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MILAN feat. RYDER

––––––––––––––HE MADE A mental note to make sure to check in on her more often. yes, they weren’t dating, but they’d be spending a lot of time together and in some ways would be friends. he liked to look out for the people in his life, especially because, despite what he said, he had a feeling she did this more often than not. mostly because he knew he did at some point in his career. it’s not to her fault, but he did’t want it to catch up with her.             ‘ i’m sure. things can get busy. trust me, i understand. ’      he laughed softly. but he understood where she was coming from when it came to staying in. they could get food delivered to the door and not have to worry about cameras and pictures. even if that was the point of this, they didn’t have to focus on it, they didn’t have to put on another appearance. not when all they wanted was food and to get to know each other beyond any business-focused things.          ‘ sounds good. i’m gonna hold you to that. ’      he grins, loving the smile already on her face. it has a component of lighting up the room and he truly adores it.       ‘ okay, no sushi. ’        it’s not something he needs to argue with. he doesn’t really eat fish anymore.       ‘ okay so i’m choosing between italian and thai ? whatcha think ? we could also do both, but that’d be an interesting mixture. i have some things to drink the fridge but we can also order more if you don’t like anything in there. ’        there were things to consider, including how she’d leave his place without it seeming like more than it was and being pictured. but he wasn’t going to dwell on that.            ‘ also, if you want something to change into or anything else to get comfortable, let me know. ’

               before they met, milan was BOMBARDED by her publicist team, warning her that celebrities as famous as ryder were particular and horrible people. so when they first sat down to discuss the terms of this public arrangement, she was surprised how kind and considerate the male appeared to be. a nice change of pace compared to a few celebrities that she’s had the MISFORTUNE of meeting. it’s difficult to admit, but he takes really good care of her, better than she ever anticipated. ‘ i’m gonna leave that decision to you. if we get both, you better be sure that we’ll be able to finish it. i’m not big on leave behind any leftovers. ’ the promise of food is more than enough to replenish her energy reserves and she’s beginning to feel less tired with each passing moment. for now, milan will cast away any ideas of leaving the complex without being spotted, she’ll cross that bridge later in the night. if anything, she’ll have a friend pick her up so she can save the HORROR of racing to her uber. ‘ trust me, ryder. i’m not picky and i’m sure your taste in food and drinks is good. ’ she reaches over to take his hand in her’s and gives a reassuring squeeze, ‘ ---and yes please, i’m dying to get out of these jeans. ’

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REVERSE starter call !!

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MILAN feat. EVELYN

––––––––––––IT WASN’T COMMON for evelyn to show up as a mess. sure, she showed up on milan’s doorstep often, but she’ll attribute to that to how much admires and truly adores milan and her presence. but she’s rarely this much of a mess, and she’s already working to move beyond it. she takes milan’s advice and keeps it close, remembering it for a later time. after all, it was helpful, it just didn’t feel helpful in this particular moment. instead laying on the bed felt like an easier way to address her concerns.         ‘ ouch, that stings. ’        she teases, feigning hurt, only to shake it off moments later. it’s fun banter, not unusual to their  dynamic.            ‘ please, you love it when i just show up. makes your life a little more interesting. ’             it’s that similar playful tone, leaving her to roll her eyes as she looks over to the girl when she rolls over.        ‘ where would you be without me in your life ? ’

             most days, she’s expected to return to an empty apartment or occupied by a few friends if they were visiting, but her most frequent visitor was evelyn. when the random appearances started, milan was a bit SKEPTICAL as to why the model she shot with once kept coming to her place, but with a few positive hangouts and their personalities MESHING together so well, the questioning halted. at times, she’s surprised she’d come back and not see the girl present lounging somewhere in the space. ‘ life can be like that. get used to it. ’ her response is dry and short, a scoff leaves her lips and it only makes her roll her eyes at them. ‘ might as well take the spare key i leave on top of the door frame at this point if you’re over so often. ’ milan’s relieved, happier to see that the other was no longer in tear, ALLEVIATES much of her concerns. brows quirked, amused at the question, ‘ well, i would have some alone time for once. but i guess you’re the next best thing. ’ 

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SANTIAGO feat. CHAI

“Then you shouldn’t have let me.” 

