The Arts of Madness

I put to much thought into things. A fan ficiton blog written by someone who puts to much thought into everything that no one thinks about. 18+ for gate keeping reasons. You have been warned.

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These little dog puppets are cropping up more and more like little weeds (affectionate). They are a genuine joy for me to draw.

Also my first WIP in like forever!

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I wanted to type this out on a keyboard but I don't feel like pulling myself through the whole "What is my password and why am I resetting it for millionth time".

Something has dislodged in my brain for the better. Something that I never realized that I had been holding onto. A repulsive and ugly set of memories that had been gripping me for the better part of a decade. This negativity, this fear, has gripped my creative endeavors for the better part of half a decade. I've come out the other side of it though. I hadn't even realized how long I held onto them, and how much they had consumed my spirit. For the first time in 5 years drawing is...fun again.

I'm not worried about not being good enough for once.

I'm not afraid anymore.

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in my diseased state of delirium I almost posted a sketch of sewer cryptid mohg. this did not happen I'm going to lie down I'm not well enough to draw right now. @_@

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This'll just have to do. I forgot the reference I used but it's a study of another artist's study. Studyception.

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Baby Mohg from cursed angles.

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In fact I've done nothing but draw Morgott and Mohg for the past week, but I legitimately don't know what to post ever because they're super rough and ugly looking. So maybe I should clean and refine them? Even then some are like bits and pieces of bigger stories...

*shrugs*

This line of thinking is what chased me off of posting for so long lmao.

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I have finished 2 sketchbooks and one chapter of a very difficult anatomy book. 😤

When I'm not drawing I am still drawing every single day. Like every day. Except maybe weekends and even then I should probably be drawing.

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Morgott anatomy studies. That is all.

I am still not sure how to render all his body hair so today's interpretation is shag carpet from the 70s.

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Shut up I accidentally wrote a arthurian tale into my Morgott fic. Same knight name and everything. Oh man I am so pumped now im getting a coffee beverage with whip cream on it and just going to write all day dang it!

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Happy New Year.

I have gone through a dozen cans minimum of Blackberry Dr Pepper and still have not concluded whether or not I like it.

The study will continue indefinitely until I reach a conclusion.

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Ive done it. It is 64 chapters long and the word document needs to be reorganized and numbered but the outline is done. Even the hand written chapters are numbered (accept for 2 of them but I know where they go).

SOON. EVERYONE WILL BE SMOOCHING EACH OTHER SOON.

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I guess one more thing.

Does anyone have a good way of bringing up the quality of sketches? Like refining them for better clarity and making them look more "professional". I'm stumped on how to do that.

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Thank you this concludes your monthly art spam from me. Pray and chant with me so that next time I'll have a complete drawing/painting.

I'm also 15 parts away from finishing Swan Songs outline. Then it's organizing the summaries, and filling in the holes.

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A rough sketch experiment for a planned painting that will happen eventually. I'm just not sold on the composition. :V

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Anything and everything is liable to be refined and painted I keep telling myself. Including this. (lol lmao)

A rare drawing with Lorraine, Percival's Finger Maiden, despite all the rage and slight incompetency she does in fact love Percival and hates what happens to her. I imagine Finger Maidens have to feel a little bad about what they have to do.

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Baby try inking again. Mixed results.

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Percival, I have realized, while drawing these is not meant to live longer then about 3-5 days at a time. Anything beyond that and she starts *asking questions*. Can't have that. It really puts a damper on everything.

This is why she has the braincells of an orange cat.