to find words that would make sense. Would it be easier for her in Spanish, where his tongue better understood the syllables bouncing off of it? He sometimes thought that bad news should be delivered in a language you had a poorer grasp on. It made him sick, sometimes, the way the people who’d killed his daughter had done so screaming the same language he’d once used to read her the silly notes her uncle left in their secret hiding spot.
Would she even believe him if he said it? Ophelia trusted him, but Rhett was still her father. He was the only biological family she had left in the world, and now Emilio had to tell her that he was also the reason why. Deciding, as he usually did, that action was a thing he understood better than words, he set the note aside and reached into his pocket. He retrieved his wallet, fingers still trembling as he opened one of the folds.
He hadn’t always carried sentimental items like this. It was something he’d started after Flora’s birth, though he’d always been sure to keep it a hidden habit. His mother would have found some way to punish him for it, for daring to make some attempt to be something he wasn’t, something he couldn’t be. Even now, years after her death, it would have been difficult for someone who didn’t know what to look for to find the small cut in the worn leather of the wallet, to know to open it and slip their fingers inside. There was more there than there used to be, more than just the photo of Flora that sometimes felt like the only proof she’d ever existed at all. Things like notes from Wynne, Teddy, and Nora had joined it over the last year. There were a few other scaps — momentos from Xó and Jade and even one from Zane that he’d deny if pressed.
But the scrap of paper he pulled out now was older than those. Worn and faded, creased in a way that spoke of how many times it had been folded and unfolded. He unfolded it now, setting it down beside the one Ophelia had brought with her. It was one of those secret notes to Flora, her name scrawled out carefully at the top of the page. But, like the note Emilio had just finished reading, the content of it didn’t matter. It was the handwriting that was important. It was the way it sloped and sprawled in letters identical to the ones detailing the ‘truth’ of Ophelia’s mother’s death.
Emilio let the two pages lay side by side, damning Rhett and Ophelia and himself, too. He didn’t know what to say, how to add to it. No language seemed correct for something like this.
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Confusion laced itself into her anxious expression as she watched Emilio take out his wallet. Her gaze jumped to see what he was digging for, but staring didn’t make it make any more sense. Eventually he pulled it free, and her dark eyes followed his hand movements as he unfolded it carefully, then leaned forward to set it beside the letter. He said nothing, and she squinted at the second piece of paper for a second before looking back at him.
“What…” Ophelia began, turning to the letter once more. She unfolded her legs, setting aside the pillow and leaning forward to get a better look. She jumped between the two of them, startled to find that the writing was the same.
No.
She read the second letter, the note left to Flora, Emilio’s dead daughter. Something Barley couldn’t have written, obviously. That made sense to her brain, but the rest didn’t. Then who? Who wrote the letter she herself had discovered in her mother’s bedroom? The answer was clear, of course. It was staring her in the face and she was squinting her eyes tightly shut, turning away, refusing to see it. But now it grabbed her by the shoulders, shaking her to attention and forcing her to make the connection.
“No,” she breathed, drawing herself up from the couch, snatching both pieces of paper in her hands and comparing them a final time. Tears sprang to her eyes. “No! He can’t—he wouldn’t—” He would. She knew he would. He was a warden who did not let grudges go, and he’d been crossed by her mother. Apparently, in all that time he’d been chasing her, he’d become an excellent actor too. Good enough to fool both of them into thinking he had changed. And Mariela, sun above, she’d been right to be wary. For all Ophelia’s desperate insistence that he’d changed, that he was different from the man that had run her off decades ago… she’d been wrong. She’d been deadly wrong, and it had cost her both of her parents.
Barley would not be returning to the aos sí. None of the missing fae would. Her father, be he dead or alive, had seen to that. All this time she’d been harboring a hatred for the victims, and defending the man she’d called her father when he was the one who—the one who—
Ophelia wailed, dropping the papers to the floor and letting her hands fly to her face. All that anger was gone, replaced in a flash by a bottomless sorrow. She fidgeted on the spot, panicking and needing to flee. She didn’t want to desert Emilio like this, but how could she stay? How could she not be reminded of everything she’d lost and the lies she’d been fed any time she looked at him?
