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sunfortune

first man to win the wanting to fuck her so bad he looks stupid olympics

castielss

#every time Kate does something BRIDGERTON SEASON 2

dearabsolutelynoone

I’ll take my kanthony reparations in the form of kanthony in utter material bliss living their very best lives and going at it on every flat surface as the major subplot of season 3

kanthcnys

kathony + ship dynamics

cal-kestis

GRATUITOUS GIFS OF ANTHONY BRIDGERTON 🎩 (4/?) ↳ that dimple when he’s with kate

bonus (even when thinking of kate):

cal-kestis

GRATUITOUS GIFS OF ANTHONY BRIDGERTON 🎩 (5/?) ↳ jaw clench

mental health check

It's so weird to think back and remember memories from last year still so vividly. I think it's because the last times we were really happy were that of pre-COVID19. It has been so long since I’ve been really, genuinely happy.

I think I’m generally mentally healthy, but I’ve just come to realize how this pandemic has taken a toll in my mental health. All those months that passed. Have I always been in denial that I am mentally stable?

#pandemic #mental health

taylorswift

For years I asked, pleaded for a chance to own my work. Instead I was given an opportunity to sign back up to Big Machine Records and ‘earn’ one album back at a time, one for every new one I turned in. I walked away because I knew once I signed that contract, Scott Borchetta would sell the label, thereby selling me and my future. I had to make the excruciating choice to leave behind my past. Music I wrote on my bedroom floor and videos I dreamed up and paid for from the money I earned playing in bars, then clubs, then arenas, then stadiums.

Some fun facts about today’s news: I learned about Scooter Braun’s purchase of my masters as it was announced to the world. All I could think about was the incessant, manipulative bullying I’ve received at his hands for years.

Like when Kim Kardashian orchestrated an illegally recorded snippet of a phone call to be leaked and then Scooter got his two clients together to bully me online about it. (See photo) Or when his client, Kanye West, organized a revenge porn music video which strips my body naked. Now Scooter has stripped me of my life’s work, that I wasn’t given an opportunity to buy. Essentially, my musical legacy is about to lie in the hands of someone who tried to dismantle it.

This is my worst case scenario. This is what happens when you sign a deal at fifteen to someone for whom the term ‘loyalty’ is clearly just a contractual concept. And when that man says ‘Music has value’, he means its value is beholden to men who had no part in creating it.

When I left my masters in Scott’s hands, I made peace with the fact that eventually he would sell them. Never in my worst nightmares did I imagine the buyer would be Scooter. Any time Scott Borchetta has heard the words ‘Scooter Braun’ escape my lips, it was when I was either crying or trying not to. He knew what he was doing; they both did. Controlling a woman who didn’t want to be associated with them. In perpetuity. That means forever.

Thankfully, I am now signed to a label that believes I should own anything I create. Thankfully, I left my past in Scott’s hands and not my future. And hopefully, young artists or kids with musical dreams will read this and learn about how to better protect themselves in a negotiation. You deserve to own the art you make.

I will always be proud of my past work. But for a healthier option, Lover will be out August 23.

Sad and grossed out,

💔

Taylor

silentvacancies

Introvert Problems

Hi. If you’re reading this, thank you. Somehow you reached my blog. Welcome! This is my first blog post. And I’ll be talking about some of the problems I encounter as an introvert. Disclaimer: I am definitely not a psychologist. These are just from my personal experience as an introvert surrounded by extroverts. :)

People think I’m anti-social. No, I am not. This is a common misconception of introverts. I am not anti-social. I am just not comfortable during social interactions. But believe me when I say that I’m trying. I really am.

I carry an invisible battery for social interactions. And most times, I get drained after hours and hours of social interaction. But just hang in on there, I just have to recharge and I’ll be back. See, I told you, I’m trying. :)

I come off as a rude or snobbish person sometimes. In connection with #1, sometimes people think I’m rude or suplada just because they think that I’m ignoring them. No, I’m not. I am just a very good listener. It’s true tho!!

The struggle of having to speak to someone and there’s no escaping (e.g. the cashier, the bus conductor, the saleslady). I swear, sometimes my tongue just wants to curl up and that makes me want to gag. Lol. It’s just so hard!!! I always end up being tongue-tied and unsure of what I’m saying especially after the spontaneous “Hi, Ma’am! Welcome to *insert fastfood chain*! May I take your order?” And then my heart just races so fast. GAAAAHHH.

Choosing a night-in instead of a night-out. Okay, this isn’t really a problem. But sometimes, I feel so bad for choosing to stay inside than going out with family and friends. There was even a time where my friends thought they might have done something wrong because I didn’t wanna hang out with them but eventually, they understood how introverts roll. Lol. I just cannot say no to a good book or a good Netflix show. :)

This is a late post (a very, very late post) BUT I finally got my Bachelor’s degree in Accountancy last April! <333

2017 is almost over.

Oh, hi. It’s me again. And again, I’m sorry for letting you down, Tumblr. My last blog was nearly the end of 2016 and here I am again, blogging, days before 2017 ends. Wow. I feel like I’m not being fair. You’re still here. And most of the times I forget about this blog. But you’re still here. UGGGH. Thank you.

Anyway, 2017 has been a shitty year for my country. I hate it so much!!! It’s also the year I failed the CPA board exam, (yay me!) and the year I missed a The Vamps concert in my country. IT SUCKS. But it’s also the year I graduated, the year I won a M&G with The Tide, the year I got to have a very, very long break where I just watched hours and hours of series, the year I reconnected with my old friends. So I guess there are still lots to be thankful for. And I thank YOU for still being here. Thanks, Tulmblr!!!

I know I can’t promise this because I’m a shitty person that will leave you hanging and probably come back before 2018 is almost over. Lol. But I’d like to try and work out my blog again. I miss writing. I miss having to share my emotions, feelings, etc. with people I don’t even know. Lol. See you again if I did make this thing work. :)

My stupid self

I hate the fact that I left my Tumblr hanging!!! I mean, I had a lot of great friends here four (+) years ago. And it sucks that I never managed to keep in touch with them. So.... If you're one of my old friends from Tumblr, I just wanna say how sorry I am and I really miss those times when we send TA's back and forth. AHHHHH! It feels so weird to backread my Tumblr inbox. I never really remembered how much friends I made over the Internet via Tumblr. I miss that.

#lol #stupid #me

hello

I love how Tumblr stayed for me. The last time I used my Tumblr was almost two years ago! It’s always great to come back here once in a while and rant about all the things (and shit) that have happened in my life. Sometimes it just feels so great to have someone (or in this case, some website) to spill out everything that’s been in my mind but I couldn’t say or at least find someone to properly talk to. Everyone I know are either experiencing the same frustrations as I do or are very busy with their lives that they don’t have time to talk things over a cup of tea (or something). I’ve always been so vocal about my problems. In fact, I do love sharing bits and pieces of my personal life to them but I don’t know… Things have definitely changed and I’d rather keep things to myself than have them carry the same burden I have. Anyways, it's good to have you with me, Tumblr. Thank you for staying.

When you're halfway through your last year in uni and everything is fucked up

It’s a dead end. Whether you like it or not, you can’t escape the fact that you’re soon to graduate. You have to finish everything, study everything, submit every fucking paper work. There’s no backing out now… Which leads to the thinking that: Am I really for this course? Do I really love what I’m doing? Is this the path I’m supposed to take?

But there’s no turning back now. It’s a dead end, my friend.

#tired #university #school #shit

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Loving this cover of Better Together (Jack Johnson) http://fntmz.co/cc/1232/14188