           ‘ me ?? you’re really going to pin this all on me. this is YOUR FAULT as much as mine. ’

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SANTIAGO feat. ANSLEY

      the two are complete opposites and it had left many to question how the two even had crossed paths in the first place.  it’s ansley so of course she would have something smart ass to say when he had basically called himself out for being a bit of a nerd.   “ even nerds you know have to find some fun in other ways. it’s summer which means you should just forget about all this studying bullshit for awhile and actually come out and enjoy life outside of this place. “   she has always been the type of girl up for an adventure even if it was just a walk in the woods or on the beach. it had just seemed like all of her friends were busy with their relationships to take time out of their days to hang out with her which is what landed her at santiago’s place.  “ come on and live a little, the books will be here when you get back. “ 

              he’s unsure if he should take her comment as a compliment or an insult. while it was true that santiago had a HABIT of keeping to himself and focusing on his studies, so maybe ansley had a few legitimate points. ‘ i’m a med student. we don’t really have a summer and i still work at the hospital, y’know. ’ suffice to say, he has a bit of a DIFFICULT time relinquishing the responsibilities of his professional and educational life. he mulls over the idea and he knows all too well that he should allow himself to have some fun. ‘ fine. since you’re making me out to be some kind of prude, i’ll take a break. ’

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i’ve been sick for the last couple (?) weeks and on top of that shit hit the fan in my social circle and even while sick, i had to mediate these disputes, but everything is drafted and i’m feeling. hopefully i can start knocking them out later tonight and tomorrow

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bruised foot, fever, last paycheck, and scholarship. the universe had me in the first half ngl

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hi, just wanted to say that if i interact with your bullies/abusers please let me know. emotional and physical safety should always come first, and i’d hate for people to be made to feel uncomfortable, vulnerable or unsafe online because they’re exposed to people that have done them harm. lots of love xx

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i ain’t gonna lie the activity bar is more receptive but the whole other set up sucks. i’m gonna watch a movie

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what the fuck is going on with tumblr?? my format on old posts look like ass i can’t use the <sub> feature. i am CONFUSED

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@summcrtimesadness​

             ‘ i wish you had NEVER trusted me. ’

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LIKE this for a starter !! chances are it will be a bit angsty and a one liner

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MILAN feat. EVELYN

––––––––––––EMOTIONS WERE MUCH harder to deal with when it was a little too chaotic. but she tries not to think about it too much, not at this rate. she does appreciate milan understanding though, it felt like more of a rarity to find someone in this scenario. she appreciates when milan doesn’t continue pushing her own advice, although it’s probably advice that evelyn will take to heart. maybe when she’s in a more stable mindset and not coming out of the largest crying fit she had in a while.           ‘ good. i’d be hurt if you didn’t have a soft spot for me. ’       she teased softly, rolling her eyes when she collapsed onto the mattress. evelyn finds herself falling onto the mattress with her, scoffing at milan’s statement. she appreciated the easy shift and moving the focus away from her emotional state moments ago.       ‘ mmm, i beg to differ. i mean, i wouldn’t be here i wasn’t hot shit, now would i ? ’

               well aware of the boundaries, milan had NO desire to cross it. at least not with this particular situation. anything else and she’s more than willing to play devil’s advocate, but not today after witnessing them show up on her doorstep in tears and a blubbering mess. she just hopes that the advice is taken into consideration at a later point. her gaze remains fixed on the ceiling, CONTENT with the cushion of the mattress alleviating her aching muscles. ‘ at best you’re lukewarm shit. ’ she’ll never willingly admit that she does have a soft spot for the other, even if it is a known fact. no sense in inflating their ego even more, so instead, she’ll turn it into a banter. felt more suitable for their typical interaction anyways. ‘ we did a few projects together and you just started appearing on my doorstep like a lost puppy. ever since then, it’s been impossible to get you to leave. ’ of course her tone is PLAYFUL as she rolls over to her side, propping herself up on an elbow. 

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MILAN feat. RYDER

–––––––––––HE WONDERS IF her days are usually like this. if she’s busy and doesn’t have time to eat or forgets too. things that he shouldn’t worry about he’s suddenly thinking about. he should have known better, considering waving it off. it could have easily been a one day thing, something that would warrant much less worry than he currently has. he tends to do this though. worry when he doesn’t need to, focus on things that aren’t something he’s particularly supposed to focus on. but he had very early realized that if he didn’t look out for, quite literally, for the people around him, people that did matter to him, that things fell apart rather quickly. something he was keen on avoiding.        ‘ it gets away from you. happens to everyone. ‘s long as it’s not a common thing i think you’re good. ’        he’ll give her the benefit of the doubt, a smile still on his lips. it’s nevertheless a thought that he has now, making a note to make sure she’s okay when they’re together. they put on a show for such a small period of time he’s sure it’s probably easy to fly under the radar, but still.          ‘ oh, i feel that. don’t need the cameras in our face again. ’           he laughed, shaking his head.             ‘ my worst celebrity encounter ? there’s definitely a few of those. think you’ll be amused if not anything. ’        he pointed out, pulling out his phone.          ‘ so, what are you in the mood for ? think we can pretty much get anything delivered here. ’

