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True/False game. Make an assumption about me in my ask and I’ll tell you if its true or false. Go.

when I think about what I WANT to do with him I kinda draw a blank. Not that I don't wanna do things with him, but something feels off. And Idk what it is ! Ummmm I guess I feel like I'm being dishonest ? I don't know what to do about it though. Is it like, I'm trying too hard to try to like him ? I guess it feels like that. thanks impulsivity. But also who knew he'd take it seriously. It's a bit overwhelming ? And even more so because it feels like he's not serious lol

But idk. I think first I should try to not be so useless ? Though it kinda backfires more often than not,,

I'm not sure what to think about. And the more I think about whether I have real or fake feelings for him, the more pressured I feel.

Like, I like him. but at the same time, like, what out of what I know about him is true and what's false ? I feel a bit topsy turvy or whatever.

Also stresses me out that like, I've more or less been a glory hole/cumdump for guys. While there's something different here, it actually like rly hurts. I prefer when he's honest, which he is being in that instance, but all the time.

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I like how weird things can be, but ultimately time just disappears, and when I start feeling kind of numb or whatever, I start to feel bad and wonder "am I faking it?"

Obviously if I were to be faking it it would be for dope. But, I just shit my pants off the stuff. though I draw and can enjoy music, it's just kinda like "wow I really am a selfish person aren't I ?" and I don't exactly know how to remedy it, though now I do, because it's just unconscious..

To make matters worse, my "paranoia" makes me not want to be near him, touch him, or believe him, which further lends itself to the idea I'm faking it.

Idk. I feel stuck in a simultaneous pushing/pulling situation. I have a hard time understanding anything he feels. and like, he's very clearly said he doesn't care ? Or at least it's easier to distance himself.

It hurts like a bitch when he does that, and it feeeeeels like some semblance of love

But idk