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Did some spot rereading of These Violent Delights and now I'm tearing up it's just. Reading it the first time I was so deep in the unreliable narrator mess of Paul's head but looking at it like this I'm just. It's so much more obvious how much Julian really loves him, no matter how deeply Paul convinces himself that that couldn't possibly be true. He spends so long trying to convince him of it, but Paul's so completely wrapped up in his self-loathing that it breeds the resentment he so fears. I just. What they had. What they could've had if they'd both had access to therapy.

vomityaoi

on being siblings.

evelyn, evelyn / natalie diaz / clive baker / sharp objects / gillian flynn / micah nemerever / ethel cain / ginger snaps / mabel: matryoska / dear evan hansen

ladymonstrous

manga dazai, when he found out fyodor was using chuuya against him: you lab rat. you fucking bug. i am going to kill you and all the genes that contributed to your fucking birth. you will never see the light of day again you will die in this fucking prison and i will make sure of it you anemic motherf–

anime dazai when he found out the same thing: oh well. that sucks

theshippirate22

i love mlm ships because it’s always like here is objectively every straight girl’s wet dream and here is the absolute fucking weirdo he’s obsessed with

#ssk #chuuya is the hot one #dazai is also the hot one but mostly he's the weirdo

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osa would rather combust that initiate affection💀

today i learned that pirates wore eyepatches to improve their vision at night and not because they were injured, which naturally made me think of PM Dazai covering one of his eyes with bandages so he could see better in the DARK, the territory of the Port Mafia. and if we're talking about metaphors, we could talk about how after Oda's speech, Dazai being on the side of good, Oda unraveled Dazai's bandages because he didn't have to see in the dark anymore, be in Port Mafia. He started seeing in the light.

#bsd dazai #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd analysis #bungo stray dogs dazai #bsd theories #chuuya covering dazai's blind spot because he was the light #dazai could see better in the dark with the bandages #but was crippled with a blind spot #chuuya made up for this #also metaphorically #does that make sense #teen skk #skk

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i'm so sorry

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i miss youuu

batmanisagatewaydrug

listen I ended up regretting saying anything about this on my old blog because people will interpret literally any and every statement maliciously on this hellsite but I want to start like. a helpline for people who are like “hey I pretty much only read YA but I’m like 22 now and don’t relate to teenagers as much, it’s such a shame that there are no fun books written for adults :(” because boy HOWDY are there some fun books for adults

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maybe I’ll start a big google doc or something one day but for now *deep breath*

The Beautiful Ones (Silvia Moreno-Garcia) - absolutely BUCKWILD romance with a dash of telekinesis; nonstop high society drama and misunderstanding from start to finish, happy ending guaranteed. STRONGLY recommend if you, like me, are a basic bitch who enjoys a bit of Pride and Prejudice.

Binti (Nnedi Okorafor) - a math prodigy runs away from Earth to become the first of her people to attend a prestigious university in space, but shit gets real when a crew of hostile jellyfish aliens attack her ship.

Chilling Effect (Valerie Valdes) - a spaceship captain and her crew take on a series of convoluted missions in order to rescue the captain’s sister, who’s been frozen and held for ransom.

The City of Brass (S.A. Chakraborty) - an 18th century conwoman and a mysterious djinn team up to go looking for a legendary hidden city.

The City We Became (N.K. Jemisin) - a scrappy bunch of Chosen Ones have to band together to defend New York City (which is very much alive) from a huge ass monster.

The Empress of Forever (Max Gladstone) - a lady supervillain gets blasted into space and meets an even bigger, planet-destroying evil space empress. literally WHAT is not to like?

The Empress of Salt and Fortune (Nghi Vo) - high fantasy royal drama about a woman making her way to power in the wake of a political marriage that left without friends or allies.

Escaping Exodus (Nicky Drayden) - a space-faring clan are creating their latest spaceship from the insides of a giant monster when absolutely everything goes to shit (as things are wont to do in science fiction stories).

Fierce Femmes and Notorious Liars (Kai Cheng Thom) - a trans girl runs away to the big city, where she uses her martial arts skills to team up with other trans woman and form a vigilante gang to defend their own when police look the other way. a fascinating blend of poetry and prose and magical realism.

Finna (Nino Cipri) - two exes working at an IKEA have to team up to save a customer who disappeared through one of those interdimensional portals that all IKEAs have laying around. you know how it is.

Gideon the Ninth (Tamsyn Muir) - come on, you’ve heard about this one. it’s the one with the lesbian space necromancers? yeah, that’s the one. you got it.

In the Vanishers’ Palace (Aliette de Bodard) - a Beauty and the Beast retelling based in science fiction and Vietnamese fantasy, featuring a young woman falling in love with a “beast” who’s actually a motherly dragon after becoming a tutor to the dragon’s two powerful children.

