Heartbreaking Pain ...
I always asked ... Are you sure? He kept reassuring me. I can’t help but think I’ve lost my will for everything. To smile. To laugh. To be loved ...
He brought me here only to be cruel. To break me in to pieces and wonder if I am worth it. To wonder if I can ever be loved. He broke my spirit. He broke my heart.
I loved him so much and I can’t understand this pain. I thought I’d hurt before ... this is a hurt like no other.
I hurt that I want to make disappear ... forever.
I don’t know what to do ... how to not feel the pain ... how to go back and remove the knowledge of him at all.
I need someone to hold me ... tell me I am ok and worthy of real love and that even though I can’t feel anything but numbness, that one day, the sun will shine, my life will be back on track and that the feeling I have right now, will never be anything more than a memory that needs erasing.
I beg that I don’t have to be alone tonight ...










