Isaiah

main blog for @haunted-creation. Christian, 23, trans man, transandrobro

[scoubidouer]

hey yall!

This in my main blog, dedicated to everything and everything

I go by Ghoul or Isaiah and I use he/xe/it pronouns. I am gay for men and gay for women, and I am a transsexual male who is bigenderfluid. I have a pronouns.cc for details on ID, names, pronouns, and other info including alter info!

I AM 23

Conditions:

dxd CDD, ASD, ADHD, fibromyalgia, PCOS, and class II heart failure.

Information:

I am Christian, disabled, a system, queer, transgender, perisex, white, and live in the UK and the middle east. I have a psychology degree that I don't use lol, and my special interest is psychology and disability activism.

Side Blogs:

@haunted-creation - Christian blog

@atom1cgh0ul - system + activism related stuff

@ghost-in-the-archive - my mogai identities!

@at0mick1tty - cat content !!! sfw!!!

@fagwithagun - gun related content, 18+

@radr0ach - forcemasc content, 18+

@d0gme4t - wlw 18+ content, ran by Eden and Kitty

DNI: general DNI, pro-endo, sanist, pro genital mutilation of children (circumcision included), anti-religion, rad queer, pro-contact para

God Bless 🕊️

[skibidingus]

i am in no mood

[scoubidouer]

I'm in a hyperspecific mood now because I peed and it went all over my shoes and socks

[scoubidouer]

Tumblr I appreciate your efforts but I am neither ace nor aro. I am a very romantical and sexual person with limitless attractions. I am not acearo

[ultramanzer0]

is prev a warrior of light or an agent of darkness

warrior of light

agent of darkness

Voting ended onJun 4

[tuherrus]

you don't even have a dog

[lakevida]

literally for real going crazy in such a cyclical and incommunicable way i feel like im 14. hellooooo sufjan stevens i need your help again

[scoubidouer]

"as you walk through life, the untrained mind accumulates loops, habits, behaviors, to keep you drifting in circles. creating the same problems, reaching for the same solutions. over, and over, again. still, its the.. neural pathway of least resistance."

[skibidingus]

does anyone have any good tips for repressing

[scoubidouer]

rapid firing between Adderall, weed, and a bottle of gin did this for me

[disgustinggf]

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you're welcome

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[carby]

[voidsentprinces]

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[autism-official]

obligatory reblog of this after I forgot to bookmark them (again)

[lazybakerart]

romanticizing the unhealthiest and most fucked up fictional relationships and characters because i have free will and it’s fun

[imminentchaos]

The Artemis II mission is making me feel things

[saintgroovy]

Back when I had Twitter this got ripped and put on Pinterest, enjoy

[lambhooves-deactivated20180128]

a tiny old woman came into the deli and ordered a “wonderful turkey sandwich” and when asked what she wanted on the sandwich other than turkey she said “all of your most wonderful toppings”

[flavoracle]

Mental Crop Rotation

When farmers grow the same crop too many years in a row, it can leave their soil depleted of minerals and other nutrients that are vital to the health of their fields.

To avoid this, farmers will often alternate the crops that they grow because some plants will use up different minerals (such as nitrogen) while other plants replenish those minerals. This process is known as “crop rotation.”

So the next time you find that you need to step away from a project to work on something else for a while, don’t beat yourself up for “quitting” that project. Give yourself permission to practice “mental crop rotation” to maintain a healthy brain field.

Because I’ve found that when that unnecessary guilt and pressure are removed from the process, a good mental crop rotation can help you feel more energized and invigorated than ever once you’re ready to rotate back to that project.

[bomberqueen17]

: A crucial part of crop rotation is that the field is let fallow sometimes. You plant what’s called a “cover crop”, which is something you don’t expect to harvest– it’s there for its roots to hold the soil in place, and often it’ll be what’s called a nitrogen-fixer, i.e. a plant that can pull nitrogen out of the air and fix it into the soil with its roots (but sometimes it won’t, sometimes it’s really just there to shelter the soil surface), and then you’ll till in that cover crop, or let the frost kill it and the stalks lie as mulch, and then you’ll rotate productive crops back into that field the next season. 

It’s important, though, to understand that during the fallow period, no nutrients are removed from that ground, and nothing is expected of it. Whatever the land grows then, it keeps, and it gets tilled back in or decomposes in place, to return its energy to the earth.

We’re not allowed, in our current society, to just let our minds be fallow for a bit, to produce nothing for export, to make nothing that can be sold. But it’s part of good land stewardship, to give every field time when it doesn’t need to give you anything back. 

So yes, grow and produce different things from time to time, rotate them around your mind and exercise different mental muscles, take different things from your creative processes, yes– but also, give yourself a fallow spell now and again, and let the field of your mind grow things for itself to keep, to break down and save for later. 

[highvelocitysandwich]

Positive mental health AND agriculture??!?

*slams reblog button*

[binturong-of-the-day]

The binturong of flatness

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[no-bucket-required]

Is Lucy meant to be experiencing an orgasm here?

I think symbolically/metaphorically . This is the moment where she realizes she has a taste for violence. To me it’s a parallel to this moment of the ghoul in the Filly episode:

Like Ghouper she’s competitive, she likes violence on some level and we know she’s a crackshot. I feel like we’re going to see this side of her more as the show progresses, but hopefully using it for good.

I think the drugs remove her inhibitions where she would normally feel shame about violence even against feral ghouls which she was previously against.

The fact that she’s lying in her back, blood on her face, while cooper watches mind you, tells me there is a sexual element to this. The whole episode is riddled with sexual tension from the moment she wakes up in the NCR camp to the drug scene. Cooper is also enjoying the show she makes of killing ferals. Not only are connected by their enjoyment of drugs and violence in this episode, but there is also a sort of sexual gratification on both ends.

For cooper it’s probably getting off a bit on the fact that he’s a bad influence on her, for Lucy, it’s finally getting some release from the frustration of being treated like shit by everyone she meets. There is a release for both of them, they’re both finally getting something they’ve been subconsciously craving.

And the fact that she’s always looking to him for approval after each altercation tells me there’s some awareness of an exchange, a push and pull between them that is (and maybe my brain is just broken by kink) almost like a BDSM dynamic.

She needs release, she looks to him for permission, he gives it, they both get release

Rinse and repeat

So orgasm in the literal sense? Perhaps? Maybe a tiny one? But in the psycho sexual dynamic of violence, control, enabling, and freedom between them? Yes. Absolutely.