The Powder Room

Having grown up in the midlands i left London in the hope of fresh adventures. This blog documents all of the most overwhelming parts of being an acorn hoping to be a great oak. an endless list of exciting romances. interesting work dilemmas one can only find in the hospitality profession. This is a diary of anything and everything in my life significant enough to record. To one day look back and see life through the eyes of my younger self once again. To help me plan and think out each goal i wish to conquer- one blog post at a time.

[searchingforawayinlife]

ugh!

so as most tragic romances the one i had put my faith in has let me down, lied and throw me into the middle of a cross road. All in the name of a £300 bet with a colleague to sleep with his receptionist. Now that he out of our flat and sound asleep in a hotel room i have been rewarded with space. Tomorrow, i will not be here when he returns home, or the evening after... i don't need him, but i want him terribly...  i don't believe he will put up a fight, and nor will i. Another one might just bite the dust.... ciao my italian lover.

[art--felt]

I remember first learning that you can cry from any emotion, that emotions are chemical levels in your brain and your body is constantly trying to maintain equilibrium. so if one emotion sky rockets, that chemical becomes flagged and signals the tear duct to open as an exit to release that emotion packaged neatly within a tear. Everything made sense after learning that. That sudden stability of your emotions after crying. How crying is often accompanied by the inability to feel any other emotion in that precise moment. And it is especially beautiful knowing that it is even possible to experience so much beauty or love or happiness that your body literally can’t hold on to all of it. So what I’ve learned is that crying signifies that you are feeling as much as humanely possible and that is living to the fullest extent. So keep feeling and cry often and as much as needed

[searchingforawayinlife]

Just A Small Bump In The Road

It seems a life of turmoil is almost unavoidable… work has terminated my contract with them, for a handful of reasons that I find shocking, naturally. Seeing as though I had believed myself to be doing a great job; albeit I was very unhappy and it has been evident for quite sometime that it was the wrong company for me. Our beliefs and operational experience almost always conflicted where it would have either myself or my boss at boiling point. I am not ashamed of what happened, not even a little bit. I am fantastic at what I do, I just wasn’t right and it meant I couldn’t be as brilliant as I would have been in a company that saw their people right… they failed me, and they failed themselves and i guess mutually we decided to break up.

 Today was the day of ex boyfriends, apparently the past cant help but bite me in the ass…. I saw my best friend for the first time in 4 months accompanied by a mutual friend and my ex boyfriend… an interesting but entertaining combination. The one that got away cant seem to keep away… text me once again today, I shouldn’t have given in and replied… but well I guess a girl has to get her answers. You should know that our conversation was only the appropriate small talk before I decided enough was enough and left him hanging on his last message. Now I’m sat at home ever so slightly tipsy and waiting for my actual boyfriend to come home, that is he isn’t with this “imaginary” girl I seem to have made up… according to him. I could be waiting a long time, or maybe he is working hard like the trooper I know and love….. Only time will tell.

  So I still have 6 weeks to go before I start my new job and god only knows what I will be doing with this time? Apart from feeling morbidly sorry for myself I have been reasonable productive. I have cleared out all of my belongings, ridded myself of the pointless and now life is lighter… I think I do still have a little bit of clearing out to do… would be great if I could fit it all into two suitcases… just in case this “imaginary” other woman turns out to be not so imaginary.

  But despite the bad I am excited for a future that feels overwhelmingly far away…this new company feels good, they like me and I believe I will do a fantastic job there. This time off has given me chance to realign me inner balance and I will be more than ready to get my sorry ass back to work completely over my mishaps… what comes next is good, I can feel it!

[wnq-writers]

You can’t always be somebody’s ‘forever’. Sometimes you’re just their ‘summer’ or their ‘little while’ …. Sometimes not even that. Sometimes the closest you’ll get is their ‘almost’ or their ‘maybe’ And when they leave, the best you can hope for is to be their ‘what if’ or ‘remember when’… Because you can’t always be somebody’s 'forever’ …. even if they were yours.

Ranata Suzuki (via muffytakesmanhattan)

[wordsnquotes]

Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.

Maya Angelou  (via wethinkwedream)

[animalsnaps]

Love quotes? you will love this blog!

[searchingforawayinlife]

I want to live simply. I want to sit by the window when it rains and read books I’ll never be tested on. I want to paint because I want to, not because I’ve got something to prove. I want to listen to my body, fall asleep when the moon is high and wake up slowly, with no place to rush off to. I want not to be governed by money or clocks or any of the artificial restraints that humanity imposes on itself. I just want to be, boundless and infinite.

[aurelle]

Live in such a way that if someone spoke badly of you, no one would believe it.

(via edamamemama)

[devashi-blog]

#strength #power #truth #thoughts #mind #soul #spirit #meditation #mindfulness #affirmations #yoga #wellness #positivevibes #energy #message #determination #transformation #loa #success #motivation #life #inspiration #om #namaste

[refiningfire]

[wnq-writers]

Be like the ocean. Breathtaking to look at, strong enough to not be destroyed, and gentle enough so others find comfort in your presence.

cwbrooke (via wnq-writers)

[naturaekos]

“If something burns your soul with purpose and desire, it’s your duty to be reduced to ashes by it. Any other form of existence will be yet another dull book in the library of life.”

Charless Bukowski (via naturaekos)

[searchingforawayinlife]

Rules of life

1) Fuck 2) Don’t give a fuck 3) Don’t get fucked over

[thoughtsfromawallflower]

[realizes]

“I fell in love with her courage, her sincerity, and her flaming self respect. And it’s these things I’d believe in, even if the whole world indulged in wild suspicions that she wasn’t all she should be. I love her and it is the beginning of everything.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald (via realizes)

[naturaekos]

“We rise by lifting others.”

Robert Ingersoll (via naturaekos)

[dearjohn-dontgo-deactivated2016]

me as parent