              milan has the tendency to overwork herself and amidst the stress and chaos of her typical workday sometimes she ate very little and other times a lot. a whole lot. there really wasn’t an in-between. she really couldn’t blame him for worrying, but she WISHES that he wouldn’t look at her with too much worry in his eyes. though, there is something heartwarming about ryder’s concern that reaffirms that he’s not those celebrities that never cared about other’s wellbeing than their own. felt like a breath of fresh air being around someone so authentic and down to earth. failure to recognize the irony of it all as she is typically the person hounding everyone on her team to take the required breaks throughout their long and stressful day. ‘ only on the busier days i get like this. it does not happen too much though, today was just an interesting day that’s for sure. ’ the PROSPECT of going out was unappealing to her, she could not bear seeing another camera or have various men and women yelling at her as if it was the ideal situation for a photo-op. gave actual photographers a bad name. ‘ i’ll tell you mine if you tell me your’s. ’  she offers, tucking her legs underneath her a childish smile adorning her features mimicking an excited kid on christmas day EAGER to open present. ‘ honestly, anything. ’ with the mention of her poor eating habits of the day, she’s only realizing how hungry she actually is. ‘ i’m not a picky eater, but please, no sushi. i’m somewhat scarred from my last experience. ’ that was definitely the last time her team decided to purchase drugstore sushi when on a time crunch.

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SANTIAGO feat. EVELYN

––––––––––––AS HIS JAW dropped, she laughed, shaking her head softly, pressing a kiss to his cheek. the conversation was funny, yes, but it was clear that this wasn’t what was supposed to happen. they were supposed to have a casual day out without people taking pictures and constantly watching each move they made. it was exhausted and knowing they couldn’t hang out outside the confines of their places was definitely weighing heavy on them. despite having this casual relationship that did center around sex, they were also friends. and they clearly wanted to do other things, things that friends could easily do. they didn’t get many moments to just hang out. especially with santiago’s crazy schedule and studying ( which she truly admired ), and then when she booked jobs, it made it hard to find enough time to just exist. so now an actual frown settled on her lips when he spoke, taking a moment before being absolutely determined to have part of the day that they planned.       ‘ we’re still gonna have our day out. fuck them. ’        she frowned, trying to find a way to make this work. hands going to either side of her face, she softly tilted his head up.      ‘ how do you feel about disguises ? think we could get away with something simple and still have our day out. ’

              santiago’s life as of late felt like a WATERED-DOWN black mirror episode; he was always watched or recorded. at first, it did inflate his ego a bit, but now, it frightened him a bit, as well as coming to the realization he basically lived in his scrubs. he truly commended evelyn for handling the press so well. just once, he would enjoy an outing uninterrupted by third parties but is now convinced that it won’t ever happen and if it did, it’d be a rare occurrence. the two had busy lives, always in and out of their homes for extended amounts of time, and on the occasion, they spent with each other, the locations were far too limited. soft hands then guided his gaze to connect with her own, brows furrowed not too convinced that a second attempt at going out would be any different this time around. ‘ not too opposed, just don’t slap on some itchy mustache on me. do you think it’ll work since we’ve already been out ? ’ he is interested by her idea and honestly, at this point, he’s desperate to be away from their homes and bask in the nice sunny weather for the meantime. though, he remains SKEPTICAL with this idea, unsure if it could be SUCCESSFUL. ‘ fuck it. let’s do this. got nothing to lose, right. ’

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SANTIAGO feat. ARIANNA

“is it really, though? i mean.. i could have done that, yeah. but i was curious about you.”     arianna tried another excuse, surprised at how badly she was doing with this. usually she’d come up with better things to say.

            santiago chose to stay quiet this time, refraining from uttering any WITTICISMS to pass knowing that it may be too harsh. ‘ i’ll let you figure that one out. ’ with that, he hesitantly shifts his weight so he’s leaning over the counter. ‘ CURIOUS ? that’s uh--- that doesn’t sound good either. ’

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LINK feat. MONICA

Monica bit her lip. It meant a lot that Link and the other artists thought that about her, but she wasn’t sure if she could see herself visiting anymore. Not while her ex still worked there and probably paraded around with his new girlfriend. “Well um… th-thank you for saying that, i-it’s really sweet.” She told him truthfully, shifting her weight from one foot to the other. “You all g-grew on me too.” She managed a small smile. Honestly, being around all of them was like having friends, something Monica simply wasn’t used to. “I-Is that… all you wanted to tell me?”

             breakups were emotionally DRAINING and already difficult to grapple with, but factoring infidelity into all of this, link knows it only amplifies feelings of sadness and hurt. so it’s only right that he helps out in whatever way he can and if it meant assuring that monica was alright after shit hit the fan, then so be it. ‘ uh, yeah. that’s it. WANTED to make sure that you’re okay. shit could be rough. ’