She looked at him. It hurt just as much as she expected. “I have to go,” she squeaked out, hurrying to gather her things. “I-I can’t stay here. I have to go.” She didn’t know where, she just knew away from this town. Away from this state. To some place her father had not touched, where his far reaching influence could haunt her no longer. “I’m sorry.” She was speaking quickly, throwing on her jacket and shouldering her bag. “I won’t bother you anymore. I’m sorry.”
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He’d heard that when people witnessed tragedies, they later described it as feeling as though the events happened in slow motion. For the most part, that hadn’t been Emilio’s experience. The massacre in Mexico had happened in flashes, in blinks of an eye. His sister was screaming, and then he blinked and she was dead. His brother was running, and then he blinked and he was laying motionless on the ground. Lucio was apologizing, and then he blinked and there was a knife gripped in his hand and more blood under his nails. Tragedies that happened after that were always sprinkled with moments of bitter time travel. In the basement of the barn where Zane’s clan nearly killed Wynne and their roommates, Emilio had traveled from 2023 to 2021 with a brutal effortlessness. In the factory where Rhett lost his leg, Mexico and Wicked’s Rest existed in the same space. To Emilio, tragedy was a quick and savage thing. There was never even any time to flinch.
This one seemed slower. For the first time, he understood what people were talking about when they described car crashes as a thing that happened at half speed while you tried to look away. Her eyes darted between the two pages as metal grinded against metal, her eyes widened as airbags deployed. The realization that slammed into her seemed a physical force, a thing she couldn’t get away from. Emilio longed to pull her from the wreckage, to turn back the clock, but there was no use, was there? A factory, a barn basement, a living room. He was useless against every tragedy that struck, no matter how hard he tried not to be. He’d never been particularly good at rescues.
The thing he hated most, he thought, was that he should have known. He should have realized it from the very beginning, should have understood it right away. This story was one that had been written long before he’d even met Rhett. It was always going to end the same way. No hunter Emilio had ever known could let something like that go, no matter the circumstances. A tragedy was a tragedy was a tragedy, even when you dressed it up in something else’s clothes. A hunter was a hunter, even when he let you hold his hand.
“I — I’m sorry.” For what, he wondered? For telling her this, for not knowing how to make it easier? For loving the man who’d killed her mother, even now that the proof was on the table? For loving her, too, even when that only ever ended one way? She fell and she wailed and he didn’t know how to comfort her, didn’t know how to make things better. There was no recovery from a thing like this. There was no moving on. There was falling and there was wailing and that was it. That was all.
She looked at him, and he flinched as if her gaze was a fist swinging towards him. He thought he would have preferred a fist, would have been more comfortable with a physical blow over to look on her face. What was he to her now, he wondered? An uncle, still, even if the person who’d created that connection between them had likely relinquished his right to be called her father? Or a stranger who’d delivered to her the worst news of her life, the way he was to so many of his clients?
“You — You don’t have to…” He trailed off, unsure of what to say. How could he tell her she could stay when he knew how badly she wanted to leave? He wouldn’t have stayed in Mexico for anything, even if it had been safe for him there. No one could thrive in a ghost town, and wasn’t that all this could ever be to her now? “It’s not — You don’t bother me. I want…” He couldn’t say it, couldn’t figure out how the sentence ought to end. He wanted something, maybe, but he didn’t know what. He didn’t know how to ask for it. “I’m sorry,” he said again. “Opie, I’m sorry.”
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Pinning her wrist over one of her eyes, Ophelia overflowed with agony that she tried in vain to shove back down into the pit. She suddenly hated everyone that had ever told her how much she reminded them of her father—they were mostly other hunters, anyway. Others who saw her as a curiosity more than a person, she realized now. Others who… who probably knew, somewhere deep down, what was to come.
Others like Emilio.
