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caught up in a dream

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You found out:

* You don’t want to manufacture relationships.

* You want to be delighted in.

* You don’t want to convince people you’re delightful.

* You don’t want to abandon yourself.

* You want reciprocity.

* You want someone who celebrates you.

* You want to remain whimsical, honest, and calm when you like someone.

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You’re trying to remove the habits that appear when you’re anxious:

* oversharing because you’re nervous,

* overexplaining because you want to be understood,

* overtexting because uncertainty is uncomfortable.

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I don’t want to spend my life convincing someone that I’m delightful.

Stop manufacturing and engineering opportunities.

It’s ok to just be you

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You’re no longer trying to exile a piece of yourself. I am incredibly compassionate

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I did so much today.

I’m so proud of myself.

I took out my whole storage unit and put it in the living room and stuttered addressing the things and organizing the things that have long bend just stagnating for nine years it was the thing I couldn’t do in DC. It was the thing that I needed help in but today I did it. I mean, I’m gonna keep doing it. It’s the first step to the life. I really want. I don’t want any more subscriptions. I don’t want sadness. I don’t wanna be burdened anymore. I don’t wanna just keep piling things.

 I used to shop every time I needed something I used to compensate for things like my weight by by buying more clothes by wearing more makeup because I didn’t really like who I was I wasn’t confident and I see all of the things that I have that has just accumulated and I have so many things that I don’t need and I feel really sad, but I also have to love that part of me that needed to go through this, I don’t buy stuff anymore. I’m not as impulsive anymore and it’s just really something that God it was killing me I think.

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Even the steps backwards are part of the dance

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Being alive is the special occasion!!

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what it says about belonging, love, self-betrayal, and the cost of being visible.

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Hi babes.

In case you forgot, YOU are stargirl. that's who you are.

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Val please remember to think that your mom is going to take care of you is a mistake

It is a huge mistake

She is always going to need more than what she can give

You will always feel depleted and spent

She won’t offer to cook for you, or care for you, or take something off your plate

It’s not possible

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2026: channeling pain into purpose

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ALL I WANT TO DO NEXT YEAR IS FOCUS ON CREATING like do wild shit w my hands

Make things and get so fucking good at it

I want to learn and just remember the joy and grief in hours of throwing

I want to throw bigger and fucking better and enjoy every minute of it

I want to fuck shit up and I want to feel alive and take in the joy of pottery

And invest in myself and focus on myself and just do the things I want to do

I want Toffel to thrive and I want to learn Spanish and I want to defiantly rewrite this mother fucking year

And just like be happy and relax and fuck shit up next yr!!!!

There were just so many expectations and things I really wanted and that’s ok. It just meant I had big feelings but my talent has always been channeling that into creating and learning and that’s what I’m going to do

Im going to fuck shit up, like get ready ceramics world

I will change the game

I want to make this hobby fun again for me and for everyone

I want to demo and talk and not teach just like have the joy of being watched and perform and be creative you know

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Because we’re built for resonance. Sharing turns a fleeting moment—a flower, a joke, a stray thought—into something that feels anchored and witnessed. Without that echo, life can feel like it slips past unmarked.

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All I want to do is share Toffel photos with you.

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“وعندما أرحل تأكد بأني فعلت كل مافي وسعي للبقاء And when I leave, be sure that I’ve done all I could to stay.”

— (via 030586)

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I did Val. I did all I could to stay.

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Last year around this time I wished for someone to watch movies and grab a beer with. This year, I wish for someone to travel with.

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I got this wish and I lost it again. The lesson is .. things are worth wishing for

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Why does August always suck?