beka

https://www.instagram.com/acchiappalividi

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my hypochondria is coming back again (the less i do and the worse i feel)

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not this time bitch

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my hypochondria is coming back again (the less i do and the worse i feel)

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feeling again

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Cynthia Zhou aka Ethernautics

Ant Chess

Oil on Canvas

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how Britney Spears shaved her hair to zero in 2001,

i dyed my hair purple in 2026.

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2026

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you know... she’s a thousand times more beautiful now and im a fucking monster.

she smiles, she walks with her expensive clothes while im surviving and trying to forget her.

she lives her life, she found people better than me. i still watch her cross the courtyard, sometimes weeping.

she now has many doors open before her and all seem to love her. im alone, alone with myself and trapped in a life of frustration.

she only looked at me once after everything that happened and i had a pale face, the crusts on my face due to a flu just passed.

im sure you thought "it's your loss".

yes, i lost.

i lost myself.

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i literally see myself as a superior being who cannot be categorized into a gender and cannot be sexualized that can decide the life and death of others because im a deity and the owner of all the people and everything

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wander in the dark, hoping to disappear

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i think that my vision of the existence is twisted because i consider myself a soul that can travel worlds, galaxys and universes and my body is only a part of my voyage that i can leave to do another adventures

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obsessively returning to that field of my traumas to find my lost ingenuousness.

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you never feel how if that between people, in your places, in your house, in your school, in your city, in your country, there aren't spaces and possibility for you? and will there never even be in the future?

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i left this place for a while because.. you never felt trapped?

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all of a sudden i feel like a ghost. i feel so alone.