He was speaking to her, apologizing and telling her she didn’t have to leave, and she couldn’t decide if she felt angry or heartbroken. Both, probably. Deciding to lean into the latter, knowing that the former would only burn another bridge that didn’t deserve burning, she stopped in her frantic hurry to leave and walked over to him. “I know,” she said, misty-eyed as she wrapped her arms around his shoulders. “It’s—” It wasn’t okay, but… “It’s not your fault. It isn’t.” Her lower lip trembled and she sniffed, closing the distance to pull him into a tight hug. “You’re a good person. I know that. You are, no matter what you think.” Not like his brother. Not capable of such monstrous things. A good heart. A steady hand. A troubled but functional mind. He was fair, and kind when he chose to be, when it was the people that deserved it. Rhett’s kindness had been a mask. He was a faker, a fraud, a liar. Emilio might have guessed what had happened, might have worried about it after having met her, but he couldn’t have known. Rhett had fooled all of them into thinking he wanted to change, that he just wanted to have family again.
“I just… need space. From this town, from… anywhere he’s been. I’m sorry.” She moved back again, wanting to be able to smile for him and tell him she was okay, that everything was going to be all right, but she couldn’t. That would be a lie. She wasn’t a liar. She had no idea how she was going to make it through this, but she knew she couldn’t do it here. “Te amo. I wish… I was stronger.” But she wasn’t, and she needed to run. The girl stepped back, letting her arms fall from his shoulders. “I’ll… write you, okay? Once I find somewhere else to… be.” Running the back of her hand across her eyes, she kept her gaze turned down toward the floor. She had this address at least, so she could send a letter here, should she ever gather the courage to write one.
“Take care of yourself, tío.” There was nothing more to say and she couldn’t bear to stand there and give him more time to protest, so she just turned and headed for the front door, feeling her shoulders start to heave again the closer she got to it. Would the hurting ever stop?
—
She moved towards him, and Emilio stiffened the way he always did, froze like the only way anyone had ever touched him had been with the intention of making something hurt. But that hadn’t been true in a while now, and never with Ophelia. She wrapped her arms around him and it wasn’t a blow, but he ached, anyway. He thought of the world they lived in, of the shitty place where they all existed with no place else to go. He thought of his mother, who would have killed him no matter how much he told himself she’d cared. He thought of Ophelia’s father, who’d done something unforgivable and lied about it. He thought of his daughter, who would never be anything more than a ghost. How were any of them expected to live like this? Was this all there was? He wondered if everyone ached the way he did, or if he was just doing something wrong.
His throat felt tight as she spoke, like someone’s hand was closed around it and tightening more and more with each word. He didn’t believe her words, though he thought he might want to. He thought he might want to think that he was a decent man, even if he knew he wasn’t one. He thought he might wish the things she said sounded true, even if they felt as fantastical as a storybook. Rhett had lied to Ophelia, had done everything he could do to make her think he was something he wasn’t. And Emilio, without meaning to at all, had somehow done the same.
Maybe some things still ran in families, even if those families weren’t connected by blood.
“I understand.” He wished he didn’t. He wished neither of them knew this ache, but that wasn’t an option on the table. Other people made choices — people like Rhett, like Lucio — and they were the ones left to deal with the fallout. Emilio was still in that living room in Mexico. Ophelia was still in that house on the mountain. They could, both of them, travel nations and worlds away, but it wouldn’t matter. There were rooms you never left. There were moments you never forgot. He knew that.
He closed his eyes for a moment, nodding his head. “Yeah,” he agreed quietly. He wondered if she ever would send that letter, or if he was something that would be easier to forget, too. He wouldn’t blame her for it. “You take care of yourself, too. Okay, kid? You… You stay safe.”
And then, she was leaving. And Emilio hated himself for how much it felt like watching Rhett walk out of his apartment those months prior, hated the fact that, even now, he couldn’t help but think how much she looked like her father. He watched her go, watched the door shut, stared at it for a moment longer. The house was empty. Everything was silent. And he was alone.
Wasn’t that how this was always going to end?
