i bleed when i fall down || scout and athena
athenaganero:
“Well I am here, so I guess I’m not going to go. And, I don’t know if you saw the blow up in our communications, but I can’t possibly be Nat’s favorite person right now. I wouldn’t put it past her to have everyone give me the cold shoulder.” As Scout rambled on, Athena took a moment to gauge her well being. She seemed… good. Might be skipping a meal or two, but the bags under her eyes weren’t at the most concerning levels Athena’s seen from the hacker, and she doesn’t smell as though she’s forgotten to shower.
At the roll call of people who’d traipsed through Scout’s place, Athena couldn’t help but laugh, her mouth slightly ajar at the names mentioned. “Seb beat me here? I am the absolute shittiest then. Yeah, I figured you’re all caught up in your games or something and might have forgotten to refresh groceries or lost your take out menus or something.”
She nods at the offer and slips in through the front door, glancing around Scout’s home. It wouldn’t be the first time she invited herself over, but every time she did come, she had to reacquaint herself with the lay out. As the door closed, she glanced over at her friend, concern in her gaze. “How’ve you been, Scout? I haven’t… heard anything from you since we heard Mickey was ok at the Palais Garnier. Are you…”
The last thing Athena wanted to do was admit culpability, but this wasn’t to Nat, and Scout wouldn’t hold it over her head. She doubted the other woman was capable of it. How could Scout be years older than her, and yet Athena still thought of her as a little sister? “Look, I was an absolute bitch to you. You were doing your best. If you hate me right now, independent of Nat, I’d get that too.”
The conversation felt weird. Normal, in their mannerisms, in their way of managing to talk to each other even through her own verbal stream of consciousness. Strange, in the stilted way Athena lingered outside of her door, looking around as though she hadn’t been in a while.
But since she got back, she’s been slowly walking away from her desk for longer and longer periods, something burning in her chest, the desperation from the con weaning off, the anxiety of all of this being futile filling her bones with lead.
And then Athena was confessing, and Scout felt tears prick at the corners of her eyes (had she cried yet, since Paris?), before shaking her head. (It was a cooling relief that Athena didn’t hate her, didn’t blame her for what when wrong. But still, her anger was justified.)
“No, no, you were right. I should have done better, could have done better, but I messed things up instead. That’s on me. If anything worse happened, if anyt-”
Her voice broke and she turned away, taking the food offered and busying herself with putting it away.
“That would be on me. Not finding him, that’s on me.”
I can’t find him.