Jade City (Fonda Lee) - urban fantasy gang wars, pitting one magically enhanced family against rivals and a new drug that lets anyone mimic their abilities.

The Library of the Unwritten (A.J. Hackwith) - hell’s librarian gets sent on a quest to find a runaway soul.

The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet (Becky Chambers) - aka one of my favorite books ever, essentially slice of life science fiction following an interspecies crew of deep space truckers making the longest and most complicated delivery of their lives. very warm and fuzzy.

Mort (Terry Pratchett) - one of many MANY Discworld books, but a very good one to start with, following the adventures of a boy named Mort after he’s taken on as Death’s apprentice. you know, like the Grim Reaper? that Death.

River of Teeth (Sarah Gailey) - historical AU in which the United States imported and domesticated hippos in the Mississippi River; follows a crew of hippo-riding crooks and hooligans as they plan one heck of a caper.

Space Opera (Catherynne Valente) - a washed up rock star and his old bandmate get roped into performing in an intergalactic singing competition that will determine the fate of the entire planet Earth. full of aliens, attempted assassination, art, and emotional turmoil.

This Is How You Lose the Time War (Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone) - time-travelling assassins from rival factions fall in love in a poetic and breathless story that spans centuries and reality.

Under the Pendulum Sun (Jeannette Ng) - fairyland is real, and Victorian England is sending missionaries. a woman and her brother attempt to bring the good word to the fair folk, but start to suspect the queen might just be screwing with their heads. PEAK gothic horror with a creepy fairy twist.

Witchmark (C.L. Polk) - a doctor and former soldier with magical powers of healing is trying to live a quiet life and avoid his controlling, aristocratic family’s plans for him, only to get tangled up in a massive political conspiracy when one of his patients mysterious dies. accompanying him in his investigation is a mysterious and gorgeous faerie man. romance ensues.

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The First Sister by Linden A Lewis. Three protagonists and all of them queer, a fun space opera. It’s not out yet, but I can tell you it’s really, really good. I highly recommend

Gods of Jade and Shadow another Silvia Moreno-Garcia book. It takes place in 1920s Mexico and has Mayan gods. A fun breezy book.

Kill the Queen by Jennifer Estep. If you like YA fantasy but want a little more swearing, violence and sex then this novel is for you.

The Bridge Kingdom by Danielle Jensen. This one I really enjoyed. If you like the winner’s curse then you’ll like this book.

Books I haven’t read but I’ve heard good things about

Trouble the Saints by Alaya Dawn Johnson. This one isn’t out it but I believe it’s got a black protagonist.

Empire of Sand by Tasha Suri. An Indian inspired fantasy novel. I haven’t read this one but I’ve heard good things about it.

Rage of Dragons by Evan Winters. A black fantasy novel.

The Unspoken Name by AK Larkwood. I haven’t read it but I know it’s got a lesbian protagonist.

Song of Blood and Stone by L. Penelope. Just started this book but I believe it’s for adults.

Tiger’s Daughter by K Arsenault Rivera. Lesbian protagonists and it’s still on my tbr.

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petitesmafia

Dazai (15) telling Chuuya “that’s what makes me love you!” vs Dazai (15) setting up a surprise party and telling Rimbaud all about what Chuuya’s like despite only meeting him for barely a day vs Dazai (16) telling Verlaine he thinks about Chuuya in his every sleeping and waking moment vs Dazai (22) telling Sigma he’s been thinking about Chuuya daily for the past 7 years vs Dazai (22) telling Chuuya “you and i are destined”…he’s never beating the allegations and honestly i don’t think he’s even trying to

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HE’S WHIPPED!!!!!!!! Dazai fell first and harder supremacy tbh.

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YOU GET ITTT Dazai fell first and harder truthers RISE UP

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Married SKK hc where Dazai wants to stay up until Chuuya comes home, but even their couch is so stupidly comfy that he ends up falling asleep (he sleeps so much more since he is with Chuuya).

So Chuuya comes home to his husband curled up like a cat on said couch and his chest fills with warmth as he picks Dazai bridal-style up and murmurs, “Stupid mackerel, why didn’t you go to our bed.”

And Dazai wakes up, but is sleepy and Chuuya’s arms are warm, so he just wiggles closer to him in his arms and nuzzles his face into the crook of his neck. “Chibi’s the stupid one, I can’t sleep without my ugly slug.”

And Chuuya snorts and rolls his eyes as he carries Dazai to their bedroom, asking, “And what were you doing just now, dumbass?” Dazai is too fuzzy and sleepy to keep up their bickering; instead a soft “Waiting for Chuuya.” slips out.

And Chuuya smiles just as softly and presses a kiss on Dazai’s forehead. “I’m here now.”